to find the true me

2009-12-25T00:00:00.001+08:00

BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!! =D

Summer Snow

2009-12-08T21:33:00.001+08:00

It's summer snow in the deep blue sea
I try to touch but it fades away
It must be a dream I will never get
Just like my love that's crying for you

If there was something not to change forever
We could feel it deep, deep in our hearts
Today was over with a million tears
Still everyone has a wish to live

Oh, I do believe everylasting love
And destiny to meet you again
I feel a pain I can hardly stand
All I can do, is loving you

It's summer snow in the deep blue sea
I try to touch but it fades away
It must be a dream I will never get
Just like my love that's crying for you
Just like my love that's crying for you

2009-10-12T13:20:00.002+08:00

CHEM IS OVER!!!!!! lalalalala~~~
xD

whew. now only left bio mcq... then FREEDOM!!!
=D

oh, JIAYOUs ALL THOSE TAKING H2 ECONS!! ALL THE BEST!!

not tat any of them would be reading my blog half hr b4 their paper.. haha

ok, so some updates on my promos..

math. attempted to study.. then give up n went thru mock promo paper n do corrections.. Thank You Lord for leading me to do tat! in the end, promo the qns come out quite like mock promo! =) & for once i could attempt recurrence n functions!! =D wah, really God's grace tat i did tat.
so the paper seemed easier.. esp since its taken after chem paper3.. but still.. i left quite some blanks.. haix. but at least wont fail as bad as mock promo. (i got 27/100 ><)

chinese. compo was >< go ask about s'pore flyer, then u inside kanna stuck then wat happen etc etc.. WHAT THE!! haix. but got no choice have to do tat qn, cos the rest also cant really do.. this one at least wont die as bad.. but got so much things i wanted to write but cannot cos dunno in chinese.. ><
paper2 not so bad. in fact it was quite easy (esp after chem paper3) thought 爸爸的花儿落了 will come out.. & IT DID! =) not tat i bothered to study for chinese.. so no diff.. lol. but the paper seemed easy.. but whether i get the marks is another thing..

chem. paper 2... see 1st qn, skip. (like i did last time) only diff is i tried tat qn later. lol. was on double titration.. (which we did like countless times tis yr) but i forgot liao.. >< could attempt most of the qns.. so guess its relatively easy.. (esp compared to paper 3) last qn shld be full marks.. but the rest of the paper cant guarantee. hopefully wont die too bad.
paper 1. relatively easy again esp compared to paper 3. (i guess the whole promos seems relatively easy compared to paper 3...) but dun think i'll do very well... rushed thru the whole paper at 1st.. so didnt allow myself to take too long to ans the qns.. so sure will do wrong one.. then got quite some is anyhow ans one.. then like halfway, 2/3 thru the paper then slowed down... then in the end no time to finish the last 2 qns... so anyhow shade without even looking at the qn.. but i doubt i know how to do tat 2 qns anyways..
oh wells.. hopefully chem overall wont die too badly.. ><

only left bio mcq tmr!!! wheee~~ =D

only one paper remains... only one thing stands between me & freedom.... & class chalet!!!! =D

2009-10-11T22:47:00.002+08:00

today cell was fun!! haha.

played "i had never..." (relative to the past month) & i "killed" chloe!! haha. cos she down to her last finger.. then my turn... n everyone was giving suggestions like "i had never worn a trinitarian shirt for the past month" (she was wearing trinitarian shirt) or "i havent wore a green uniform.." (she from rijc) etc etc.. i said:"i have not served for the past month." haha. so she 1st one out cos she's been serving like every week lately (& serving today too! --& everyone knows tat!) xD

but at least i not so bad lor. at least mine will kill jer, josie, n chris as well. haha. (cos justin, eman, kevin not serving in IGNYTE) eman super bad.. he went "i had never worn a red shirt..." (chloe down by one finger) he obviously aim her lor! haha.

then phoebe keep aiming the jc students. cos she the only one in poly mah.. so easier for her to shoot all of us then for us to shoot her. lol.

chris idiotically shoot himself. cos his turn. then he n jer both 1 finger left. then he tried to hai him (cos we needed just one more to do forfeit --eman kanna by then liao) then he went "i have never gone to sentosa.." n he die. cos he thought jer got go sentosa play volleyball but he nvr.. haha!

but kevin the best! he go "i have never gone home for the past month!" everyone down by one finger... =.=
oh, another one. "i havent seen my parents in the past month" =.="
(cos he m'sian mah..)

so anyways, chloe, eman, n chris do forfeit. had them hold the pen in the air, turn 10times, then drop the pen n jump over it..

SUPPER HILARIOUS LAR!!!!

chloe was like wat's so bad about tat.. (cos she nvr do b4/nvr see ppl do b4.. haha)

chris stumbled forwards n sideways after jumping.. n landed half on josie n half inbtwn him n sis serene. haha. superb funny. n jer go record him some more!! hahahaha. (the rest wasnt video, cos only jer was videoing, then eman was out of the screen, chloe was blocked by chris..)

eman couldnt even jump. he spun liao, then cos too dizzy once he stopped, he tried to pause a bit b4 jumping... n ended up falling backwards..!! LOL. fell in btwn the mic stands n stuff.. *ouch* at least the worst injury he got was a few friction burns..

chloe was really dizzy b4 she reached her 10th round.. so she slow down.. so in the end she not so dizzy.. n successfully jumped over her pen... only to then plop down on the floor! hahaha! but hers not as funny as eman n chris..

today's cell is sooo totally fun! hahahahahahahahaha!!!!

josie, gab, jaye, n danny serving in DL today! hahahahaha.. revert back to childhood days!! =P

eman n justin gd.. disappeared b4 service.. haix.

for once (like finally!!) the z2 guys tried to include tat 2.. (cos they very dettached from the z2 except for the cell..) went to 7/11 together, but they didnt buy anything in the end.. then when we heading back to church, chris n the guys were in front, me n phoebe in the middle, n the 3 guys lagging bhind.. then at the escalator i then notice they not behind us.. but were hanging ard the entrance of church..

in the end, after a while, kevin came up, n eman n justin zhao cos they got some "unofficial business".. ya right.

haix. but oh wells.. cant force them.. at least they're coming for cell..

today, guest speaker from melbourne, australia, P jesse, youth pastor of P david doery... hmm.. jesse & david... lol. one is earthly father & son in the bible, the other is spiritual father & son.. haha.

he's quite fun n funny n fire-y, n passionate. preached about identity issues. relevant in a personal way. can tell he really cares about the youth, even though we're not his "flock".

next week my turn to serve!!!!! =D

2009-10-07T13:25:00.003+08:00

wheee~~~ bio's over!

LOL

changes happening once more.. haix. this will be the 2nd time we change teams this year... haix..

as i thought, broZC will split me n josie. cos me n josie seems quite close, cos we both same team mah (both team leaders too) then same cell.. so in cell see each other.. in tech serve/lead together.. then not serving we also together cos half of who's left in the cell is serving, then sometimes the others will sit with their frens... lol.

at least it looks tat way (the splitting part) cos me n josie now in diff teams, while the other team leaders are still in their same team/sub-teams. actually it seems like mostly is my team split half... ya.. come to think of it i think the other teams are most/less intact....

lol. forgot to say wats the change. DL going thru revamp,n they request technical help from IGNYTE. so to support them while ensuring we dun have lack of manpower, we have to merge the original 3 teams n split into 2 new ones, of which each team is further divided into 2 sub-teams. (so there's 4 subteams.) the original team leaders still remain.

but looking at the new team deployment, seems like my team has been split into 2 n separated into the 2 teams.. the other 2 (original) teams have hardly any change in their ppl. haix.

maybe its not done on purpose.. but just happen to zhong my team to split.. haix. but at least pam is in my subteam! =)

haix. so now no more joseph to work with.. got shamus n brendan. haix. it was easy working with josie, whenever got anything going on we always keep each other in the loop. its like an unspoken agreement. even in the simple things like reminding the team tat we're serving tat week one of us will always do it without needing to tell the other, but we always msg the other too so tat they'll be informed as well. haix.
but shamus?? from past experience (when i'm under him) he doesnt remind the team as he assumes they'll always rmb when they're serving. n sometimes he doesnt msg the team info they have to know..
brendan? i have no idea. he became a team leader same time as me.. so no idea wat it'll be like. oh n he's my other subteam leader.

haix.

oh, miranda's in my subteam too! =)

haix. just realised. since we're now back to 2-week serving schedule, good news is (YES!) we get to serve more often (=D), but bad news is now i wont be able to sit with jer or josie during service anymore.. haix.

cos at least last time is either jer, or me n josie, or chris serving at any one week.. (cos 3 teams mah) so the other 2 teams not serving can sit together in service (as a cell i mean). but now cannot. its either me n chris serving (either in IGNYTE or DL) or josie n jer serving (IGNYTE/DL).. haix. n plus chris like to sit with his frens one... haix. then chloe usually (more like almost always) serving.. (n when she's not, she sometimes sit with her frens too) haix. then emmanuel n justin n yx dun always come for service (though they've been coming quite regularly minus last week) so in the cell will left me n the 3 (though usually yx dun come) so 2 of them.. then a bit weird.. cos i not tat close to them.. if got another cell member then not so bad... so i'll most likely end up sitting with my frens then.. (but its weird too.. cos my frens so happen to be in the same cell as each other minus me).. haix.

dun get me wrong. its not tat i dun wanna serve in DL, to support them.. in fact i'm really look forward to it (it'll be cool n awesome!) its just tat i dun like changes.... esp big ones like tat.. (must he split my team in half??) haix. =( he probably has his reasons why he split the teams like tat bah.. but still..? haix.

why couldnt we go back to the old times when i 1st joined n there were 3 teams?? last time was 1 team do fuel, 1 team do service, 1 team break. so why cant we do the same thing?? 1 team do IGNYTE, 1 team do DL, 1 team break.

like tat we all get to serve more, n plus the teams wont be disrupted.. n everything is covered adequately.

haix.

but he probably has his reasons.

haix.

so sad... now have to wait one more week before i get to serve again.. haix. =( cos by the old schedule, my team suppose to serve this weekend... but in the new schedule, josie's team is serving (lucky him) but my team is the following week.. haix. tat means this time i have to wait FOUR WEEKS before i get to serve again!!! WAAHHHH........ ><

haix.

dun like such changes...

haix.

so far promos not gd.

GP unpredictable.. i scared my essay dun do well.. then compre confirm wont do well.. qns all anyhow answer.. vocab all the words i know... n yet i dun know.. haix. then aq also die. of all things the passage has to be on cloning! n for-cloning too! if its anti-cloning maybe i got some hope.. cloning is one of the few topics i know both sides but i CANNOT accept the side tat i dun agree with. even for tat important marks i also wont write anything in agreement with wat i dun agree with. not for this topic. haix. so die lor.

econs is no hope. my econs like U all the way. (more/less..) study/dun study not much diff.. haix. essay qns i write super little lar!! >< at least case study might have a bit of hope.. but tat one also cant guarantee.. haix

chem paper 3 is goner. super hard lar!!! then somemore i nvr go thru electrochem n forgot my ionic!! >< soooo screwed. left more than half the paper blank.. haix.

bio wasnt so bad. esp in comparison to chem.. shld be able to pass bah... but still... haix. lost a lot of marks. studied DNA this morning.. but see the qn n forgot wat i learnt.. haix. then essay qns very familiar, cos got come out similar qns b4..but nvr study meiosis/mitosis/mutation/etc then cannot rmb.. so write like only half a pg for an 8m qn.. left the other 2 parts blank.. (but at least i not as bad as joled. he left the entire essay blank --which i've done b4.. xP) then my chi square very sad.. i calculate the answer like 1000+++, but see the table they give the answers all between 1-10 kind of thing.. my answer's at least 100 times bigger than their biggest value lar!! so i thought i do wrong.. so nvr write down my answer.. wasted my time attempting the qn n nvr write answer... some more the answer was CORRECT! DANG IT! at least it shld be correct.. cos the guys ask mg if the ans was 1000+ n he say yes.. so almost 100% sure my ans was correct! dang it! n i nvr write down! lose marks for nothing.. haix. then cos i busy trying my chi-square-which-i-wont-get-marks-for-cos-i-nvr-write-down-my-dang-correct-answer, i no time to finish my respiration... N I SPENT LIKE THE WHOLE YESTERDAY NIGHT CRAMMING IT INTO MY BRAIN! waaahhhh... sianz.. then some more is i know how to do one!!!!!! >< haix.. =(

still left math, chinese, chem paper 1&2, n bio mcq...

haix.

bio mcq hopefully can save me.. but no guarantee..
chem paper 1&2 if dun save me i die like no one's business..
chinese shld can pass.. but it cant be counted in the criteria to promote..
math...... was actually relying on it to get like B?? but mr heng make it sound like i'll be lucky to pass... plus while some of my math still ok, some chapters really cannot make it (like recurrence n functions.. ><)

haix.

i shld be practising math n not be blogging... haix. but wats the use if i'll probably wont do well anyways... haix. at this rate i'll probably still be in j1 next yr.. haix..

promos....

HAIX!

2009-10-01T23:31:00.005+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY!!!!
not tat we celebrate children's day anymore..
but we do have no sch today...
but tats cos its our study break..
>.<

did some chem. tats all.
PROMOS STARTING TMR!!!!!
GP is tmr.. haix. gp based on luck one..
><

anyways, found something interesting from whysharksmatter

(in case u cant read backwards, it reads:
WARNING -- predators beyond this point
humans kill over 100 million sharks every year.)

(this is what it looks like pasted in an aquarium)

interesting right? n yet sooo true. seriously, humans are the most dangerous predators ever known. look at how we're destroying everything?!

anyways, talking about sharks,ACRES is doing something interesting. Smash A Soup Bowl To Save The Sharks. apparently u can go to the atrium @orchard this weekend n smash a bowl against a wall for a donation of $2. (sounds like a gd way to release stress from promos???) artists will then transform the broken bowls to art pieces, n all proceeds will go to ACRES' education n animal welfare efforts. so if u're free (or too stress) why not go down n be part of this event? u'll be smashing bowls, breaking traditions, n making an important statement (n de-stressing from promos) all at once!

lol. seriously. i'm not joking.

talking about de-stressing.. we're making flour babies on sunday!!! hhahas. apparently they're like stress balls... to help us release stress from too much studying!! haha. =P

joined the nySBO team. haha. had always wanted to do things like this every since i could rmb.. but nvr dared.. (cos everytime think i cmi) so at 1st dun wanna join.. (as in i want to, but i wont)

then mg go say the topics.. cell bio(no big deal), plant anatomy (*yawns*), animal anatomy(ooooohhh!! *eyes lights up*), ethology(oh! oh! *sits up straight becoming very excited*), ... haha u get the pic.

the team has to go research on the assigned topic(s). i'm like "no prob". fan zhen i'll sometimes do my own research (for fun) n read up on some of these anyways. (like lately i'm following whysharksmatter so i'm getting lots of updates on stuff related to sharks/the ocean)

whahaha. so i joined in the end! ^^

really wanted ethology n animal anatomy. got half of wat i wanted (animal anatomy). plus evolution (which isnt too bad, but for the fact tat i cant agree with certain aspects of it...) oh wells. at least its interesting! =D

hahas. mg scold me on facebook. TWICE! both times tell me stop playing mafia wars n go study! hahahas. xD ppl must de-stress wat..lol. but seriously, i'm cutting down a lot liao. last time play for few hrs straight. now cut down to like 5min. ><

haix... 2 more weeks... just 2 more weeks... n i can go back again.. =)

2009-09-30T19:29:00.014+08:00

MOST BRAINLESS THING I EVER READ!

was clearing mail in com lab during the break ytd, and link here link there til i stumbled across the most ridiculous n brainless thing ever!

"I read the rest of the article, which terrified me even more. Apparently shark fin soup is a delicacy in Asia:To supply the market the wasteful process of "finning" often takes place, in which the fins are cut off the shark and the rest of the body is thrown back into the sea.
Oh, great. We’re just maiming the sharks and dumping them back in the ocean. Now I’m worried about super-pissed-off amputee sharks with no dorsal fin to signal an approach."

--a quote from an anti-shark person

like seriously?! like do u even have brains?? or are u just not using em? when i counter something i usually try to be respectful in some ways... n i respect those who can debate with others politely. but this!!?

ok, lets start frm the beginning

"Sharks scare the hell out of me. I’ve watched enough Discovery Channel to know that sharks are pure killing machines that never sleep and have eyesight poor enough to equate a human with a sealion"

for one, discovery channel has been portraying the 'Jaws' stereotype version of sharks. yes, what they show is true, refering to their teeth, deadliness, etc. sharks can be dangerous no doubt. BUT they are NOT pure killing machines. many people, scientists, researches and the like have swam with sharks, for years even, without a single accident. besides, most sharks are unable to cause any harm to humans. only a few species has been known to attack. sharks have also been observed engaging in playful activities (like catching). discovery channel failed to show tat there are more to sharks then just killing.

two, countary to popular beliefs, sharks do sleep. unlike most fishes, sharks have to swim to pump water over their gills to 'breathe'. they also dun have swim bladders for buoyancy n have to swim constantly to prevent sinking. species with spiracles are able to pump water at rest. this means yes they do rest at the bottom of the seabed and sleep. for those tat dun have this, they have to swim continuously to ensure they have oxygen. for some, like the spiny dogfish, the spinal cord coordinates swimming instead of the brain (sort of like a reflex action) so they can sleep while swimming (like an albatross can sleep while flying). it is also possible tat sharks sleep in a manner similar to dolphins, resting one cerebral hemisphere at a time (basically "shutting off" half the brain at a time). need i repeat my TS?

three, sharks eyes are very similar to tat of humans... so wat are u implying? sharks have a highly developed visual system, esp the great white. their retina is particularly well equipped to discern spatial relationships and detect fine details. they stalk seals/sea lions by tracking their animated dark silhouettes against the glaring, sundappled surface. so is it really their fault if they cant really discern between the silhouette of a seal n tat of a human on a surfboard which looks remarkably like tat of a seal? n who ask humans to venture into their territory? being at the top of their foodchain, everything else is (by right) food to them. yet sharks are mostly shy n will avoid humans.

"Excuse me? A conservation plan? Shouldn’t that read ‘extermination plan'? ... I think the desirable number of great white sharks is zero. Sharks are the ocean’s Nazis, indiscriminate murderers with black eyes and no souls."

Excuse me?! have u any idea wat sharks do for the ocean?? without sharks, the whole fragile ecosystem of the ocean will collapse! we're upsetting the natural balance in the ecosystem enough already as it is. extermination!?!? obviously u know nothing about bio/ecology. and in NO WAYS are sharks related to the Nazis!! as mentioned above, there is more to sharks than just killing. the 'Jaws' stereotype shark is fictional!

ok, now to address the crux of the post.

"Oh, great. We’re just maiming the sharks and dumping them back in the ocean. Now I’m worried about super-pissed-off amputee sharks with no dorsal fin to signal an approach."

first things first, i can absolutely assure u tat u have no need to worry about amputated sharks finding u for revenge killing, so u can go sleep in peace now. IF SHARKS HAVE NO FINS HOW CAN THEY SWIM U IDIOT! obviously u know nothing about tat too. this is like basic general knowledge, how can u not know tat?! u must have been sleeping in all ur lessons, esp bio ones! its not like sharks can grow their fins back like lizards do with their tails..!! for those who dun know, ALL the fins are cut off, not only the dorsal fin! even the tail fins of the sharks are cut off too! so the shark cant swim, what happens? for those who read frm the start u shld know. they sink. they drown. they die. happy now?

besides i havent read of any sharks getting angry or (as u said) "pissed". ppl have been known to provoke animals (such as dogs) to invoke the violence within to see them display heightened levels of aggression and brutalness. but have u heard of an angry shark?? i read of a diver who kicked a shark accidentally cos he didnt know the shark was right underneath him. (n it was a big shark for clarification sake) he was afraid tat he might have provoked the shark, causing it to attack him. instead, nothing happens. the shark just swims away leisurely, no changes in its initial speed/direction. point proven?
u might as well worry about headless chickens revolting n mass killing to take revenge for their countless comarades ending up in KFC!

seriously! how brainless can one get? i've read anti-shark stuff frm ppl before. though most are misconceptions n misunderstanding n all 'Jaws' stereotyped, but i have never read anything like this before. oh my tian. pls go read up on real facts instead of fictional text before posting such ridiculous stuff!

cant believe i just spent so much time writing one post just to counter someone's nonsense. this shows how some ppl really misunderstands sharks...

seriously....

2009-09-16T01:03:00.000+08:00

my blog is rotting, i know....
shall blog again one fine day....

2009-09-13T18:40:00.000+08:00

quick update on the main things tat happened in my sept hols

4/9
went down to serene macs. ate with alex, mich, alysia, sher n amanda. talked n recalled IHAL over diner.
met the rest at meeting place @trinity @adam!! (finally for the 1st time a combined event is held @adam!!! --really missed tat place) and we went for 4 ONE!!! =D

really had a great time of worshipping then, n PDa shared a few words... all the songs were composed by IGNYTE, n the band was WOAH!! totally awesome. only thing was tat the music was too loud. literally BLASTING!

went partially deaf after the event. was like shouting the whole time i was talking to ppl after tat cos i couldnt really hear myself. the music was really really loud! plus i sitting 2nd row somemore, right in front of the speakers.. my ears hurt (literally) n there was a slight ringing sound... but at least i recovered the next day.. sort of.. i highly doubt my ears would ever be as sensitive as before now....

oh wells. but minus the sacrificial of my ears and hearing, the combined worship service was totally awesome and so worth the sacrifice!! =)

10/9
met the section at bugis for section steamboat dinner. seemed more like SP/SL steamboat dinner... only the SPs and above came!! =( but had a good time of bonding and eating. had to combine 2 tables cos our grp was quite big (me, chloe, jer, chris, drew, shumei, esther, sisQY, sis serene) my table was jer and chloe. jer poor thing,cos me n chloe dun eat veg n spicy, so he cannot have ma lah n he dun dare put in veg in the soup cos he scared we wont drink the soup after tat.. lol.

but we really had a great time of bonding. (me n jer bonded over trying to fry an egg.. LOL part of the egg got stuck on the foil, but wat we managed to savaged actually tasted good!! ahaha xD) had a (failed) game of truth n dare then joined in the other table talk on the relationships of the leaders.. lol.

in the end, focus was on sis serene. we all trying to guess who she like. pester her like siao. tried all ways to persuade her.. but.... haha.

celebrated esther's bday as well... the guys went "to toilet to make cake" when they hid somewhere to prepare the cake. when they came back, chloe was like "see! they really went to make cake!" lol.

had icecream for dessert after tat.. continued trying to find our who she like. got her to say her top 5 favourite leaders.. but cannot say cos we all "promised to secrecy" but seriously, even after she say her top 5, we still stick to our top 2 most likely candidates. Lol.

13/9
went to bugis for steamboat dinner again. only this was with the IHAL tech team!!!!!! haha. finally! after soooooooo long we finally had our reunion dinner... only thing was not everyone could come.. in fact, for the tech side, only me n shamus came. the video team very happy. cos we always out-number them like 20 v 7. but now, they win us 6 v 2 LOL.

hd a great time, n there was a debrief afterwards. really really reaallllllyyyyy missed IHAL

joseph (or is his name joshua? cant rmb.. oops) stood up for me when broZC said "guys...". he was like "shouldnt it be guys n gal??" haha. thanks man. really appreciate it whenever ppl do include me as a girl. =) (n of course broZC must have the last say. "guys is a general term" haha.)

side-note: i'm not offended or upset (usually) when ppl use a general term, but i feel really appreciated if ppl do take the effort to include the other gender (esp when its the minority --like in this case, i was the only girl --again). tat is if its not in a sacarstic tone.

2009-08-24T00:28:00.003+08:00

sat: spent the whole day (more/less) in church. =)
went down to study.. then at 1pm go watch the sat sound ppl do eq.. spent the rest of time in the lt (freezing) trying to do work.
was super cold there lar.
broZC wanted to do dunno-wat thingy when he came.. in the end nvr do. i think he see me studying so decided not to disturb me n let me study. i was waiting for him.. he nvr do anything so i continue studying lors..
in the end so cold i went out to warm myself up. then later go back i chatted with hannah (cos dun wanna study anymore.. xP)
then wanted to go out again (cos it was seriously superb cold.. colder than lt4 in sch! or maybe its bcos i spend like the whole day inside liao..) then when i going out broZC call me. probably cos he saw i not studyin liao. lol.

so he went thru the notes i sent to him with me.
he say i exceeded his expectations!! xD (though my sis say is bcos i keep telling him i cannot do so he lower his expectations.. xP)

God is good. last week i got broZC to sit with during service. this week, he go adult service. but He provided another companion. Janice!!! =)
dun get me wrong. i dun go to church only if i got frens there. like i mentioned the previous previous post, if i dun go will feel very uncomfortable one.. but its quite sad to "emo" during service by myself (which i had done once b4--not in service but another event)

P. Andy preached about the Horeb experience. touched on my personal challenges again..

janice very nice. she pei wo eat cup noodles. i feel bad. make her eat cup noodles with me.. so i paid for hers n refuse to let her pay.. xP

rushed down to toa payoh mrt after tat to meet sam n pat cos had to go watch some netball competition..
was late.. xP
but in the end no diff.. cos go there then find out the match was canceled or something. fan zhen no more netball match for us to watch.

so we go slack. n went arcade for a while. xP sam keep winning everything, i'm always 2nd, pat always last... dunno why. all the games we play also same result... lol.

went home too late to attempt to do anymore work.

sun: went down to observe eq again at 8am. the team was super surprised to see me. loved their reactions..! lol. shamus thought i forgot which week i serving then came on the wrong week. haha.
miranda was like "eh wat u doing here? jan told me u got a test later right?"
then i told her i only staying for half an hr then i zhao. xD

then when i had to go, passed chris my gift n ask him help pass to my mortal later in cell. then chris n shamus was like "eh where u going?" when i told them, shamus was like "eh! then why u come here for ?!?!?" LOL.
haha. he doesnt understand why i'm willing to come down early for no apparent reason just for half an hr.

went down to red cross house again (today's the test). was 10min late but heck, they havent started yet. did mock quiz and practical tests. but we finish very fast, so had a longer lunch break.

the test itself was super easy. as far as i know, i only got 1mcq wrong. (forgot wat causes stroke. wanted to put high blood pressure but put something else instead.. xP)
but still pass lar.
practical was easy. examiner very slack. cpr just say the procedures/answer his question. nvr really do the whole thing except do the two blows n 30 compressions. heard some of the other pairs got complications in the cpr. lucky mine dun have.
bandaging no prob. got eye injury. =) jae got head injury. haha. xD he do on me then keep coming off at 1st (cos [another guy say] my hair too smooth liao.. lol) my dressing no prob. =)
examiner very slack. just glance at the dressing then pass it liao. (not like out teacher, will go test whether the pressure pad will slip off, whether its bandaged the right way, etcetc)
then nvr do abdominal thrust.
like tat can go home liao.

last min was told we going my grandma house cos tmr her bday. so my whole evening gone.
n i still havent done eom. was suppose to do in the evening.. but now.. haix.
berwong is so gonna kill me tmr.
there's no way i can do by tonight.
too tired liao.
crap.

2009-08-22T01:37:00.002+08:00

think i made my injury worse.. the ball whacked my pinkie one week ago, and it hurt like nuts. then today, the ball whack the same pinkie again (though not so hard). but it havent healed properly yet.. now the pain is back. xP

collected a few more bruises today. xP

but netball is fun. ^^
though today was captains ball.
but its still fun. ^^
love PE. ^_^

finally finished n send broZC the notes liao. xP
tmr will be out the whole day.
study/church/stupid-pe-assessement-thingy-we-must-go-for
hopefully i'll be able to get some work done tmr.. sunday not much time, wats with SFA n the test.. ><
n i got so much work piling up.... ><

2009-08-17T00:39:00.003+08:00

the weekends are gone so fast.. >< spent both days mostly in red cross house, standard first aid training... quite fun lar... most of the wounds i know how to treat liao. so the only thing tat interest me was the practical. abdominal thrust, bandaging/dressing, CPR. =)

abdominal thrust usually no prob. only sometimes stress then forget wat to ask. other then tat... quite ok. dun like being the causalty (we do pair work) cos dun wanna act pregnant (its weird) but if not pregnant then when she locate naval point the time very ticklish... xP

bandaging/dressing of wounds no prob... except for head wounds.... dunno is i tie too tight or too loose, the bandage always come off.. ><

CPR!!! one of the main reasons why i join red cross. cos i always wanted to learn CPR. i think its cool. last time my mom studying for her test, i kop her materials go read on CPR.. lol. my CPR no big prob. except when very stress then will forget wat to say, wat to do... but doing the thing itself no prob at all.. =) in fact, i'm the only girl who can give the breaths n compress with no prob. =) (the rest got prob either getting the chest to rise or compressing the chest enough, or both..)
oh. n today, when we were practicing again, out of the 17 ppl in the class, only 4 ppl passed (n of course i was one of them xD). n wats more, the teacher say i was the most perfect one he had seen so far.. ^^

but he bully me. cos i the most "perfect", he make me do the whole procedure (frm the top) until the checking of foreign objects in the airway then demo a kink tat the examiner might throw us. then make me repeat (frm the top) another two times. then redo everything n demo another kink. then make me redo a few more times etc.. >< did at least 4 or 5 times in one go... xP
then later we practise exam-style (cos exam 2 ppl will be doing simultaneously, so more confusing). me n fadhli were together. so we pakka do eveything together so we wont confuse each other. in the end, we were so conscious of doing everything together, we were both waiting for the other to start. lol.
ok, then fadhli made a mistake (locate landmark frm wrong side) so left me to do the rest alone. then teacher left me to do like at least 4cycles b4 he finally rmb to say "signs of life".. >< he say he "forgot" to say. i say is he purposely make me do so much (cos usually do 2cycles can stop liao. sometimes 1 cycle). of course real life we have to keep doing until ambulance come.. but still.. xP
for me is i got the energy to do (after 4 cycles i dun even start to feel tired --some gals felt tired b4 finishing 1 cycle...) but i'll feel very breathless. cos have to give 2breaths, then say
1&2&3&4&5&1&2&3&4&10&etcetcetc&3&4&30
then repeat everything.. so hardly any time to breathe properly. at least real life dun really need to keep counting out loud, so wont feel breathless.

the only thing i find very irritating about this course is tat its on the weekends. n it even takes TWO SUNDAYS!! =( so have to miss cell n my usual service. =( next week not as bad as this week, cos next week is only sunday, so can go saturday service. but this week both sat n sun got training, so cant go... =(
except God intervened. =)
cos actually was very sad, cos the course supposed to end at 6+pm. so by the time i rush down for sat service, service already end liao... but on sat, we ended early, 5.20. =D i flew down to pl. reached at 5.55pm. =) broZC say i missed only like 5min of the sermon, so not tat bad.. =) (sat at the back with broZC cos dun really know anyone frm sat service. he was surprised to see me on sat xD)

so glad i managed to make it there in time. =) if i dun go for service every week will feel very weird n very uncomfortable one.... so this one really thank God for letting me be able to go for service, n not miss the sermon either. =)

2009-08-09T23:55:00.003+08:00

i think my eq today was ><
broZC say it was ok.. but *shrugs* haix.
still not confident in doing eq...

wore full u today! =D cos we representing our diff institudes. sis meiping borrowed mine, cos we same pri/sec/jc.. josie very guai. came in his full u too! cos actually he dun want to wear full u de.. but he came wearing his hoodie to hide his shirt. njc the uniform not tat bad wat... lol. pam also wearing full njc u..

ryan nvr come cos he go overseas. everyone else came in their full u. =)

my cell was like the only one where everyone wore their uniform!!! sis serene also wear hers, hcjc. n she look so diff lar! really like one of us like tat.. lols. then we go tease her. "welcome, is this ur 1st time here? later we'll intro u to our adult leader sis serene. she's late today. wat is this. adult leader come so late!" LOL. bro jer look like a pilot or something. dunno wat sch tat is. but heard he specially go buy tat uniform cos he cant fit into his old one. LOL. n he happily go where his prefect badge. (showoff! lol. xP) Pda wore his army uniform. brokaf wore the sch u really make him look like a young kid. lols. oh, he also wearing prefect badge i think.. lol. 2 ppl came in nurses' uniform (cos they taking nursing course) then brokaf go find them mask to wear.. LOL.

played gel where we had to write 3truths, mix all the papers together, then let the cell guess who wrote wat. for once, everyone else one was easier than mine to guess. lol. cell was abt temptations. something i can identify in. wat chloe say is right. how much can we claim "it is written..." when countering temptations? i know i dun have much knowledge of the word to do so.

kop josie's hoodie so he cant hide in it in service. fan zhen we at the tech booth, not many ppl can see us liao.. still want to hide behind the hoodie. xP

service ran quite smoothly bah.. except certain parts where the rgb not really focus. had to tell ben to show the next point. they also not very familiar with the slides.. lights was nice. red n white stars.. xD got haoran to run the board for the front part of service (aka praise & worship) he's trying a bit more.. but still dun really dare play with all the instruments. learnt a new song, one God. cant seem to find it though. maybe its composed by us.. *shrugs*

most of the time in service today was spent praying. for ignyte. for our generation. for the nation.

after service very rush.. right after debrief, rush to go for a meeting with the leaders (abt which i cannot disclose til the info is released), then sis qy wanted to talk to my cell (core grp) cos of the cell planning, which only chloe turned up for (sry chloe). then the whole time can see broZC walking abt waiting for me and josie to finish. then sam,al,jan,miranda,n gang were waiting for me to finish too (n they were making a lot of noise.. keep trying to get my attention). then rush back to make sure everything shut down liao, then broZC gave me n josie extra debrief (cos we team leaders)

then finally done. apparently the gang help me take my stuff out. then cos i dump josie hoodie with my bag, they thought it was mine, so they bring out for me, n (according to jan n miranda) al go play with the hoodie.. lol. it was super funny when i told them the hoodie was not mine but joseph's. LOL.

went out with the gang to eat.

btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIRANDA!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIUXIAN!!!

me, janice, asaph, al, sam, miranda, n drew went out to secret secret place to (sortof) celebrate miranda's bday. can tell drew is making the xtra effort to bond with his cell (sam n al) cos my gang very bonded. so very sway (in some sense) tat most of the gang end up in one cell.. so those in the cell but not in the gang will sometimes be left out..

went with jon n miranda to j8, cos they going to dunno-who's-house to celebrate etc. reached home quite tired. slept until NDP started.

jack n mom went to watch the actual thing. dad was part of the support team or something.

this yr ndp was refreshing in some ways.. yet i miss some aspects of it.. a lot of the styles were new. the grid thingy was totally cool. but miss the contigents forming NDP 09 tat kinda stuff. but was super high n patriotic. xD stood up with the ppl (proudly) to sing the national anthem (twice) n said the pledge loudly. xD sang alone all the songs i knew. then when the ppl there wave their lights, me n rach wave our red cushions.. xD love the fireworks as always.. xD

songs wise, i miss singing the old song as they were.. not the remix versions. but this yr song... what do u see.. not too bad lar. not as catchy as the old songs, but it'll grow on u the more u hear it.

tmr got tuition in the morning.. ><
then pw for most of the rest of the day... xP

2009-08-08T23:10:00.003+08:00

NDP celebration, went to sch at 8am. had some mini parade with the national anthem.. rmb pri sch days with the "they had no rights, they had no say, and they longed to be free one day... their happiness was not to be, until their country could be free... we pledge to keep our country free with justice and equality..." then go tell sam tat they had no rights etc etc.. (cos they're under my [tyrant] rule) then once they finally overthrow me, they have to "pledge to keep their country free" etc.. haha. lols.

didnt make it into the 100m race. but kinda glad i didnt. see the girls run.. wah.. i cmi.

was asked if i wanna join the captain ball competition, cos michelle nvr bring pe u, n they need 3 girls. in the end, michelle go change with danhui. saded. wanted to play.. xP
our class played quite well.. but we lost to the last team.. partially bcos the other team were mostly bball players, partially (i feel) cos the ppl playing were not the "best" combi for the team. kept swoopin players until we got (wat i call) the "optimum" combi. but by then too late to regain enough scores to even out.. so we lost.
oh wells. it was a good game. good job team!! wish i could have played though..

was quite high the whole morning. kept singing songs, aloud. mostly NDP songs and HSM songs.. lol. dunno why so high. usually i only this high with certain church frens (esp janice..^^)

went out to makan as more/less a whole class. superb long time since we ate together as a class liao.

went back for chem lecture. stupid sch. NDP celebration still want to give us lecture... >< sam n pat crash our lecture. joled was so bored he spam fy hp with at least 40 smses. lol. i got so bored i started drawing the pegasus symbol on the house T in front of me.. then go draw the pheonix one on ahpat's house T.. lols.

go do pw after tat.. at first we all a bit dead.. mei you xin qing qu zuo.. until something interesting happened... lol. shall not say wat happened. but after tat we all super high. then cannot really focus.. xP

do until xian.. dun feel like doing.. at 4+ i think.. jor pei wo, cos i need to hang ard until 6.30/7.. so we talked n listen to songs.. kop like all her songs.. shall slowly sift through next time.. =)

went down to pl with rach. we had IHAL post-production reunion dinner!!!! xD but was a bit apprehensive.. cos i told broZC tat i dun wanna be part of the tech training team. n he say he'll sms me once he's back in s'pore. but he nvr sms for 2days.. so knew most likely he'll talk to me then.. n i dun like talking face-to-face.. cos will sometimes forget wat i wanna say (but not as bad as last time liao.. last time i really can hardly say anything face-to-face with him).

just like i thought. he pull me aside to talk abt it. predicted some of the stuff he'll say. n i was right. in the end,he ask me if i can just give it a try. i kept silent. n he knew he cant make me reply if i dun want to no matter how hard he pressure me. so he say "if u keep silent,i'll take it as a yes" i was like "i cannot say no right?" then he say "ya". so tat means either way i'll be saying yes. lol. but i understand where he's coming from. but its just super hard for me.

went up to join the others. the dinner started liao. apparently each small grp had this hugh loaf of bread with curry inside. quite cool. jackie was super funny. he was cutting the bread to reach the curry inside. then bcos he scared he'll spill the curry or something, he cut super slow n carefully.. only to find the curry was in a plastic wrap, wrapped in paper, inside the bread. lols. waste his time n effort cutting the small hole in the bread. haha. then finally pour out the curry into the bread liao, then realise the bread was leaking. lol. then jackie go man man scoop the curry back into the bread, n jon go get a whole stack of plates (n the plates were small.. esp in comparison to the size of the bread) n wanted to transfer the whole thing onto the plates, cos they scared the pape surrounding the bread wont be able to hold the curry. lols. i was like "just quickly eat the bread lar! then no problem liao!" lols.. the guys are super funny. haha. =D

they go show the whole IHAL musical drama!!!!!! ^^ some ppl were watching it for the 1st time (cos they backstage mah) everyone was totally enjoying the whole drama. i was happily cue-ing everything again. still rmb everything perfectly! ^^ the guys were still obsessed with their "you stupid boy! guess who called this afternn! your teacher!!" LOL. alex n gideon danced their dance moves for the prom scene.. everyone was shouting "jerk!" at eugene during the break-up scene.. n we on our torch in our hp and waved it abt when rachel was singing her emo song... we were all totally into the show and absolutely enjoying ourselves. =) laughed super a lot whenever ben n jerry came out.. lols.oh! and when thiamkee stuck his hand in the bowl of punch to pick up the spider cos he couldnt find it with the ladle!! LOLOL!!!!

really miss IHAL. had so much fun then. ^^

Pda had a hard time chasing everyone out of the summit when everything was over. lols. in the end, he go off all the lights, so it was like pitch black except for the light coming thru the doors. then ppl finally start moving out. n he was like "it works! they're like moths.. moving from the darkness towards the light!" LOL. haha.

my only regret was tat uncle jeff wasnt there. even though by right he's not suppose to be involved cos its a youth production, but he really helped out a lot throughout the many rehearsals and the actual event. he always debrief us while broZC was debreifing the other departments, gave us loads of advices, did the eq, encouraged me... he was as much a part of the production as any of us. he always say he'll disappear to the back, or into his "office" rm once the event start, but he nvr did. he was always in the booth, with us. in case anything went wrong he can quickly step in. miss working with uncle jeff. can learn so much frm him.

had a great time all in all. =)

2009-08-01T23:34:00.002+08:00

woke up late.. was suppose to meet sam at 7.30am at pl mrt. i woke up at 7am.. xP in the end, dad fetched me all the way to east coast. wandered ard cos dunno where everyone was. so happened to spot sam sitting at one of the benches while walking back frm the beach towards macs. then sam "guided" ahpat to where we were cos she a bit xia.. so nvr see us.

jorene came with william. n pat (who finally sees him for the 1st time) got super high. she and sam keep trying to take a gd photo of them. lols.

walked (i heard 2km) to the red cross carnival place. (we were there to man booths for RCHN anniversary). sam and pat were super high n jor was the subject of their craziness. i was trying to get joseph to talk. but can only get him to say a few words.. cannot hold a conversation.lol.

once there, we fooled ard a bit until we were asked to help out in the origami booth. then the person in charge forgot how to fold watever she wanted to teach us, so we just fold watever we know. i fold crane, sam fold lotus, pat fold boat. so all we had to do was wait for the kiddos to come, then teach them how to fold, then let them compete. whoever folds correctly the fastest wins the prize.

william came over by then. but he just stand at a distance. then keep looking at jor.. lol. he's probably scared of us. xP

the kiddos were ok.. but i dun really know how to interact with kids, so ahpat is the one who mostly talks to them/teach them. one of the kids wanna learn the crane. n i'm the only one who know how to fold. n i forgot. >< lol.. dunno why.. forgot the 1st few steps then. so the kid had to go learn something else.. xP

took turns to go eat. the rest went to eat while me and pat stayed. realise it was a bit stupid.. cos their grp only sam know how to fold her lotus. other then tat they cant teach the kids anything else. lol. so had to go teach them once they came back. they took over 1.5hrs to buy n eat. (cant really blame them, kfc was crowded.)

when finally our turn to makan, me n pat buy frm kfc n go to the tables by the beach n eat. super shiok. the scenery was quite nice, got nice breeze, weather was perfect... plus nice food.. xD we eat finish then just sit there n chitchat. fan zhen earlier they also take so long.. plus the booth got like no kids lar, so they dun need our help.

sat there n talked until we heard co playing. then we ran to the big tent to watch fy. they play 2 songs then finish liao. lols. travel so far, perform so little.. we found fy later n told her william was here.. lol.

finally got jor to introduce william to us. lol. too bad fy not there with us.

decided to leave jor and william alone, so me sam n pat go sit on the bbq table near the sea n slack. slack the rest of the way. just talked random stuff n got high. at one point felt like singing the sch song. so me n pat go sing. lol.haha. xD it was one of the fun-est times in my life. plus get "free" cip hrs for slacking some more.. xD

best cip i ever did.

2009-07-29T21:29:00.001+08:00

To paraphrase marine biologists Ron and Valerie Taylor: "Lions eat people, and man calls them King of the Jungle. Sharks eat people, and people declare war."

so true. read this off a blog from a link i got from whysharksmatter. and its so true. compared to other causes of death, sharks dun seem to be killing much ppl per year, yet they are discriminated against and killed (mostly for their fins. i think they're using "sharks are killers" as excuses) stuff like cancer, heart attacks, bees, mosquitos, lightning, etc etc kills A LOT more ppl than sharks do. admittedly, we cant drive mosquitos, bees, and the various viruses to extinction, and incidents like being struck by lightning cant be controlled, but lets consider other animals. wat about snakes? they kill a lot more ppl than sharks, n they're worshipped in certain cultures and religion (no offense to any). and dogs? they too kill many ppl, yet they're called "man's best friend".... hmm.. the lion's example speaks for itself [look at above quote]

oh. n sharks are being wiped out by (estimated) 40mil per year. [estimates varies from 10mil-100mil] n tats not considering the amt killed illegally/not recorded/not publicised by the authorities. n tats just for their fins. [makes one wonder, which is the real killer, sharks? or humans?]

dolphin friendly tuna is only friendly to dolphins. the most cost-efficient n practical way to catch tuna results in a very large amount of bycatch. n this includes hundreds of sharks, turtles, various fishes (tat are not meant to be caught), rays, n baby fish amongst many others. so the only thing dolphin friendly methods are "friendly" to are dolphins. n they're not even endangered. (n many of the bycatch are)ya, dolphins are cute. i totally agree. but looking at the statistics is just saddening.

sharks are awesome.

just discovered that male platypuses actually have venom! they secrete it from glands located at their hind feet.

another amazing fact?

i checked up on calico cats (mentioned in bio lecture) n its true! calico cats (or cats with tortoiseshell colouring) are mostly females! this is bcos the primary gene for coat colour is located on the X chromosome n has 2 co-dominant alleles (orange and black) [females have 2 X chromosomes (XX)] usually one of the allele is inactivated, but in the case of calico cats, the 2 cell types become intermingled n voila! calico cats. male cats cant have tat colouring cos they only have 1 X chromosome(XY). but when male cats have tis colouring, they're (almost) always sterile, cos they have a condition known in humans as Klinefelter syndrome, meaning they have 2 Xchromosomes (ie XXY)the inbalance in sex chromosomes causes them to be infertile.

wow. genetics variation can be so cool. =)

k, i know this post is super random. shoot. why am i blogging about sharks n platypuses n calico cats when i should be doing work?! dang it. i got bio file, and chinese file, and chem test. all due tmr. (bio was today but heck) n math test the following day. done nada for all. xP

i'm weird. xP

Sea of Faces - Kutless

2009-07-24T00:34:00.008+08:00

I see the city lights all around me
Everyone's obscure
Ten million people each with their problems
Why should anyone care

And in your eyes I can see

I am not just a man, vastly lost in this world
Lost in a sea of faces
Your body's the bread, Your blood is the wine
Because You traded Your life for mine

Sometimes my life it feels so trivial
Immersed in the greatness of space
Yet somehow you still find the time for me
It's then You show me Your love

And in Your eyes I can see
And in Your arms I will be

I am not just a man, vastly lost in this world
Lost in a sea of faces
Your body's the bread, Your blood is the wine
Because You traded Your life for mine

If only my one heart
Was all You'd gain from all it cost
Well I know You would have still been a man
With a reason
To willingly offer Your life

I am not just a man, vastly lost in this world
Lost in a sea of faces
Your body's the bread, Your blood is the wine
Because You traded Your life for mine

I am not just a man, vastly lost in this world
Lost in a sea of faces
Your body's the bread, Your blood is the wine
Because You traded Your life for mine

Just one in a million faces

2009-07-22T21:40:00.001+08:00

shall not go on friday if not invited.
shall not go on sunday too if not invited.
"eh, are u going for ___?" does not count as an invite.
or better. "why didnt u go for ___. u shld have come!"

if u want me there. tell me.

'else i'll take it as i'm not wanted n will not come.
i think i prefer to emo then to join a grp of ppl not knowing if i'm wanted there.

2009-07-20T14:31:00.003+08:00

today end school super early. ended at 1pm. =)
mark goh nvr come. so two hrs of practical cancelled
then today still got oral. so chinese also cancelled
=D

finally! for once can go home early! =)

berwong very irritating. cannot stand him.
want us to hand in WR last fri. we send him soft copy, he dun want
i print then put in his pigeon hole b4 3pm
he go home liao.
today still ask us where's our WR.
dang him.
u fri go home so early at least today morning go check ur pigeon hole also cannot ar!
slacker teacher.
then the rest of the week we very busy lors.
sianz..
going to be hard to rush out the next version by fri.
then today no prac n chinese so wanted to go find him.
he disappear liao.
slacker teacher. super irritating.

2009-07-19T23:59:00.002+08:00

today was super stressed. 1st time i eq everything all by myself!!! xP last 2 times i served PDa was there to do eq. then last time got BroZC or shamus helping out. today, nada. delayed a bit but in the end no choice, had to do eq. was super worried tat my eq not gd lar! haix. then my two "padawans" could tell i super stress n wanna help, but they dunno nothing 'bout eq. lol.

was really relying on God the whole eq session. was like "LORD, i cant do this by my own. help me get the eq right."

after i finish liao, broZC finally appeared. he thought was bro robin's team so he nvr come down, he was in church the whole time. lols. he was amazed, happy, *something along tat line* when he realised i did the whole eq all by myself (esp since i try not to do eq if i can xP) he said i did a good job (thank God), n only did minor touch ups. =) *whew* this one really thank God. no way could i do it alone!

broZC very funny. he ask me how i found the eq. then suddenly commented on my hair (for those who dunno, i cut it reccently). "so how did u find the eq? btw, i noticed u cut ur hair. its very nice. i wanted to tell u b4 i 4get. ya. so how was the eq?" lols.

cell was really interesting today. but sad thing was it was only SPs + emmanuel there. sad-ed. after a fun gel n testimony, sis serene led grow. last week was on pre-believers, this week on believers, how we can encourage each other. then she decided to do an activity with us instead of following the discussion notes. we went one round, each one taking turns to be in the hot seat, n everyone will comment on a quality or trait or just anything about tat person tat we really want to thank them for. at 1st it was very awkward. but after a while it wasnt so bad. its amazing wat ppl notice even when u think they're not. how small little actions like replying an sms with a "see u!" encourages another. how others really notice even the small things u do "when no one's looking". its really very encouraging. at the end of the session, sis serene wanted to round things off. then jer was like "but there's still one more person!" (her) then she was like nvm. can see chris n jer planning to do it anyway once she done talking. then they were like "jer go 1st" to me. haha. lols. ya. so we went one round of encouraging sis serene for all the time n effort n concern n everything she put into this cell. we really had a lot to share today. it was awesome.

today service praise n worship was run by the 2 young ones. long past time they started trying. always tried to get them to try mixing, esp during the jamming session. they dun want/dunno. cant really blame them. i started out like tat too. but i started trying like in my 2nd or 3rd week (probably cos i had a very gd teacher, tat helps) but broZC say this week is time for them to try. besides, i already did my share (eq). so ya. they finally mixed the sound.

they quite like me when i started. unsure. scared tat they'll screw up service. scared they'll do something wrong. n all tat. i suppose everyone (or most) starts off like tat. both didnt dare push the instruments up, then push one up, then leave it there for the whole song instead of keep mixing ard n trying new sounds. but cant blame them ba. they did a good job for 1st timers.

lighting console hanged in the middle of worship. lols. had to on the main house lights in case the system crashed.

P Andy preached today. impactful. about the word of God. his sermon was really relevant and easy to relate to. esp the last illustration of his. the bible vs handphone. it really opens a new perspective.

service ended late today, some of the tech ppl zhao cos they had to go, n we havent debrief yet. broZC was like "they're not supposed to go til after debrief. they shld know tat when they're serving they'll have to stay back a while after service one" but oh wells. they zhao liao. so broZC do debrief for us (whoever was left). then glo and sam n al came in to the lt (apparently my sis go tell them about my hair n they wanted to see) then glo esp was like super amazed (over wat i dunno) n keep pointing n laughing n being a super big distraction while i was having the debrief. then cos josie was blocking her frm having a proper view, she go ask him move to his right, then i also go move to my left. purposely dun let her see. haha. then broZC also got distracted bcos of tat. lols. he was like "ya i know her hairstyle very nice. we're having a debrief now" lols.

then after everything over liao, when i go outside, they were like "eh WOW! ur hairstyle very nice leh!" then jan also came over. then they kept wanting to touch my hair or something. >< lol. weird frens i have. haha. xD

talking about my hair. joled keep saying its not nice n want me to cut shorter cos he not used to it. he say this one more feminine, n keep saying i very tomboyish. lols. ok lar, sec sch i more violent i admit, but not very tomboyish wat. then elias was like "eh. who u trying to seduce with ur new hairstyle eh?" lols. the class jokers..

finally finished making the testtubes for jan. owe her super long liao. feel bad.

even though everything more/less turned out right today, but feel very bad. feel like i'm not good at teaching the new ones. like if they were under some of the more experienced ones they'll learn a lot more a lot faster. but in my team i most senior in sound liao, so have to teach them.. but seriously? i dun think i know enough to be teaching lors.

haix.

but eq wise, today really thank God.

2009-07-18T23:24:00.000+08:00

lots of things to write about.. keep wanting to blog.. but never. too lazy i guess.

shall blog about today. met gladys after soooo long. we were supposed to study.. we studied some then got distracted, then nvr study liao.. xP

started the 4th season of bones. the 1st episode very funny.. haha. the americans were in england, where everything is total opposite. booth was hilarious! haha.

went cycling with lao si and the son. well, actually just the son. we all cycled, then the 2 mothers walked. we cycled to lower pierce, the mothers just walked in the park. lao si also cooked a huge batch of jiao zi for us. =) her jiao zi is the best lar! cooked more than 250 i think. and we ate like 100++ in one sitting! haha. =)

still have to make testtube after this. owe jan for super long liao. and still have to serve tmr.. xP dunno how i'll survive tmr with so little slp. oh, n there's tuition n i havent done my work yet. xP

gtg

2009-07-04T01:18:00.002+08:00

econs was.... haix. didnt really study. but then. its all common sense. but common sense aint so common nowadays.

anyhow write for like the whole paper. just crap my way thru. lol. if i pass, i'm happy.

went down to church for sp empowerment. met sherm, alex, and sis for dinner at the secret secret place. not tat its a secret anymore. ever since the secret place closed, more n more ppl have been going to the secret secret place. oh well, if there's good food, we have to share with the family right?

dinner was like so few of us... but had quite a good time of fellowship. but really miss IHAL. keep recalling stuff about the concert, the quotes, the songs, the funny bits.... "at this time last week we'll be putting on our makeup..." and stuff like tat... =( haix. really miss being part of IHAL.

when walking back to church superb funny. cos we lazy walk one whole round. but back gate almost always lock. so they call bro jer, see if he know whether its open. he say he think so. then call bro kaf, actually want to ask him to come down n help us open the gate if its not open. but then sherm say he sounded very tired, so decided not to bother him. then call sis gwen, also wanted to ask her to help us. in the end never. lol. so we went to the back gate. alex tried. didnt open. rach was like "alex! u must have more faith! u must have faith then it'll open!" lol. then tried the other back gate, but tat one even more gurantee not open de. then we wanted to give up and just walk one round when we spotted uncle jeff. then we were like "uncle jeff! uncle jeff!" n wave frantically. lol. he probably think why got 4 crazy youths at the gate. haha. but this gate cannot open de, so must walk back to the other one. then we were like talking across the fence the whole way. haha.

kept singing the songs. haix. really miss IHAL alot alot ALOT!

super little z2 ppl come for sp empowerment today. my cell only me n chris. all the z2 cells only 1 or 2 ppl max per cell. quite sad. then the leaders also not there except for sis serene. but bro zc joined us for the dicussion. until about the last part,then he went off. then bro kaf also shared with us some.

today sp empowerment was about fear vs faith. one part of the video was funny. cos when we were having dinner, alex commented tat every time nvr see audience one. so it feels like P. Dom is just preaching his sermon in front of the camera n there's no one else in the chapel with him. haha. then today, one part of the video showed the audience! hahaha. lol. super funny lar.

fear vs faith.... fear kills faith, cripples us, causes us to lose confidence and our potential... fear. but we CAN counter it. FOCUS on God, FEED on His word, and FORGE ahead. but haix. easier said than done.

didnt share much today. in fact, i was the only one who didnt share. haha, and its not cos bro zc was there. (whenever bro zc around, i'll usually bcome very quiet. dunno why. he's one of the some ppl who causes tat.) usually i'll share some during discussion. but today nvr.

after everything over. alex went back to her IHAL mode. haha. she n "jerry" (darren) re-enacted certain scenes in IHAL and all. haha. lol. superb funny lar! songs kept playing in my head.

reaallllyyyy miss IHAL. how i wished time stood still.. tat all this would never end...

2009-07-03T01:01:00.002+08:00

chinese was.. *i-dunno* results will be unpredictable.
听力was still ok. in fact, it was quite easy.
作文was so-so. wrote crap. still flipping the 字典 for the words i dunno how to write when time's up. so probably got some words i write wrong.
paper2 was quite >< wasnt surprised 牛车水 came out. gut feeling i guess. whole paper more/less just anyhow guess. half the time dun even understand wat the passage was about.. ><

heck. its over.

econs tmr. suppose to study today. ended up playing facebook and doing lots of quizzes.. xP shall study tmr.. tmr... tmr..... (sometimes tmr nvr comes... xP)

lol.

2009-07-02T00:25:00.003+08:00

math left 2 questions blank. one dunno how to do (reccurence) the last ques no time to attempt.. X/ but the rest more/less know how to do, though some is anyhow do one.. but all in all, if everything i wrote is correct, i can still (barely) get an A.

bio was a >.< didnt study anything except a few pages of cell bio and biomolecules. answered all the ques (ie the ques i attempted) with watever i cld rmb frm the lecture/tutorial. handed in a pure blank piece of paper for my 15m essay, it was on DNA and genomics, of which i had nil impression, so cannot ans. relying (purely) on MCQ to pull me thru. if everything i wrote is correct, i might just be able to pass.

chem was another >.< managed to cram everything but chem bonding during the 4hr break. guess wat came out? chem bonding! >< then there was some planning thingy which i have absolute no idea wat to do, so threw away another 10m. secB paper2 was >< in fact the whole paper2 was >< n MCQ wasnt tat much better either. but the dang thing is tat paper2 last ques i know how to do. no time. >< if everything i wrote is correct, i'll just pass.

chinese tmr. 3hrs++++!?!??!???!!!???!???!? so dead. i'll probably fall asleep halfway.

econs the next day. shall study tmr. i think. dang. the one subject i dun pay attention to in lecture & tutorial. lol. screwed.

shucks. suffering frm post-production withdrawal. cant get the concert outta my mind. every day, every hour, every minute, a song will play, a line will pop up, an inside joke remembered.... its draining too, in a way. miss the friendships, the closeness, the jokes shared, the highness, the acting, the fun times, the people, the work, the EVERYTHING. the whole experience was totally awesome. but now i'm crashing down. hard.

haix. =(

2009-06-16T02:34:00.003+08:00

been sooooo busy.. so much i wanna blog about.. but no time.. if not, too tired.

a quick update:

fri-met wenqi to study chem together at bishan library. super long since we saw each other and havent catch up for ages. played badminton with her and daryl later in the evening..

sat-went for redcross cip thingy at jurong bird park. met all kinds of funny ppl and was super tired at the end.. studied at tca library again. crashed the backstage ppl's meeting and helped them do the flooring.. will probably post this proper if i have time.

sun-finally answered the call again. finally told someone tat i need to share (even though i havent fix an appointment date yet) no rehearsal but shamus good. nvr tell us. went for jam instead (cos didnt wanna study.. xP) but studied some later in hans.

mon-played badminton. went to see doctor/do ecg/do blood test cos of the stupid irritating weird heartbeat of mine. and just the wait for the doctor took like 2-3hrs!!! >< so whole afternn gone n nvr study. again shamus good. nvr tell us no rehearsal again. n we only know when we went down to chapel n eugene tell us... haix. so frm now onwards eugene will sms us instead (we give him our no, cos he frm adam we pl, so he dun have our contacts..) went home and slept. super tired.. feeling sooo drained and tired nowadays for no reason...

k,gotta go sleep.. ZZZzzzz

Dining in the Dark

2009-06-12T01:30:00.003+08:00

went down to SAVH again today. this time for DINING IN THE DARK!!!! xD

managed to change grp.. =) cos i signed up with my sis and her fren, so we in the same grp, but they 2 pull out last min and leave me by myself. so 13 of my classmates in one grp, and i was emo-ing by myself in the other... but they in the end got change me to the other grp. =) so was with ah pat, jor, sam and the others. too bad fy not there, if not the 五姐妹 be together.. lol.

the other grp went in to dine 1st while my grp went on a "tour". we watched a video about SAVH then learned how to help the visually impaired in various situations as well as about their white cane (NOT "WALKING STICK"!!!). then we had role play.

the role play was sooooo super funny!!!!! LOL. lance was like the expert "blind person" hahaha. then ah pat was so funny when she was trying to lead jj to the seat. oh! and yk go kick her "blind person"(SH) for some stupid remark. LOL! the role play was really hillarious.

then tried out several visual simulators to experience what its like to have several eye problems.. such as tunnel-vision (which so reminds me of the game binocular-soccer we played in tech last time [check my previous posts if u wanna read about tat]).

had a chance to see their assistive device centre, where they sell stuff to help the visually impaired (both low vision and blind ppl). they have stuff like portable magnifiers, (and other types of magnifiers), screen reading software, braille note takers, talking calculators and watches, watches with braille, games with braille, and so much more. all the stuff is really ex cos they're all imported frm overseas, but the visually impaired gets a large discount (esp since quite a no is frm the lower income grp)

got a chance to interact with the visually impaired people while they were having their lunch.. was really awkward.. cos didnt know wat to talk about plus i'm always awkward when put in a new environment and have to interact socially..... so ya. pei jor to talk to one of them in the end, but she did all the talking.. xP

and....... FINALLY! what we came here for. DINING IN THE DARK!!

it was a totally cool experience. really one you'll want to experience in your lifetime (at least for me.. xD)

went in pair by pair, our hands on our servers(who are visually handicapped), then they guide us to our seats.. IN TOTALLY DARKNESS!!!!!! followed the example they showed earlier b4 the role play on how to find the seat and sit down. =) my table got 6 of us. jor on my right, michelle on my left, liting beside her, then opp me is 2 more frm i-dunno-wat class.

even though i not scared of the dark, i'm scared of the stuff tat's hidden within it. but though tis is total darkness, no fear at all! prob cos like liting said we know our frens are right beside us, like we just reach out or hands then can feel them liao. then plus the classical music they play set the peaceful atmosphere..

got another table behind me. tat table got SH, joseph and i forgot who else. (obviously) can hear them behind me, and thought they were like at least one arm's length away. my impression on the room was that it was quite long and big. dunno why. figured the table was rectangular cos jor side only got her, but my side got me and michelle. the napkin and dessert spoon was at 12o'clock, fork at 9o'clock, knife and spoon at 3o'clock. the cup was above the knife and spoon roughly 1o'clock.

two jugs were passing around. one contained orange juice, the other water. we had to pour the drink out BY OURSELVES!! so fun!! haha. xD to tell if the drink is near the brim, we had to out our finger at the rim of the cup and once we feel the water then stop. (for me i got do this b4 cos i too lazy to on the light when getting water at night.. xP) our table, NO SPILLAGE! (heard the other tables have. some spill on the table, jj spill on himself.. LOL)

soup came 1st. we had to place our hands on the table, palms up, then the server will feel our hands and place the bowl/plate/etc on them. the servers wore bells on their ankles to help them hear where their feet are. so i can also hear where they are. drinking the soup wasnt as easy as when we had sight. cos cant see the bowl, cant see the spoon. so have to go by touch and estimation. touch to find the bowl, and estimation to estimate the distance and position of the mouth from the spoon.. lol. its like the hand cant find the mouth. but after a while got the hang of drinking soup. =) it was mushroom soup (cooked by visually handicapped ppl too!!). super-whooper nice!! =D only thing was i didnt like mushrooms. so after eating some, i dun feel like eating any more mushrooms.. xP so tilted the bowl, pushed the mushrooms to the top part then drink the rest of the soup (without mushrooms!!) xD
the basket of garlic bread was also passed around. got to feel in the basket for the bread. my only regret was bcos cannot see, so cannot dip the bread into the soup and eat.. ='( bread and soup are so meant to be together!!

main course. mine and jor came 1st.. used my fingers to feel wats on the plate (like i saw the visually impaired ppl did when they were eating their lunch.. gd thing they got us to wash our hands b4 we came in!) but couldnt really tell wats excatly on my plate. most of the stuff was covered in sauce, and one bit was mushy. in the end me and jor figured out its black pepper chicken, salad, and the mushy thing was mashed potato. xD the others were like hearing our "discoveries" while waiting for theirs to come. lol. we all had the same thing, just tat liting had fries, and michelle had fish and chips instead of chicken. eating the main course was the hardest. turned my plate til the chicken was at 6o'clock, the potato at10o'clock, vege at 1o'clock. (ignored the veg part the whole meal. =)) the meal was quite nice. =) but was real hard to eat. esp the chicken! cutting chicken isnt easy when u cant see!!!! used the fork and knife to get the rough shape of the chicken, then position them where i wanna cut. then just keep slicing until the knife scrapes onto the plate. then (cos the fork in pierced thru the bigger piece when cutting) have to go hunt for the piece tat was cut with the fork. and they almost always seem to disappear after being cut! then the same prob as the soup, placing the meat into the mouth! only then then will realise whether the meat was cut too big or too small!! xP didnt have much prob with the potato.

oh! the funny thing about the main course. everyone gave the same answer when asked whether they had finished the food.. "i THINK so..." cos cannot see.. so not sure if finish the food liao or not. but since cannot feel anything left so should be finish le ba... i thought there was something left on my plate, but when i poke it, nothing. so.. *shrugs*

then dessert! =) had to push the plate further into the table to make way for the dessert.. which was ICE CREAM!! xD haha. ate the icecream but couldnt figure wat flavour it was. the more we ate, the more we couldnt tell! lol. some say it was chocolate, strawberry, raspberry... *shrugs* it was icecream! =) but could feel and taste the rainbow sprinkle thingy on the icecream. =)

after tat, the rest had either coffee or tea. (but i drink neither so i didnt want..) jor was telling me how when she pour the creamer in cannot tell how much she was pouring or whether she got pour it in, cos got no sound! not like the sugar, when pouring can hear sound one.. haha. xD

relaxed while the rest drank their coffee/tea. got slightly bored so fingered my visitor pass. (which i had fingered when i got it, including the previous time is was here) and i had a revelation! I COULD FEEL THE BRAILLE!!!!! lol. xD was super excited. cos the past few (many) times could feel the dots, but not sensitive enough to differentiate the position of the dots enough to read them! but now, in the dark, with my "heightened senses", i could read braille!! xD haha. so fun! =)
told jor, then she also go feel hers. haha. the loss of sight really heightened our other senses. told michelle too. and she also got excited. haha. then liting also wanna know wats going on, so we tell her. haha. xD

when everyone was finally done, they on the lights to let us see. and it was like WOAH! everything i thought about the room is sooo diff from wats its really like! (except for the shape of the table.. xP) the room was actually really small! like half the size of my room! (ok maybe not that small, but its definitely smaller than my room.) then the table behind me was actually really near. if i just stretched, or just swing my hands behind, i'll like whack SH on the head liao!!! lol. (imagine if i did whack him, he wouldnt know who hit him in the dark!! ahahahaha xD) realised i got disorientated when led into the room.. i thought the door would be in front of me, but it was on my left! xP

oh, then we got to see the "mess" we made when eating in the dark. lol. for my table, it wasnt really messy, except for the positions of the plates and stuff cos when the dessert came, we just pushed the plate inwards.. but there wasnt no spillage or such. =)
oh. and i realised wat i left behind on my plate. the chicken skin. xP

haha. should do this more often. so fun! for one, we get to save electricity. no lights. no tv. then the ppl will only be focus on the food and conversation. so good bonding and interacting time! and there's like so much advantages to this lar!! =)

all in all, it was a really enjoyable and unique experience. really get to experience what its like to lose all sight for like (what?) 1hr or so? ya. and really have to rely on all your other senses then. really makes one appreciates being able to see. words really cant describe wat its like. you'll just have to go there and experience it for yourself. but i can say this: this will be one experience you'll nvr forget!

~~~i sooooo wanna go back there again!!!~~~ =)

2009-06-12T00:00:00.004+08:00

went down to tca library again to study yesterday. since rach studying in sch with her fren, i got ben ben to pei wo. =) ------------->

did math again. wasnt as distracted as the last round, but still was quite slow....

had dinner super early.. xP cos got rehearsal at 6pm.. (or so i thought)

suppose to go chapel.. but door lock. then hang around a bit, then brandon came. by then door open liao (dunno who open de) but inside is like no lights? no one? so we stayed outside. hang ard some more and jon came. plus some folks frm adam whose names i cant seem to rmb and match to the face.

broZC called, say rehearsal is at 7pm... we were like "wow... so we're here so early for..???" its like what the.. haix. so decided go study bio. cell bio. cant seem to absorb anything. but have to study anyways. so tried to study. then jon go take out his laptop and go youtube go watch movie. heck. dun need study liao. xP watch mr.deeds. but load super slow. but the little bit tat we watched was super funny xD

PDa came and brought us into the chapel. hang ard some more while everyone else came. 7+ had prayer. then rehearsal. =)

had two full runs. tech no need do anything (sort of) just take down notes etc etc.. 2nd run was with the band (ie live music) plus the main ppl have to sing their lines (with mic) then broZC go ask me go on stage to help take the mic etc etc.. and i'm like so weird on stage? like so awkward (for me) cos i also not sure wats going on. dunno who need the mic when. then everytime they finish using the mic liao they pass to PDa/BroKF/BroJer, so i'm like "what am i suppose to do?" then in the end i also no mic... so i'm like standing there taking up space being useless. dang. and its not like backstage got a lot of space.

hate it when i feel like i'm not doing anything or cant do anything. its like i'm so not needed or something. n i cant seem to do anything good enough. n its like everyone seems to be doing a better job than me. and.. oh dang it.

lots of the things in the drama is striking too close to home....

haiz.... heard tat got rehearsals on mon-wed next week too.. so have to cancel the movie plan... haiz. wanted to go out watch movie and stuff to celebrate jon's and janice's bday.. but all also not free.. then plus the additional rehearsals... so i cant go for the class bbq and outing liao. oh. and it clashes with my guitar lessons. dang. changed the guitar lesson to tues so it wont clash. (originally on mon will clash more at tat time) then plus mon is later.. so will miss the whole rehearsal (more/less) but tues is earlier so will just be late by 1hr+?

my whole hols is like gone liao. slacked the 1st week off. study and slack and had activities the past week.. next week mon-wed rehearsal, thur-fri LIFE conference, (sat-break), following sun-wed rehearsal, thur-sat actual event! then sun (usual service + strike set) and its back to sch and MID-YEARS!!! >< so its like this week is the only week left for me to really study, and there's like only tmr left? cos sat got redcross and sun (probably) rehearsal.. and i like hardly even started studying???!!!! so i'm like soooooooooooooooo dead for mid-years.

oh. and i cant find my MI tutorial. dang. havent tried a single MI question yet. sure die one. only reason why i survived the tests was bcos they covered tat topic in immersion, if not i even more lost.

i'm like lost, confused, tired out, burdened.............. emo-ing.. seem to be doing tat a lot nowadays... shucks.

anyways, so mid-years i confirm gg liao. haix.

2009-06-09T01:29:00.004+08:00

for the 3rd time in two years i was late for tech.. but only for like 5min? lol. bro ZC and shamus was there by then. shamus was there to help touch up on my (lousy) eq. xP did everything but the drums. still cant rmb wat excatly the drums sound like.... so dun dare eq it. might try the next time.. *shrugs* so shamus did the drums, i did everything else. had trouble with the eq.. ever since the death of my beloved mp3, i havent listened to music.. esp when travelling.. without the sound in my head, its harder to eq..

kevin didnt turn up AGAIN. like i cant even rmb when was the last time he came early enough to serve....

had tenet course on the new testament for cell. i was the "scholar" in my cell.. (but only for the gospels..) we had to match the desciption of the book with its name.. and it was like REALLY hard!! but i matched all the gospels perfectly. =) but tats bcos i recently read books (fiction) on the author of the gospels, the background of wat had been happening then, the purpose of writing it, the audience, etc etc. so naturally it helped. =) we did really well for like the front half of the new testament. but the second half got a lot of mistakes.. xP but anyways, we didnt do too badly. =)

service ran quite great. no hiccups (only prob was i almost forgot who was suppose to lead one of the songs, but broZC reminded me =)) lights did something totally awesome. it was like totally nice and cool. like everyone was commenting on it. rgb did a great job as well. inez helped out this week.

but the service was different.. if not a bit weird. for one, communion. usually got 2 ppl serving the communion trays to the adult leaders, yesterday,only got broKF. but probably cos bro Titus moved to adam, and P Da was probably there too. so sis Gwen on stage and Bro KF in front.. but still.. it was weird seeing only one person there...
then the sermon wasnt really a sermon... it was like (i dunnno) something to commemorate the leaders or something. bro KF was super funny when he was recording the whole thing. lol. the lower sec thanked their leaders verbally at the front, upper sec gave out "awards" to their leaders, the "old folks from Z2" made a video for them... it was really nice and touching (some of the leaders teared) i best liked the part when the song went "i was a life that was changed" in the video and all the names of the folks in Z2 started appearing on the screen.. =) but really, the leaders had made such an impact in sooooo many lifes.
sis jas por is the one and only leader who really probed about my life to see whether there's more to me than just the happy-go-lucky girl on the surface. she was the first tat i really felt who truely cared about me and really wanted to know more.
bro zhi chao is the one who always pressured me (bully me xP) and pushed me to grow in the ministry. without him, i wont be where i am in tech today.
there's so much to thank the leaders for. bro chiang wee for teaching me almost all i know about sound, sis serena my leader for like 2 years, sharing with me so much, sis serene who's so open and ready to listen and help any time of the day (or night), bro Darren, sis Gwen, bro Samuel, Sis Qiuyan, Sis Jas Choe, Bro Kah Fei, Bro Titus, Bro Yong Heng, Bro Jeremy, sis Yvette, sis Mad... so many leaders, impacting my life in so many different ways.. i'm really so glad you gave...
for once, instead of the youths go to the altar and the leaders pray for them, the leaders went to the altar, and their youths prayed for them.

bro ZC commented after the end of service tat my eq is improving! =) cos apparently shamus didnt really change my eq much, and when he came in again later he found it ok, which means my eq is ok and is almost up to standard. =) plus he say my hearing is improving =) and the mix was good. (which was harder for me cos of the same reason as eq - the death of my mp3) plus he say he received good feedback from other leaders about sound. =D
oh, and bro jer also commented that the sound was good when we bumped into each other. =) and its like so surprising cos i've nvr received comments from leaders tat are not in tech (let alone sound).

haha. i always fret after service when i run the board, cos dunno whether the sound was ok or not. so its nice to hear positive comments about it. =) esp since i've been serving for 2years now. my sound should be at this standard long time ago. (esp eq) still rmb bro CW wanted me to be eq-ing at the end of the year when i first joined (i started in june, tat means only half a year..) and i only started touching eq like last dec during camp (and only bcos bro sam challenged and forced me to)

was not needed for the rehearsal tat day (and was only informed tat morning xP), so was supposed to go with rach to just acia to study.. but didnt feel like studying... plus heard tat the worship min having jam.... so since staying back liao, might as well go for jam. =) ask bro ZC if tat was ok, and he made it sound like "of course there's no prob!" but i feel its like really weird if i just pop up for their jam without "permission" in some sense...

but the jam was really good. (picked up some stuff on chord progression during their sharing time b4 they jammed) me and yi jie was at the board. finally got a chance to play around with the eq. (cant play with eq during serving cos have to get it done asap and cannot mess up, then the last round i went for jam had too many ppl, so didnt bother to qiang with them to eq, plus i get stress when there's so many ppl around..) so anyways, me and yj took turns to eq whoever and watever we liked, and we listened and commented on each other's eq. he's like me when i first started eq..really had fun and it really helped in my eq-ing..

after the jam finish, we helped shut down everything, but we didnt know wat to do with the lights, cos we do sound mar, so know zilch about the lighting board system. so ask bro jon (cos he was the one at the booth when we came) but he only know rgb (which=computer) lol. so bro jon was like running the mouse across the screen, and he asked me "which one do you think looks like it'll lead to the lighting console?" lol. haha. we totally dun know wat to do. then another guy came into the LT. bro jon was like "eh! maybe he's using the LT! then we dun need to off the lights!" haha. =D and the guy was supposed to use the LT after us, so we (happily) zhao. xD

really had a good time yesterday, and really learned a lot! =)

went down to TCA library to study today with my sis. (like FINALLY i started studying..!!!) was really quiet there. but its quite a good place to study. think i shall go there and study more often. =)

went there to study cos thought got rehearsal, but received a msg (when i was there) tat we dun need to go for this rehearsal as well.. lol. oh well. can study til later then.

met valerie when i was walking back from 7/11 after buying dinner. (she came for rehearsal, she's in dance) she was early so she joined us for a while. =)

met bro KF and P Da during one of my breaks too. =)

got distracted later in the evening, so didnt absorb much then. but was quite efficient in the afternn. =) so overall, i'd got work done. =)

ok. should be sleeping now. got tuition in the morning, dining-in-the-dark briefing right after tat, plus guitar lesson at night. hopefully can squeeze in some time to study in between... xP

2009-06-04T02:01:00.004+08:00

went to SAVH, Singapore Association for the Visually Handicapped, today. redcross cip. was quite fun.. had to do some computer work.. helped type the info of like dunno how many clinics and doctors until my eyes wanna pop out of the socket liao.. xP then have to make sure tat all the letters tat follow after any numbers have to have spacing, if not when the com translates it to braille then will have lots of problems.. (esp for those reading it..)

then when finally finish, went to try typing braille, which is soo fun..!! =) typed random stuff out.. xP hope no one sees what i wrote.. lol. the guy i wrote about just added me on facebook! xD
even though didnt really get to interact with the ppl there, but it was really fun. and the ppl there are very nice. hope to go back there and maybe help them type more braille.. xD
cant wait to go there again for the dining in the dark thingy.. =)

got a super high record for guitar geek!! xD 18000000+++++ hahaha. XD sam is gonna freak. haha. my score is way more than trice hers!whahaha. xD

bones not loading properly today again.. =(

have yet to scan and upload the drawings done by ah pat. sam is gonna freak again when she sees it. i'll probably upload tmr or the day after..

got tuition tmr.. forgot wat time.. havent done any work yet.. xP

heard sam woke up at 3+pm yesterday.. which explains why she nvr go for math tutorial... lol.

i so should be studying man.. playing too much facebook and watching too much bones... mid-years coming and the time i have to study grows less each day.. the nearer the end of june, the busier i'll be.. dang. but so cant motivate myself to study... xP

and i so should be sleeping now.

good night.

2009-05-28T23:32:00.003+08:00

failed bio test by 1mark. if i didnt put that stupid s in the spindle fibres, cos its suppose to be spindle fibre, i would have passed!!! dang it.

tmr got gp test. die. gg.

all thanks to 三姐 i'm addicted to guitar geek in facebook. dang.

stupid bones season 2 episode 4 won't load properly, so i can only watch the front part.. and the suspense is killing me!!!

pat crashed h2 chem lecture today.& started drawing me and fy.. so now she drawing all five of us (including herself), and possibly the two 姐夫s too. haha.

celebrated mom's bday.. super fun. woke up super early and "crashed" into her room to sing her happy birthday, with guitar, cake and all. =D then surprised her at dinner when we turned up. cos we told her we cant eat out with her cos we got test the next day.. haha. n she thought tat was the end of her surprises. we complied lots of notes from her family, friends,s'pore and overseas (as far as nepal and beijing).. and she was like "WOW" haha. =D

lao si nvr come today. but got back the compo i finally handed in to her yesterday. she good. go use the words i use in my compo to shoot me. xP

hopefully the bones video is working properly now. if not i think i'll just go play a bit more guitar geek and go sleep.

dang gp tmr.

2009-05-26T00:58:00.003+08:00

i like to complain a lot.. but most of the time (but not all) i'm complaining for the sake of complaining and not bcos i really mean what i say when i'm complaining. for example, june event. it's gonna take up practically my whole june and literally my whole last week of june.. and i'm just backstage doing mic-up cos they need a gal to mic-up the actresses, so i cant be behind the board. BUT, though wat i just said are facts, i still wouldnt change anything. given the choice, i'll still choose to be part of this event, even knowing the commitment and my role..

another example would be chinese. one of the most common subject i usually complain about. i say i hate chinese, but in truth, i kinda like it. i like the language, the subjects, the teachers.. etc. but i do NOT like studying it. tat's wat makes the difference. so chinese is like ALL my other subjects:i like learning, i hate studying. most teachers know i very guai, and they wonder why i nvr seem to do my work. cos what they dun know is i'm guai in practically every area but doing homework. so its not that i'm bias against chinese (though its true i think most other subjects are more important). but then, i cant blame the teachers for not knowing..

but you! of all ppl, u shld know me the best! seems like u dun.i like (maybe even love) chinese. i really do. but tt doesnt mean doing chinese would be any easier for me! esp when i'm writing. u compared writing eng essay with writing chinese ones.. dun u know tt how the brain produce ideas for stories for eng is diff frm how it produces the same for chinese?? there is no way i can ever translate ANY of my eng essay (no matter how "easy" they are) to a chinese one!! there're just different. the standard produced is different. yes, though both originate from the basic idea, but how the story builds up from there is different. cos for one thing, i can express myself in eng but not in chinese. and for another, i so totally hate writing stupid lousy compos! i take pride in my writing. if i find the work i produce unsatisfactory, i wont hand it in. tat's not the case only for chinese. i owe my eng teacher countless essays (last time) and finally wrote one. but when i re-read it. though the story was ok.. but then, it was just ok! it was waaaaayy lower than the usual standard i wrote then, so NO WAY was i going to hand it in! i didnt even let my best friend glance at it! another problem is i dont like writing on a question tat i've read ppl's ans about. cos i have a very super high tendency of rmbing wat they wrote, and (1)it hinders my mind from producing my own ideas, (2)i would just "copy" and "paste" their ideas into my compo.... stories stay in my head for a long time.. and they can only be erased by time.. by lots and lots of time..... u say u understand wats it like to have to write a compo when u've no ideas.. i dun think u know whats it like for me when i have to write a compo and i have no ideas..

sure, i'll write tat dang compo one fine day. but i will not be able to acknowledge it as one of my works.

i apologise to all chinese teachers who taught me/are teaching me for giving u all a hard time.. (not tat any of them reads this blog..) but ya.

so ppl. dun say things about me, about my personality, about my character, when u don't even know me. one thing i can NOT stand is when ppl think they know me when they don't, and start bossing me aroud and telling me wat i should do, and wat i should not do. u got a problem with me? tell me. but DON'T lecture me. u have to know ur subject b4 u can lecture about it.

so ya. just take this post as me venting some of my frustrations and feelings out. i dont tend to reveal myself like this often. and just take a note--i complain a lot. tats a fact. =)

2009-05-07T01:15:00.003+08:00

finally editted my PI and send to bernand wong. but i think the official dateline over liao.. so dunno why he still wants me to send to him...

anyways. today recurrence test GG. die like super duper die. its like bio test. easy but cannot do. but the reason is different. bio is bcos nvr study. recurrence is bcos dun understand a single thing about the dang chapter! >< so gg lor.

super long time no ava duty liao.. like 4 weeks already?!? xP

today release of ava exco results. I'm in exco!!!!! YEAH!!! hahas. but not in the position i want.. sort of. didnt really want a particular position.. but VP and QM was wat i had in mind.. now i'm PRO-Public Relations Officer.. xP but there might be some changes cos alicia got double post.... *shrugs* so long as they dun make me secretary i happy liao. =)
feel betrayed lar. YL and i make a pact. i vote her for welfare she vote me for VP. found out she nvr vote me for VP... >=( i guess tat just means tat joannas is really a lot better than me... =( oh well.. CONGRATS JOANNAS!! i believe u'll do better than me. =)

thinking of joining red cross... have been wanting to join another cca for a long time liao.. and keep thinking of red cross.. if still can join i'll probably go join.

in the end, i decide to go for the china trip. and i'm like the only one in my class going. =( but it might be canceled (my speculation) cos of swine flu and the lack of ppl going... oh well. its all in God's will now. if I'm meant to go. well, everything will fall in place. if not, some how or another the trip will be canceled.

still dunno wats my role in the june event and when's the rehearsal dates.. there's only like 5weeks left i think..? til the actual concert... haiz.

miss the choir. miss my performing life... but then, the problem is now, i'm scared of the stage again.... xP haiz.

should be sleeping..

SHIT. just rmb i havent handed in bio prac. die. ><

2009-05-05T00:51:00.003+08:00

went to church early yesterday to do some pw b4 cell. everyone was like "eh! u bring ur laptop to church! let me see!" lol. quite expected, esp since only one other guy i know brings laptop to church (not counting the leaders)
cell was really small.. though we have the biggest cell in z2, sunday, we also have the lowest attendance.=( only the regulars like me, pheobe, chloe, chris, josie and jer always turn up, though jeremy nvr turn up ytd.. then out of the 3 muskateers, only 2 turn up, but they only came for cell. nvr go for service, cos they got pw. gwen nvr come at all, also cos of pw. X/ i'm like "cant u schedule ur pw meeting at a later time?! its like if u have a competition u will make sure it wont clash right? so why cant u do the same for God?" i guess diff ppl, diff perspective.. but even so... haiz. havent seen gwen for a long time liao... at least pearlyn came. she havent come for super long ever since she was grounded. it was nice to have her back. =)

cell learned more about TAWG. sensitive area for me. considering i'm not doing it regularly.. like since forever.. haiz.

service was great. P. Janice preached. powerful msg. how to have a breakthrough life. sounds grammatically wrong but *shrugs*. identified with the msg.. but struggled to respond.. respond means i want something to be done, which means i need to do something, and i usually dun seem to do wat i know i should do.... haiz. so didnt want to respond even though i know i fit in tat category... but she just kept calling out to the ppl in the category.. like she was calling for me to respond. the need to respond was so great. so i responded. after tat, she moved on to the next category. it really felt like she was just waiting fr me to respond b4 she moved on...
i so need a breakthrough in some many areas.. in my life, studies, serving, ministry, personal tawg........ just have to surrender. make the effort to run back to Him. stop wasting time. stop running away. stop putting things off. just run back to the Father!

went out with janice for lunch. saded the usual gang disappeared. al and gerald nvr come. fab also.miranda n jon cant make it. asaph disappeared. glo going home... so ya. but had a good time of sharing with janice. went to zhi cha, but we both no money. so we share one plate of hor fun. let her eat 1st. but stare at her eat so weird. so talked a lot lor. lols. talked about sch, subject combi, random funny stuff... ya. n she ate like 2/3 of the whole plate!lol. but i wasnt hungry anyway. n sometimes she dun eat, so let her eat more is good for her. xP
then my turn to eat her turn to talk. 1st thing tat came out was relationship! >< lols. she's been like trying to guess who's the guys i like every since like 1 or 2 yrs liao!! haiz. but made her share about hers since i was eating. xP shared some about our past "relationship" life. not tat we had ever been in a relationship b4.. (she's 3yrs younger, and already have more crushes than me!! xP and her 1st crush was long way b4 mine! O_O) then she try to guess which guy i like.. haha. told her she guaranteed plus chop cannot guess one! lol. if she can guess i have to treat her a meal.. but lucky the deal was only for tat day until 3pm. cos after tat i gotta go. so she just kept guessing random guys lor. lols. guess everyone she knows tat i know. haha. gave her some minor clues to help her. but she still cannot guess.
spent the rest of the time in hans, while she continued to guess. lols. she even took my phone to check all the guys i have in my phone cos i told her i got the guys no inside. she was like quoting ever guy in my phone! haha. but still cannot guess. lol. then she ask a very crucial question tat if i answered yes (which was the ans to her qn) she sure can guess one, bcos the no of ppl in tat category is super limited, and the no of guys i'm close to inside tat is even less. was considering whethr to answer her or not. but cos it was 2.59... so oh well. told her the answer. then she immediately rattled off two names b4 i told her that its 3. so time's up. i cant let her guess liao. so now i'm not obligated to tell her whether she guessed correctly or not. but the 1st guy she said was one of them. xP but NO WAY am i going to say who it is man.have to protect myself and the guy. cant imagine wat wld happen if ppl know i like him.... my sis knows. but she's ok. we exchange secrets.. and i know she wont tell. but any other ppl besides her... sry. its not tat i dun trust u.. its just... if the guy ever finds out i'm so dead. and ppl wont imagine us togethr. its just not possible. its all just imagination on my part..

have to stop allowing ppl to guess who i like. glo tried for i dunno how long nvr got close. janice stuck home to close for comfort. seriously nvr imagined she wld think of tat qn! it nvr occured to any1 b4! but she promised not to tell any1 wat little she know. so tats gd. but still. i have to be more careful now.

had pw after tat. >< gpp... research... lessons learnt... >< went to pat's couz house to continue after our lappy's batt ran low. had dinner there. some burmese rice salad thing.. not really my kind of food.. finished at like 10pm? ya.went home super late. but at least its done. except for linus part-SOP..

today... nthing much eventful really happened.gp teacher nvr come. so did chem assignment, tried studying for reccurrence, too tired, slept the rest of the 1.5hr. stupid thing is did finish the chem assignment, forgot to put in his pigeon hole! >< stupid. haiz.

pe was fun. played handball. hahas. in the end the score was quite even. but since no one kept score so we not sure. but i think my grp won by a bit. was sort of quite even out lar. cos tat grp got yuxun(super tall) and they had one more player than us. but we got shao hua, n he super gd. so ya. the other team also got the japanese exchange student. she plays gd. but reminds me of certain ppl i cant stand playing games with in amkss.. shall not say more.

met mom at novena and ate ban mian for dinner. burn my tongue. >< had guitar lessons. she go buy another guitar. now i think i have at least 5 or 6 guitars at home liao.. plus an organ, plus piano, plus the soon gonna come the electric guit. lols. all we need is a drum set and bass and can set up our own mini band liao. i,bro,sis,mom play guit, bro going for e guit, sis going for piano, i sing, and i oh so wanna go for piano,bass, e guit, and drums lesson. in short, i wanna learn and play any and every instrument i can lay my hands on. xP
but guitar lesson was great. love the coach. great at teaching, plus many info to share. for once he ended early today. (before 10) but we ask one qn and he started sharing a lot of stuff... until like 10.20, 10.25 then we ended cos a boy needed to go home cos its like real late liao.. but the stuff he shared.. very worrying in some sense, thought-provoking. really change my mindset about tat country.all the stuff tat ppl dun usually see... and the msg is so urgent and important.. but not everyone wants to know and wants this msg to be shared... but now i'm curious and want to know more.. but no time to do my own research.. haiz. mayb next time.

jorene wont be going for the china trip liao. cos of the risk of the swine flu. =( should i still go? or not? still not confirmed whether tat dates got june event rehearsal or not.. but supposingly dun have for now.. think i'll still go lar. at least still got yuan lin.

then ava the results will be revealed on wed.. >< super worried and nervous. so wanna be in exco.. so wanna b VP.. haiz. and i still dunno wats my role in june event. hoping and praying tat broZC wld miraculously find another girl to take over the crucial role they need me to do so i can be released to do other stuff.. (esp behind the sound booth!). i'm not against working backstage or mic-ing the actresses.. but i only have a limited amt of time left to serve in IGNYTE. and there's only so many events in a yr. and for most events (any which have drama/actresses) i have to do mic-up. there' so little chances left for me to try other stuff. and this is a major mega huge event. and i so wanna do more besides just mic-ing up.

oops. super late liao. shldnt be blogging til so late. but too much stuff tat i need to share. 'else they'll occupy my mind and cause much-irritating distractions...

k.going off liao. adios.

2009-04-30T00:06:00.002+08:00

today got ava campaign.. ><
hate these kinds of things.. ><
was super nervous lar. like last time gp oral presentation like tat... but this one MUST NOT let ppl see that i'm nervous. or else sure will lose the vote one..
my legs were trembling and mind was blank... but so far the ppl i asked say they couldnt tell i was nervous. tats good.

but it was a stupid speech. but my sis say was ok. *sighs* so wanna get into exco... shldnt have run for VP.. got so many quite gd ppl running the same position.. shld have run for QM.. no competition.. haiz.

I'm in the june event!!!! YEAH! ok totally random. xP but not confirm the role yet.. but most likely is backstage. cos like i'm the only girl in sound?! so ya. adam sound team no gals at all. then i think miranda cant make it.. sianz. so most likely have to do mic-up for the actresses liao.. unless miraculously got a gal pop up frm i dunno where.. lol. whole tech (who's serving for june event) only got like 2 gals (including me). and inez is in video, which is sortof under tech but not really... so ya. can say i'm the only gal in tech serving for june event...

wanna go fr the china trip... yuan lin more/less confirm going. jorene can go and will go if i go. i wanna go. but scared got rehearsals for june event... bro ZC dunno the rehearsal dates yet, so cant confirm.. but he say most likely shldn't have.. but i think most likely will have lor.. then tmr must give teacher answer liao.... sianz. i scared if i go then will miss out something for the june event.. but i really really wanna go.. if i go, then got rehearsal for june event, then i feel bad. cos like i volunteer to be part of it then miss the rehearsal... but if i dun go (then jorene dun go) then if really no rehearsal... then sure regret de.. sianz. but at least i wont be serving on the sunday we flying off. if not i'll feel really bad.. pao qi joseph yi ge ren.. cos i one of the team leader some more.. then i (considered) the most zai in sound for my team.. then got 2 new ppl in sound (so i suppose to train them..)... then if kevin fly off to some weird place during tat period then sound got no1 who knows how to run the board.. and i dun like asking other ppl frm other teams to help out.. then josie have to handle the team by himself... ya. so gd thing i not serving on tat sunday. (unless they go change the serving schedule but shldnt be..) but i think i'll just go for the china trip lar. fan zhen my role in june event is probably just backstage, so not tat important.. though i still dun wanna miss a single rehearsal.. but haiz. cant have the best of all the worlds right? must have some sacrifice here and there.

getting stuck in pi again. sianz. dun feel like doing anymore. xP might just decide to leave it as a high ME and dun care liao. gpp also dying.. no research, no plan on when to meet, dunno how to start writing, dateline coming up.... sianz ><

haiz. think i shld go sleep now. got so much ideas running thru my mind.. but no time to write them down. =(

2009-04-21T21:48:00.002+08:00

today finally got back bio test!! xP
got 20/40.. which is super good considering i didnt study for the test.. well, actually i did, only half. and tat half didnt really come out.. xP so its really THANK GOD that i got the results i've got.

also have to thank Him for my pw grp. me, pat, jorene and linus. =) yeah!! xD was thinking most likely wont be able to be with ppl in the clique, but WOW! me pat and jorene in the same grp!! then linus and pat was in the same grp as me during project management workshop, so its like WOW! we're in the same pw grp!! =) i like my pw grp. we got like 3 terrorists and a SARs epidemic.. put them together and u get terrorists on a biological attack!!! hahaha. xD

going to do PI soon.. >< my highest is just a ME.. not even a high ME... ><
tmr got MOD test.. die.. probably go study if do PI finish still got time..
i shld be doing my work and not blogging... xP

dunno why.. keep getting distracted nowadays.. even in sch.. ><

2009-04-14T00:35:00.002+08:00

wah.. today bio test >< nvr study finish, so dunno how to do the question, then leave blank.. >< lol.

at least pw i finally got a ME. YEAH! haha. xD

me and jorene keep high five-ing today.. haha. lol. bio prac end early cos mark goh nvr come, so we go chinese rm and slack. laugh super a lot. then chinese going to start liao, i still sitting on the table, sam lying on the table.. then suddenly the door open, then the 2 of us quickly got off. super funny. in the end it was just shao hua and the rest lar. we thought was teacher.. lol.

chinese also laugh a lot. cant rmb why.. then after chinese joled keep talking stupid things all the way to the busstop. laugh super a lot. lol.

tmr got 5.5hr break!! yeah!! cos pw teacher not coming! =D haha. the class wanna go eat sushi. i dun like sushi. *shrugs* and tmr going to donate blood!! xP haha. sam is so enthu about it. keep going ard spamming ppl's blog to advertise... lol.
dang scared of the needle.. dun like things piercing my skin.. but really really wanna know what's my blood type, tats why i going.. xP

tats all for today. =)

so dead. gg liao

2009-04-06T00:07:00.002+08:00

wah... today broZC announce tech gonna multiply frm 2 teams to 3 teams..and i'm one of the tech leaders for the new teams.. >< *stress* then now no shamus, jon, or danny to help liao... >< then the other sound person on my team is kevin, n he's either late, or overseas, so i have to do all the eq.. >< then the new team includes the new ppl who just join tech.. which means i have to teach those who join the sound department in my team about sound.. >< and i'm not confident/good in tat area lar! how to teach! ><

so dead. super stress lar. at least got josie as the other tech leader, so not so bad.. but stil.. in sound, gg liao.

shoot. tmr (or more like later today) got math and chem test. and i sortof study for chem test, but i dun think i can do well for it.. having problems in chem.. >< then nvr study for math test at all! gg. ><

then i was just informed tat we're supposed to hand in our 2nd PI by tmr(/today) and i havent started yet! >< n my teacher a bit siao one.. very fierce.. wah.. gg liao lor. ><

i am so dead tmr..... X/

shoot lar. back to studying. ><

high to low--super frustrated

2009-04-03T22:06:00.002+08:00

long time since i've last blogged.. been quite busy. whole hols was packed.. only free day was like sat.. but had to do hw then...

fun-est thing tat happened in the hols was SPONTANEOUS! went to pasir ris park for the outing. played wacko, handi-plus, and captain's ball b4 snacking. then dog-and-bone. we play dog-and-bone super fun. emmanuel (my grp) kept "sneaking" and "stealing" the bone. super funny. in the end we nvr keep score and just play for fun, partially cos we really like the game, and partially cos we dun wanna play the next game.. jer came up with tis super dirty game (inspired frm eX[pl]ode camp): use the spaghetti and pick up the pasta bits.. ONLY USING UR MOUTH! xP and to make things worse, the pasta was covered with pumpkin-flavoured baby food. >< (the baby food stank!) didnt wanna play.. but oh well, for the sake of love fun joy n laughter. my grp's strategy was "take ur time, let the other grp win and get dirty." (contributed by me) cos the worse thing tat can happen is forfeit, and forfeit as a grp isnt so bad.. jer didnt play.. >=/ lol. but after the game (when he talking on the phone) we plot how to "get revenge" for him not playing the game while making the rest of us get dirty. haha. so we carried out the plan. chris (frm rugby) tackled him, the guys held him down, n the gals smeared the leftover baby food on his face. haha. super fun! xD then jer hugged chris and wiped the baby food on his shirt. then the guys decided to gang up on chris with the remaining baby food. took them super long to catch chris. he brushed off 2 tackles while running.. but in the end he also got baby food smeared on him.. then he go tackle yanxiang, the main guy behind his attack. lol. super funny. i just sat there and ate chips. xD like watching free movie. haha. later chris shared a powerful testimony and we had a "altar call" sorta.. had dinner together at burger king. =)

1st two weeks of term2 were ok. still struggling to convince myself to do hw etc.. like i kept saying to pat "i very guai in every area but hw.." sian.. haiz.. feeling the heat of jc life liao.. had the stupid pe YOG project thing (which is a total waste of time) n we nvr exercise, just do project.. =( i know i'm weird.. i actually like pe.... lol. then there's the release of pw task.. >< so super whooper hard!!! "emergency" n "conservation"... arrgghhh. got an AE for PI.. >< sianz.. the past 2 yrs task is soooooo much easier lar!! then got math test ytd.. so screwed... >< Qn1 i think i know how to do.. Qn2a i quite sure i know how to do.. skip Qn2b, dunno how to do.. did Qn3i, but think i do wrong.. rest of Qn3 nvr do.. shoot. i like lose half my marks in blanks liao lor.. sianz..

haiz.. then mon got chem and math test.. >< sooooo screwed. dang it. then following mon got bio.. 1st 2 chapters... >< last yr the test NO ONE PASS and they were only tested on 1 chapter.. we tested on TWO!!! die liao lor. so dead.. *i wonder wat happened to all my As...=(*

today got duty for international friendship day rehearsal.. pe end at 4, duty at 5.. so i was super early.. wasted time in the control rm.. xP chris say dun start until overseer come.. then my sis (the overseer) didnt know.. n she happily do her hw and come late.. lol. so hse exco ppl come up and ask us to set up.. then cos only got 3 of the 5 ppl on duty there, and the j2s dun wanna help us.. so no choice lor, so the 3 of us who were there early/on time have to go down do sai kang work.. i dun mind doing it lar.. but i prefer the control board, n i havent touched the board yet cos the past few times i do set up.. =( haix.. i'm seriously irritated with ava. even after taking into account tat this is by the sch, so naturally the standard's lower.. but SERIOUSLY!?!? esp after being trained in high discipline (in some sense) in the tech team, its really hard.. *sigh* i'll be the 1st person to say ava is a slack cca, cos it is a slack cca. u dun hav to be on duty for events if u dun want to. there's no training, n only the few short meetings to clear admin stuff.. so the workload is really little, esp compared to the ccas with A divs and syf! but Im aware and "trained" to be alert on the job. which means even though its a slack cca, when u're on duty, u are NOT to be found slacking. but for the other members.. esp j1s.. the commitment esp on duty is just different frm wat i'm used to.
another thing i find hard to cope with is punctuality and communication. in tech, we're usually on time if not slightly early for some. if u're late,esp for a few times, u'll be 'scolded' or talked-to.. cos we believe in honouring God and honouring others and their time. n we only have a limited time to do everything.. n besides, for those learning in the diff departments (like me) most of the impt stuff is done at the beginning.. so if u're late, u'll miss it. n by starting early/on time, we'll definitely have sufficient time to do our job and handle any technical errors etc. in ava... like not just today.. take morning assembly for example. i was the 2nd person there, even though i had lessons in the morning! those without were suppose to come earlier. and those who had lessons just strolled down when their lessons ended with no sense of urgency. haiz.. see the diff? and the super irritating thing is tat those who are on time usually end up doing the sai kang work while those who r late run the board! bah bu cheung. like tat i also come late lar! then can run the board! sian. in tech, we always have some1 in charge. if not an adult leader, then a team leader, or just the more experienced one in tat department. fan zhen there's some1 in charge. so i'm used to working with ppl with direct "orders from above" and having an organised team. in ava? super disorganised. control board totally silent. no instructions/directions. those setting up on stage dunno wat else to do... in tech we'll set up finish, then follow the directions of the soundboard person to test each mike etc. the person at the soundboard wld control main vol, and balance the volumes for all the mikes. haiz.. today, the control rm give no directions, so we have to test mike wat. so we tell them wat mike we testing, got sound, then done. my sis say the person on the soundboard dun even know how to use it! then by the time he locate the mike, we test finish liao, so he cannot balance the mike vol.. for goodness sake! then TELL US WHAT U NEED US TO DO!! its not like we can read ur mind!u need us to test the mike JUST SAY! u've got a mike up there too so USE IT for goodness sake! *shakes head in exasperation!* i seriously dunno wat to say man.. haix. wah.. then tell them need 2 mike stands, 2 ppl came down.. EMPTY-HANDED! like seriously man. i can imagine how broZC would have done everything lar. he would like assign tasks to individuals, then once everything setup liao, he'll like cut every1 and bring up specific mikes to test, eq and balance, giving the person on tat mike instructions to test it... then repeat tat for all the mikes etc until everything is done, working, eq-ed, balanced, wat-not. no time wasted. directions clear. no confusion. totally organised. EFFICIENT.
n i feel the j2s shld have done more. I'm not shooting u or wat, but i seriously feel tat since u already have so many ppl who (by right) dun need to be here for duty but are here anyway, u shld have like at least one on top and one below. cos even after the training in the camp, most if not all of us are still unsure of wat to do. u standing by the side watching us wont help. u shld be like helping us along the way, teaching us wat's the proper way. the best time for us to learn and for u to teach is ON THE JOB. not just in training. like tech, we have trainings at least once or twice a yr. but the REAL training comes when we're serving, when we're ON THE JOB, when we're running the board, when we make mistakes, when we LEARN FROM THE EXPERIENCED'S EXAMPLES, when THEY TEACH US WHILE WE SERVE. in this way, we get both the knowledge and experience at the same time. not just experience and no knowledge like today's, or knowledge and no experience like during the training camp. i'm not saying the training was useless. NO! far from it! but the training just introduces us to our job as ava. it does not teach us wat to do in situations we encounter while on duty. tats something YOU have to teach. sure we can learn by making mistakes and learning frm them. but since u're there, wont it be faster and more efficient if u instruct us instead of just watching us and not helping? this is like our first time doing duty for an event. its not as simple as morning assembly. we need help. we're totally unsure of wat to do.

haiz..... look at how tech runs stuff.. look at how ava runs stuff... the diff is sooo obvious and soooooooooo different! is it just me? are my expectations too high? ava can nvr reach the standard of tech, but at least it shld have a higher standard. shouldnt it? or am i expecting too much of ava? haix. i really feel ava should BUCK UP!

last day of the 1st term!!

2009-03-13T23:34:00.005+08:00

WARNING! THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG POST! READ AT YOUR OWN RISK! you have been warned!

basically today marks the end of term 1 of my jc life. or more like half a term since we only had like 4 weeks of sch..

this morn go sch early for math (got APGP test ><).. hate it when we have to go to sch early.. >< met linhao on the bus and he laugh at my timetable.. like every1 else who sees it.. xP anyways, the test was really easy. just made a small stupid mistake. but corrected it later. (seriously, i feel our math teacher too nice liao.. by right we shld be able to finish the question given to us within 10min. but she allows those who nvr finish doing to go find her during a break and continue doing. and some of those who did tat referred to notes or discussed.. but then again, bcos she so nice i got to correct my mistake and didnt lose the answer mark..)

econs lecture was boring, though slightly more interesting than the others. a student kanna con by our econ teacher. haha. he paid $1 for an inferior chocolate instead of a ferrero rocher.. lol.

chem tutorial went thru the practical wksheet and some tutorial questions.. think i'm finally understand chapter 2 now.. (I'm so dying in chem.. ><) considering going for the extra lesson in the hols.. see how.

econs tutorial was usual. nvr bring article again but fake have. no way am i ever going to present any articles in front the class!! not unless absolutely neccessary! i rather write a 2000word essay then speak in front of a grp of ppl! actually, not. but you get my point. *don't u?* (refer to 3 posts back if u wanna know wat will happen) our econs teacher really nice.. which also means he's easy to "bully".. every tutorial we complain about our timetable so he'll let us off early (esp since my econ class is a combi of mine and another class, so the breaks for the two classes is diff..) but then it seems like he got nothing else to teach us so he let us off early.. *shrugs*

break: do chem, and more chem, and math. joled was so distracting, he play music from his laptop (quite loud) and make the music sound very funny.. lol.

PE!! went to the gym. =D spent most of my time on the treadmill. the gym brought back lots of memories.. like how we'll always go gym (in amkss) to slack in the air-con rm.. spam the "increase speed" button while the person is running then hit "stop" when cant run so fast.. haha. and the funniest memory wld be kel "bouncing" on the machine-tats-suppose-to-help-in-pull-ups!! haha. had so much fun times in the gym of amkss!! =D
had fun and funny moments in the gym today too! the funniest one was the sight of elias running on the treadmill. he run until super funny!! lol. nvr see any1 run like tat. haha. xD the fun-est moment was when PE was over, then me and sam didnt feel like going yet.. we wanted to continue 'excercising' in the gym. pat join us cos she got cca later and got nothing much to do until then. we ran on the treadmill some more than go "play" with the other machines.. then we wandered outside and played on the monkey bars.haha. used to do them all the time in pri sch, now cannot do liao. too much gravitational force acting on me.. xP SH jump like 250cm easily on standing broadjump. i jumped 180, and sam wanted to kill me.. haha xD left bcos i going with my sis to visit my grandma. pat and sam was trying incline pull-up when i left..

bought cha gui for "dinner". it wasnt suppose to be a proper dinner, cos our dinner was already waiting for us at home, but we go pei our grandma eat some. but then she go cook noodles for us.. lol. in the end eat until go home nvr eat dinner.. xP haha. but my grandma cook super nice. =) pei her for a while then went home. we walked all the way! xD lol. actually its not very far lar..

didnt watch gto today cos my bro needs to pack for his camp tmr.. at this rate we wont be able to watch gto during the hols.. all of us got so much stuff on!!

haix.. so far I'm enjoying jc life.. sort of.. really love my class. 0903 ROCKS!!! XD haha. really made great frens already (which is really quick considering the average rate i take to make frens frm the past..)
no regrets going ny and taking BCMe. though i always complain.. esp since our 3H2 combi end even later than the 4H2s.. but then having a great class makes up for it! xD ignore all complains i make about the timetable. though it always ends super late, and half the time we have to come to sch early, but there's lots of [long] breaks in btwn, and those breaks are why i shldnt be complaining (though i still do xP) for those who know me, u'll know i hardly ever do my hw ever since the start of my education life. (which is why all the teachers who teach my sis then teach me will complain. cos she always does her hw, and it'll take a miracle for me to do the same!) well, tat miracle will be coming soon, since i cant afford to not do my work in jc. Im already dying in chem and dun wanna "die" anymore than i can help. anyway, my point is its super whooper hard for me to do work at home (no "qi fen" xP) though I'm trying. but those super long and many breaks in my timetable is really good for me. cos i can study anywhere but at home!! so i really have to thank God for this timetable. though ever day wld be a long day (except weds thanks to my choice of cca), the breaks give me much-needed time to do my work. indeed, He knows wats best for me! =)

nvr did find 1-week hols useful. cos everyone crams stuff in tat short one week, on top of all the work teachers pile on you since its the "holidays". already all my week-days are packed, and week-ends are usually "off-bounds" to me. and one sunday is already filled for THE WHOLE DAY!! xP but I'm in the comm org the event on tat day so no complains. xP haha. no lar. we're still ironing out the details but i know tat day wld be filled with lots of fun, joy, laughter, games, food, and many new friends!!! xD
but since tat's the 2nd and last sunday for the hols, it means i have to ping ming do finish all my work b4 then, cos i cant rush work on the last day liao.. but at least i know my hols will finish with a "BANG!" xD

if u have read thus far, good for u! haha. =D i might not be able to post much in the hols considering the amt of stuff i have crammed in it... *shrugs*

til next time. =)
adios.

a wasted day

2009-03-07T22:36:00.003+08:00

wasted dunno-how-many-hrs of my life today. met with some class ppl at amk mrt at 6.30 >< super early. wasted the ONLY day of the week i can sleep in..
then go ecp for the sch sports carnival. we stop at parkway macs to wait for karl. then it rain. so we sat at macs. when we finally go ecp, they say the thingy cancel liao.. -_-" so we go ecp macs and meet the rest of the class. me and fy nvr eat.. every1 else was eating.. lol.
went with fy to the busstop. kelvin give us wrong direction.. and we ended up crossing the overhead bridge twice. saw my sis so end up walking with her a few busstop away to take 13. saw andy and kelvin in 966 at the 13 busstop. haha.

in short, i just wasted my whole morning on the only day of the week i have a chance to sleep in. the only excercise i got was crossing the overhead bridge twice (thanks to kelvin) and walking to ecp and back!

had tuition later.. xP lao si give me a lot of ting xie the other hw... >< so dun like chinese. xP

guess the only thing productive i've done today is my tuition though.. xP

Your Name - Paul Baloche

2009-03-05T20:18:00.003+08:00

As morning dawns and evening fades
You inspire songs of praise
That rise from earth to touch your heart and glorify your name

Your name
Is a strong and mighty tower
Your name
Is a shelter like no other
Your name
Let the nations sing it louder
'Cos nothing has the power to save
But your name

Jesus, in your name we pray
Come and fill our hearts today
Lord give us strength to live for you and glorify your name

Your name
Is a strong and mighty tower
Your name
Is a shelter like no other
Your name
Let the nations sing it louder
'Cos nothing has the power to save
But your name

2009-03-04T19:33:00.002+08:00

today super gd. only got 2lessons... math and gp. (but math got lecture and tutorial) math was ok lar.. so far i dun really have much prob with math.. i sooo love maths!! ^^ discovered tat nic (my sis fren) made a mistake.. no wonder he cldnt help me solve the question.. haha. xD

GP was quite bad though.. rushed finish my written ytd night.. xP then today got oral presentation.. and i nvr prepare.. >< hate oral! whenever i in front of ppl.. got so many pairs of eyes fixed on me... so many minds critising my every word... my brain locks up and my tongue grows numb.
--which is wat happened today.
was preparing myself on wat to say while the 1st 8 ppl were presenting.. then my turn came... i just scraped past the backgrd of the topic I'm doing then my mind went blank. nothing. nada. totally forgot everything i wanted to say.. >< so i just finish and go back.. >< wah.... so hate doing oral.. >< was still tensed after i presented for another half hr.. ><

on a lighter note, assembly was quite "fun". me, pat, fy, and sam nvr pay attention to the speaker.. we go plot how to skip the 3km run on sat and shared the funny classT designs we came across b4.. haha. xD
i wonder why my class always the 1st in the hall for assembly.. guess we're really enthu! xD haha.

You'll Come - Hillsong

2009-03-02T21:14:00.007+08:00

just learned this song yesterday... really nice song. =)

I have decided, I have resolved
To wait upon you Lord
My rock and redeemer, shield and reward
I wait upon you Lord

As surely as the sun will rise
You'll come to us
As certain as the dawn appears

You'll come
Let your glory fall
As you respond to us
Spirit rain
Flood our hearts with holy fire again
You'll come, You'll come

We are not shaken, we are not moved
We wait upon you Lord
Mighty delivever, triumph and truth
We wait upon you Lord

As surely as the sun will rise
You'll come to us
As certain as your word endures

You'll come
Let your glory fall
As you respond to us
Spirit rain
Flood our hearts with holy fire again
You'll come, You'll come

Chains be broken
Lives be healed
Eyes be opened
Christ is revealed

You'll come
Let your glory fall
As you respond to us
Spirit rain
Flood our hearts with holy fire again
You'll come, You'll come

2009-02-25T18:18:00.002+08:00

sianz.. today woke up early for stupid chinese >< went to school earlier to attempt the questions.. stupid chinese words mean nothing to me.. so i couldnt answer the stupid chinese questions.. thanks to samantha for helping me later!!! =)
1/2hr break b4 GP, and i spent it trying to do more chinese.. ><
GP was a total waste of time! all my articles on the net (too lazy to print) then the sch internet not working... so just stare at the blank screen and pretend I'm doing something so the teacher wont bug me.. xP (i wasted 1hr of my life....)
bio lecture... was "agreeing" with the lecturer here-and-there.. but wasnt so bad today. info-overload though..
1.5hr break! ate branch, then went to library to finish the (stupid) chinese. took elias seat and refuse to return it to him.. haha. xD did the rest of the math Qn, and did some bio..
math tutorial was the average, except tat we found out the reason why a fellow classmate wasnt ard the whole day... he only just woke up!!! lol.. he came to sch 3.5hr late! so funny.. haha..xD did more bio and some AP&GP while the 'cher was going thru binomial..
have to write a stupid 100word essay cos didnt prepare a newspaper article for econs.. oh well, simple compared to 1000word for GP.. karl so funny.. he nvr prepare article also, but go borrow an artivle frm FY, then 'cher ask him present, but he dunno wat the article is about, so in the end he also need to write the essay!! hahaha.. he so funny! xD
went to watch a taiwan grp do a cultural drumming item... quite interesting... i think drumming is cool. i so wanna learn!!! xD

yup. tats basically wat happened today. =)

Class Outing!!!

2009-02-23T18:55:00.002+08:00

yesterday had class outing at ECP!!! xD rushed down after church to go.. had great fun with the class. we like cycled for 5hrs!!! but got break lar. haha. cycle frm ECP to changi village, eat dinner (at like 5pm), then cycle back! =)

during one of the breaks on the way to changi village we go take lots of photos.. haha. so fun. then when cycling take more photos!!

oh, then when we walking back to parkway parade there, some ppl went for a toilet break. then me, esther, elaine, kelvin and elias went high.. we started dancing the mass dance in the middle of the road!!!!! haha xD so fun! we stopped when the others came back, which was right b4 the part where the guy and girl have to do the "chacha" together.. haha.. *lucky save* LOL

took 31 with esther and elaine to the interchange, then took 88 back. reached home at like 9.30... (half an hr past my curfew ><) heck. but had a great time bonding with the ppl who went. =)

(L)0903!!!! YEAH!!! =D haha.

an update, finally

2009-02-18T18:57:00.005+08:00

havent blog for super long liao... lots of things happened... orientation... vday event... lappy starts acting up.... computer kanna virus.... lappy crash.. (i lost all the bones episodes I had and the music tats not in my mp3...) >< couldnt blog for so long.. til now.

FINALLY got a new laptop. and the com's repaired too, and we got a new one!! xD so now for some "quick" updates:

orientation was really FUN!!!! woots!! had great times of bonding with the class! until now the class still very bonded.. everytime go each lunch together...!! GO 0903!!!! xD

was serving for the vday event: LOVE.ME.NOW during orientation week.. super tiring.. rehearsals end at 11pm.. >< but it was a really fruitful and satisfying experience, esp during altar call.. WE HAD OVER 100 FTVS & 30 SALVATIONS!!! was controlling the music and sound effects for the event.. quite stress, but really fun! esp during pass the parcel.. i stop the music, and al kanna!! haha xD too bad he only got a "phew">< anyways, THANK YOU LORD FOR THIS CHANCE TO SERVE YOU EVEN IN THIS EVENT!!

jc life properly start liao... >< having problems shifting to study mode... (probably cos i dun have one.. xP) hardly ever do my hw last time.. now die die must do.. >< usually last min then study de.. now cannot.. *sighs* lectures are soooo super boring..! so hard to keep awake.. at least tutorials not so bad, but sometimes still feel like sleeping.. xP

should be doing my assignments and spending less time with my lappy... xP heck.

there's a huge event coming up in June... and i soooooooooooooooooo wanna be part of it!! but I'm still adapting to JC life and am afraid the commitment might be too large for me to handle.. besides, i dun think my dad will allow...
oh well, if it's in God's will, He'll make a way..

Amazing Love - Chris Tomlin

2009-02-02T16:51:00.002+08:00

I'm forgiven because You were forsaken
I'm accepted, You were condemmed
I'm alive and well Your spirit lives within me
Because You died and rose again (x2)

Amazing love how can it be
That You my king would die for me
Amazing love I know it's true
And it's my joy to honor You
In all I do, I honor You

I'm forgiven because You were forsaken
I'm accepted, You were condemmed
I'm alive and well Your spirit lives within me
Because You died and rose again

Amazing love how can it be
That You my king would die for me
Amazing love I know it's true
And it's my joy to honor You (x2)
In all I do, I honor You

You are my king (x4)

Amazing love how can it be
That You my king would die for me
Amazing love I know it's true
And it's my joy to honor You (x2)
In all I do, I honor You

You are my king (x4)
Jesus, You are my king...

Indeed, Lord, your love is truely amazing.. and let everything i do honor you. in thoughts, speech, actions, and feelings.. let all i do bring honor to you.

'O' results

2009-01-13T03:07:00.003+08:00

ok, had my results like at 2++++++pm cos mdm tong was talking about stuff.. (wasnt paying attention as usual xP) anyway, here goes:
eng A2
bio A1
science A1
Math A1
A Math A2
humans B3
chinese B4
L1R5-10, L1R4-7

ok, which means i'm eligible for jc. and minus-ing 2points for cca(a1), i shouldnt have a problem going nyjc. =)

I'm suppose to be glad about my results... but I'm not. cos i know its not the best i could have gotten. due to poor time management, i didnt really complete my Amath paper.. probably resulting in the A2 instead of the A1 i was expecting. humans should have been better too. but i know i've neglected tat subject the most except like right before the paper.. so i guess i deserve it.

but on the bright side, my eng got an A2! was expecting a B3, cos my eng (esp during exams) isn't good. and my chinese, i re-took the paper, improved by 2 grades!

but anyways, all glory to God! by His grace i got a 10. was super worried tat i'll do worse... tat i won't be able to make it to nyjc.. etc etc.. haha.. at least now my tuition teacher won't "kill" me for just passing chinese!! xD

I'm aware tat some ppl think i did really well and shldnt be upset over an A2 instead of an A1 etc... but personally, i know this is not my standard so I'm not happy with it. now I'm just worried i cant go nyjc.. cos got lots of ppl wanna apply, and frm wat i know, quite a number is better than me.. like they got 7-8points for L1R5... ><
so like i did with my 'O' results, i'm gonna trust the Lord, tat if its His will, I'll enter nyjc, if not, wherever i end up in, its where He wants me to be.

i pray for those who didnt do as well as u expected, tat God's grace would be with u, and tat He'll give u comfort so u won't be too upset.

NYJC-immersion programme

2009-01-10T02:57:00.009+08:00

went to nyjc for their immersion programme. quite fun. interesting. great time of meeting and making new frens.

Day1:reported at 8am at lt1. my group was alex1. wenqi in the same grp as me. OGL was chun leong and zul. only 1 guy (steven) turned up. the principal gave a speech (boring), and we watched some videos made by the graduating classes. had a couple of sample lectures. quite boring... xP but some were interesting. had a break in betwn the lectures. after lunch (which was horrible-curry rice xP), we had games. went around the jc and played the games organised by the CCAs. in this way, we get to tour the jc, see some of the CCAs, and enjoy ourselves. had great fun. finished past 5.30. went up to the ava to disturb my sis (she was on duty)

Day2:reported at 8am, suppose to.. but woke up late.. xP chun leong was nicknamed 慢三拍 cos he reaction very slow. then when he go take stuff like our lunch take super long to get it... had lectures.... like the phy one... the lecture was quite interesting.. tea break. then econs lecture. econs is common sense in an uncommon language as quoted by the econs lecturer. quite true in some sense.. had a presentation about the sch's OSLE.. their overseas trips etc etc... then lunch. which was a lot better than the previous day.. =) after lunch was a time of bonding. my grp combine with alex4 and our OGLs go teach us how to play bridge, which is supposingly part of nyjc culture. 慢三拍 kept confusing the spades and the hearts.. super funny.. had a brief talk by a graduate about PW, and we had a PW exhibition after tat. then we had our own mini-projectwork. we were suppose to design a foodcourt bringing into consideration the needs of the ppl described to us. the only guy tat day (whose name i cannot rmb) was the scribe (cos we gals say so). then (for-i-dunno-wat-reason) we kept going back to the shape of the shopping mall, and the guy was like "tat's why they say girls can't do business" and the 2 OGLs (both guys) agreed with him. lol. he forgot he was in an all gal team... haha. he came to regret his words but too late liao. the whole grp turned on him. lol. i helped to design the foodcourt while some of the others flip thru our magazines to find pictures. it was quite fun la... but i dun think the real PW is anything like tat.. the presentation style too much like sec sch like tat... finished at 5.10 roughly. went home after cleaning up.

Day3:reported at 8.15, woke up late again. >< missed part of the chem lecture.. only understood how the equation worked at the last 2 questions.. xP had geo lecture. 2 volunteers did a survey.. the gal (frm my grp) was expected to live up to 88yrs. the guy frm another grp super fake lar!!! he expected to live 97yrs. he excercise like 6days a week for at least 30min each time, dun eat sweets/candies/cake/bbq food/fast food/processed food/red meat, dun drink coffee/tea, have a super good medical record, eats healthy snacks like veg/fruits/yogurt, and is engaged in physically active activities during his free time!!! so fake la!!! cos he beat my team's score, his team got extra 10 points. xP then the lecturer giving lollipops as rewards for volunteering, but the whole lt de ppl dun let the guy get his, cos he say he dun eat sweets!! lol. after the break, we had a dialogue session with the prinicpal, but i wasnt listening. me, lixian and wenqi were taking photos and having fun. xD did a reflection montage as a grp. then the council did a mass dance for us. my grp move to the center to see 慢三拍dance and to support him.. we wanted to see if he dance slower than the others.. xD but he dance quite good lar.. =) had closing cermony and prize presentation.. went down to the canteen for lunch. cos after lunch we can go liao, but our OGLs disappear again, so we left a note saying "u abandoned us. we going liao. bye" something along tat line. xD

had great fun during the 3 days of immersion programme. GREAT JOB! to those who planned it. totally enjoyed myself. made new frens and we had fun together--mostly bullying chun leong.. poor guy.. xD but the 3 days also gave me insight on jc life and wat the subjects and lectures are like. no regrets going! =D

(frm left to right)front row: Zulhafiz, Chun Leong, Steven
2nd row:Wen Qi, Sihui, Jinxia, Lixian, Julie

3rd row:moi, Geraldine, Teng Ping, Shabnam, Fiona(behind)

New Year

2009-01-01T14:59:00.001+08:00

if i blog, it'll be full of words of anger and hate. so i wont be blogging today (and maybe the next few days)

so much for a happy new year!

My 16th Birthday

2008-12-28T01:40:00.005+08:00

went tcc as usual for christmas service. but for the 1st time in i-dunno-how-long, didnt sit with my biological family. instead sat with my family-in-christ (the youths) at the altar area (cos they ran out of space again xP)

then went ard finding ppl and exchanging gifts. gwen and nicolette gave me this super cute care-bear keychain. it was super nice of them. =)

i named it benny, short-form:ben, nickname:benben =D

went out with the z2 section for lunch and movie. went to vivocity. buy tickets then went carl's jr to eat. treated fabian to the movie, cos he dun wanna watch, then i "force" him. xD

had a choice to follow one grp to shopping after lunch, or go arcade. went with the grp going arcade. *i hate shopping except for books!* watched the guys play the dancing thingy. super funny xia! laugh super alot. went to the petshop and looked at the animals... the puppies are sooooo super cute!!!!!!! wish i can have one... but my dad doesnt want to pay for them... =(

watched yes man. quite funny. but not worth 10bucks. for $5 still ok...

after the movie rushed home cos my relatives were coming over for christmas/celebrate my birthday.

had a fun time with my cousins playing with the hover-disc. one person throws it frm the 2nd floor & the rest race to catch it 1st. =)

had a super delicious dinner. (my mom's family super gd cooks! can go open restuarant!! =D)

it was a great time of fellowship. had a great time that day. =D

mich,me,rach & the cake! =D

thanks everyone. for the presents and for making my birthday a memorable one!! =)

Nouveau

2008-12-22T20:18:00.009+08:00

21dec(sun). yeah, was serving! =) (loves serving) haha. =D kevin turned up late (again) missed upper sec gathering thingy. =(

PDa preached about dying to ourselves in order to live. as in not literally "die", but ya. its a hard msg i heard b4. struggle with it everytime. to die to my rights, my dreams, wat i want... everything.. its hard.
sis Y shared how she surrended her dream to God, and how he turned things ard, and how He touched her life... heard testimonies like this b4... how ppl surrender their lifetime dreams to God... and how he makes those dreams come true in a totally unexpected way tat is definitely done by Him and nothing else. not our might and power but HIS! (like one of the actress in Facing the Giants shared. *its a super nice/incredible show btw..*) but still... its hard to surrender everything to Him...

glo, al, janice, asaph, jon, miranda surprised me with a super big and nice card thingy for my birthday (though it's still early) haha. it was really nice.. (the card and them) =) thanks guys!! really appreciate it =D noone had ever done tat for me b4. sure ppl rmb my bday cos its on christmas, but due to the hustle and bustle, many frens 4get about it too.... usually only the close ones wish me happy bday. noone ever went the extra mile (for me) and get ppl to gather and write for my card etc etc. so the thought and action went a long way (esp for me). thanks ppl!! =)

had lunch at the zhicha place (or "the secret place" as the old z2 folks like to call it) al and rach happily go tell every1 there tat my bday's coming. then they go sing me happy bday song. *super pai say.. ><* (they refering to z2 folks and some AF ppl-PDa and broT was next door...)

was serving for Nouveau. dress code for serving ppl was white top. helped set up the stage. had to move everything frm lt to summit. 1st time i set up. super lost, dunno wat to do. even keive (he doing lights! -i in sound) know better than me.. ><
was suppose to run the board with gabriel. (we serve same team last yr) but cos he giving testimony, so ran it with shamus instead. gab super funny xia. he cldnt rmb everything he wanted to say, so was like saying he later go on stage and say i in tech! we have more power than the music min! without tech, music min is nothing! lols. in the end he did mentioned tech *woots!!* but tats it. xD
then when the music min ppl ask for stuff like i cant hear myself or the instrument is too loud etcetc, gab was like i not happy i dun give u sound! etc etc.. and he really go bring down the house volume! lol. he super funny lar!
joe got roped in last min to serve for lights.

played games in Nouveau. (didnt participate cos serving) lost my bottle of stars in the end.. ='(
songs, praise & worship
PDa shared some.
moving of the diff lvls.. me moving to z2 =( going to be with the "old folks" next yr.. =( gonna miss upper sec.. =( shiny and denise gonna be adult leaders for lower sec.. will miss them.. =(
had dinner. food was okok only. (broD wedding de food nicer. esp the laksa... ^^) watched videos while eating. then ran ard finding ppl to give christmas presents. =)
then got a segment by the adult leaders. where all the adult leaders went on stage. those in music min go play their instruments while the rest sing. they sang gloria in excelsis deo, i wanna wish u a merry christmas (frm the bottom of my heart), and anthem of love. 2nd song ppl went ard shaking hands & wishing each other marry christmas. 3rd song, the party went "wild". formed lines and started dancing all over the summit. haha. broCW chase us away frm the tech booth to go join the lines. haha. lol.
had super a lot of fun. in Nouveau and in serving. super fun. =)
helped pack up afterwards. (& didnt see the sign go home now! or the hairy marque will come after you! -refering to a joke 'bout broKF in SURGE camp)
hanged ard the lift area. me, sis, and alex went high, and we wave and yelled byyeeee!!!! to like everyone going into the lift.. lol.
then later at the busstop, we yelled byyeeee!!!! to every1 boarding the bus while we waited for ours to come. super high xia. super fun. =) haha.
really had fun in Nouveau. and really glad was given the chance to serve for Nouveau. Nouveau super fun. =D

IWCP

2008-12-22T20:18:00.007+08:00

20dec(sat). my parents cell having an island-wide-christmas-party. suppose to be at our house. then report come in say got like 50ppl coming. so cannot squeeze. so we decide to use the void deck. then on the day itself report say 60+ppl. so last min my dad go book the basement area. by God's grace, we got it. =)
party started at 6pm i think. super a lot of nice yummy food. =)
after dinner, the adults went to the basement area, and the kids stayed at the void deck.
i kop my dad's camera, so dun need to participate in the games, then got excuse to run around. xP
adults sang carols, watched a video provided by the church, and then time of SALTing. kiddos sang carols, heard a story (with audience participation), watch magic show (by my sis), and played games. i ran ard taking photos. =)
P Pat and uncle patrick dropped by.
they go cut cake for dec babies (adults only =))
there were like 5(? cant rmb) salvations/interested in cell.
all glory to God!!! =D

tech gathering/IWCP

2008-12-12T02:18:00.005+08:00

mon (8dec): woke up early to go tcc, wanted to sleep in... (just came back frm nepal the previous day). had tech gathering.. would be the last for this yr.. so wanted to go... met outside LT... everyone was like super quiet and doing their own stuff... (as bro ZC describes it, its like a funeral.. super quiet) went up to classrm5. played the game "1st person say their name, 2nd person say 1st person name and their name etc etc.." then last person have to say everyone's name. was super fun. had new ppl just join tech (like the pri6s). then the pri6s ALL cannot rmb my name. they were like "wats the girl's name ar? i cannot rmb girls names.." and stuff like tat. (i was the only girl playing tat game. hannah wasnt playing for i dunno wat reason. there was only us two girls there) super irritating. then after the 1st round, we had round 2, where we have to say all the names + fave food. some ppl were really nice, and we had stuff like da pao, chicken rice etc, some ppl werent so nice, broD said beef steak medium rare, bro ZC was old chang kee curry puff, danny's was chicken bolognese, then got one godiva chocolate and i cant rmb wat else. i wanted to sabo ppl and say spaghetti alla carbonara. but sad lar, they stopped at joseph (right b4 me) cos we running out of time. but the rest were still suppose to say their fave food. when i said mine, they were like "wah!" haha =)
then we split into 3 grps. then we suppose to send a volunteer frm each grp up and they have to answer a question. whoever answer wrongly have to pour water frm a bottle into an already filled cup. whoever makes the cup overflow have to do forfeit. the questions i could rmb were "when was broD wedding", "wats bro CW fave sport", "wats the total age of the adult leaders in tech", "wat microsoft office we using for rgb", "wats the model of the lighting board we use in service" (got one ans "i dunno the lighting board, but i know the projector is __" super funny lar de ans) my question was "wats the names of the 4 youth leaders in tech" i only knew hannah, jeremy, and shamus. missed out ivan. the other two ppl also dunno all 4 youth leaders, so all have to pour water into the cup! the cup was already like filled to the brim lar! but nvr overflow when i pour ^^. for the last round, bro CW, bro Sam, and bro ZC have to represent one grp each and ans the question. (bro D dun need cos he's the facilitator) question was "wats the total age of the 4 youth leaders" only bro CW got it correct, so grp 3 safe. (i in grp 1) bro Sam won the sissors paper stone, so he pour 1st, and it overflow! yeah!! cos bro ZC represent grp 1. so grp 2 lost. but in the end got no forfeit. at least it was fun.
played binocular soccer next. had to wear styrofoam cups with a hole at the end over our eyes when playing. this means u cannot see anything right in front of u, but can only see wats on the side. and can only focus one eye at a time. went down to the carpark to play. my grp play against grp 3. danny was goalie for our side. super hard to see xia. easiest way to find the ball is to hear when ppl kick it, or it bounce against the wall. took super long b4 grp 3 scored a goal. but cos it was bro CW who kicked the ball in, and he wasnt wearing "binoculars" so didnt count. bro ZC joined in wearing "binoculars". was playing half way when kanna confuse. cos can see one ball in front, then hear another ball behind!! lol. everyone was like super confuse lar! the leaders go kick in an extra ball to confuse us. in the end, my grp scored a goal. YIPEE! funny thing was, no one knew who scored it! we asked each other "who score the goal?" everyone was like "dunno" lol. so grp 3 play against grp 2. they play super fast. like 2min after the game started, "score!" then cos they score so fast, bro D was like whoever scored 2 out of 3 goals win. then within 5 min later, "score!" and by the same team too! (cant rmb who won).
went up to the classrm again. bro D played the guit while we worship God. then bro ZC shared. at the start of the yr, he shared the ABC of being in tech. Accountability, Boldness, and Christ-focused. now in the last gathering of tech, he shared the XYZ of wat makes a gd tech person. (e)Xcellence, Yo!, and Zeal. Xcellence in everything we do. dun need to do things to perfection, just give the best u can. (there's a diff betwn excellence and perfection). Yo! represents communication. besides communicating with each other, we also need to bond and make frens, cos tech is not just about serving and doing our "job", but we shld also make frens with the ppl we're serving with. Zeal means passion. in watever we do, we need to have a passion for it, if not we'll just end up doing a "job" or a "chore". which shldnt be the case. worship God some more.
then it was lunch time. cos it was drizzling, so we got two options. either eat at hans, or order zhi cha in. everyone opted for zhi cha. so while waiting for our food to arrive, we go update out particulars, and play more games. they played dog and bone. i didnt wanna play. so i watch brian teach hannah how to play the drums. so cool lar. i wish i can play the drums. watched them play dog and bone. super funny lar. they editted the game, so even funnier. like can only hop, or crawl, and instead of calling numbers, call like those wearing shorts, or SPs and above etc. watching them play was super funny.
break for lunch. had fried rice with egg. ^^
after lunch the 3 grps competed to see who can build the highest tower with scotch tape and satay sticks. super fun. one grp kop the only pair of sissors, so the other two grps came up with innovative ways to cut the scotch tape. my team used a satay stick to poke holes in the scotch tape, while the other team used their teeth! in the end, the two grps which didnt have the sissors won. but my grp the tower was steadier. cos we both build until the top satay stick touch the ceiling. our towers were tested. ppl blow at them, bro ZC flick satay sticks at them, and a ball was bounced lightly against it. the ther team tower broke and fell, but cos they stuck the topmost stick in the lights area, the top few sticks remained stuck to the ceiling!! for ours, the tower just swayed, but still remained upright! =)
was debreifed about the game. its a game which is fun and meanigful. love the building the tower with satay sticks game even after playing it for so many times. =) only ppl frm my serving team was me, joseph and brandon. 3 of us only!! *wonders wat happened to the rest*

tue (9dec): had 2008 upper sec last section outing. but wasnt feeling well, so decided not to go. regreted my decision, but too late to change it. wish i had been there.

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thur(11dec): 2008 sunday upper sec iwcp!!! none of my frens could come, but nvm, went earlier to help deco the place. had a great time. there were like 50 ppl there, of which 20+ were ftvs. =D so many ppl!!! and new faces!!! =D haha. island-wide-christmas-party (iwcp) was held at jon's place, at tanah merah, so far... his place really close to MRT. had lunch/tea/dinch/lunner. i dunno wat to call it. anyway, the food was good. jon's mom cooked spaghetti, kevin & brandon cooked sheperd's pie, then there was cakes, fishballs, pastries, oreo cheesecake (which was really nice) and more. then glo wanted to fetch her frens, but exit the condo, then got lost. lol. xP so went to guide her to MRT.. by the time we came back, they started playing games liao. played the games. my grp won! xD haha. had a skit "A Journey To Christmas" with carols, a bit of games, and lots of fun and laughter mixed inside. the skit was super funny. gd job to all who acted! testimonies were shared and we sang "we are the reason". luv tat song. after tat was SALTing. had like 5 salvations/dedications. PRAISE GOD!! =)
helped clean up the place after the party ended. went with the group for dinner. =)

Nepal

2008-12-09T20:32:00.008+08:00

Namaste! ok.. this is probably going to be my longest post ever.. (except maybe the post after i come back from camp next week...) so here goes:

Day 1: tried to sleep at 1am.. but ended up sleeping around 2+... woke up at 3.30am+ cos wanted to do stuff b4 we fly.. then at 6+ left home for the airport. the flight was at 9am, checked in at 7. inside the terminal got wooden blocks with carvings on it.. took paper and crayons and started colouring over it... got 2 masterpieces.. =) got the middle seat for the flight. =( but anyway, fell sick on the plane, so wasnt able to enjoy the view of the himalayas anyway... had a bad headache, stomach pain, and felt like vomiting.. but when we reached Kathmandu, wasnt tat bad liao. when alight from the plane, have to board a stuffy bus cramped with other passengers, then wait for everyone to board, then the bus go one big round slowly before letting us off at the arrival gate in the airport, WHICH WAS ONLY 1 OR 2 MIN WALK FRM THE PLANE!! i was like: u let me walk faster!!
met aunti Shwu Eng and the travel agent and loaded all our baggage into the van. bought loads of stuff, cos some was for aunti Shwu Eng. she's my mom sec sch fren, left Spore when she was 21 to Nepal and stayed there ever since. married a nepali around 11 yrs ago (which was when my mom 1st went to nepal-for their wedding). she has a 2nd hand shop where they sell stuff cheaply for the poor ppl.. so when got any fren going to nepal, ppl will come and drop things off for her.
the roads in nepal is so diff frm Spore. their roads no diviser one. Spore two lane de road, they squeeze 3-4 cars together.. then no traffic light de.. if the opp direction very little cars, u can cross over to tat lane.. roads are super dusty and bumpy(cos nvr maintain, not like Spore)
stopped by Gyaneshwor church to get the house keys (they just finished service when we arrived). nepalis work sundays to fridays. their only day off is on sat, when they have service. went to Aunt Shwu Eng's house, which is about 5-10 min walk frm the church.. met their super cute kukur(dog), Lucky. he's mostly black with a bit of white around the muzzle and a white chest. got a few strands of white fur on his forehead. got a dark brown patch of fur under the ears.. he is soo super cute! met the residents of the household.. Anjana works & stays in the house. she's a non-believer. Rabina beautiful youth of 13. christian, sortof works for the family. not studying, not sure if she's adopted. Rupesh quite handsome 16 yr old. shy. christian. adopted by the family for 2yrs after his parents died of TB. studying for slc (sch-leaving-cert, kinda like our O lvl) weak in english and math cos started studying at 13/14.. Asha pretty & lively 2yr old. adopted. shy at first. generous with her toys. (the bracelet i made was for her) found out her bday is on the 3rd of dec, so decided to give it to her then as a present. met P Robert & uncle Samuel later cos they had stuff to attend with in church. P Robert is the founder and senior pastor of Gyaneshwor church (which is the biggest in Kathmandu with 4 centres and an attendance of at least 2000) uncle Samuel is an elder in the church, one of P Robert's 2 sons, n (obviously) aunti Shwu Eng's husband. Aunti Shwu Eng is a deaconess.
ate lunch there, but didnt eat much, cos stomach still upset. P Robert was studying me as i ate, and commented tat Sporeans ate like birds(eat very little) lol. toured the house. their house super nice. sun sets at around 5pm+. went to walk in Thamal with Rupesh as a guide. Thamal is like our orchard rd in some sense.. but its all the local shops. some of the shops have lights, the others use candles, cos nepal got powercut. 48hrs a week no electricity. & some more its irregular. so u nvr know when they'll cut the electricity. so hotels must have generators.. the richer ppl have inverters (which is cheaper-Aunti Shwu Eng's house got inverter) the poor ppl suffer. so anyway, we walked in Thamal, looked at all the small shops which some how managed to squeeze in super a lot of stuff... and Rupesh looked super sian, like what's so interesting about all this? ya. then we walked back to the house.. quite a long walk.. got totally lost.. then everytime got car pass will horn de.. then scare me out of my skin..
dinner was chinese food, cos its a sat, so the family very busy, so every sat they'll order in, so tat day we ate chinese food, wanton soup, chicken and 2 veg. something like tat.. later joined the family for prayer before P Robert went to sleep.. later at night went to the open roof to look at the stars.. got super a lot of stars lar! very nice.. but super cold.
shared a room with my siblings on the second floor. my parents got their own room, which is the only room on the third floor.

Day 2: woke up at 8am? 9am? cant remember. by then the whole family wake up liao.. Rupesh went to sch liao.. their sch starts at 6am, ends at 11am. but they study 6 days a week, and have less hols than us. we have 3 and a half months break, they have 1 and a half.. 1 month break for ramadan, 1 week for summer hols, 1 week winter hols. ate breakfast with the family. cooked by uncle samuel. super nice xia.. went to new rd at around 11. by then Rupesh home liao. nothing much there. a bit like thamal, just tat the shops are more modern. went to walk in thamal again. ate lunch around 3+. mom ate their sizzler yrs ago and wanted to eat it again. just tat she didnt know its called sizzler. she ask for hotplate, they dun have.. so we ate other stuff instead. i ate carbonara (my fave!! ^^) super cheap lar! only like S$4! and super nice too!!!! then after we eat lunch le then realise the hotplate thingy is called sizzler.. lol.
walked around on the streets some more.. went to find the hotel mom stayed in the last time.. went back to the house.. took a hot shower. their hot water is heated by solar.. so when the sun sets, no more hot water liao.. dinner cooked by uncle samuel again.. super nice as usual. =) played with asha here and there.. she very adorable. she super generous with her toys lar. will take them out and give u de.. apparently asha & rupesh quite alike.. cos rupesh like icecream then he say asha want to eat, then he will take icecream and eat and share with her.. then when asha eat a bit of lollipop then dun want le, rupesh happily help her finish.. then rupesh sometimes like small kid, will take asha toys and play. lol. he usually move very quietly and likes to run about, plus cos he move so silently, u see him go in the rm but nvr see he come out.. so in some sense he keep 'disappearing'. so me & my siblings call him "ninja".. lol.
went out to watch the stars again. =)

Day 3: morning about the same. sun rises at 6am and gets super bright within 10min. ate uncle samuel super nice cooking. i think it was pancakes.. very nice. went to ECEC and TEACH. ECEC means early childhood education centre. it is founded by mainly aunti Reiny (aunti Shwu Eng's fren). the trainers are all christian and they teach christian values. they basically train kindergarden teachers new methods of teaching toddlers. cos in nepal, the kids are cramped into seats and are taught lessons and sit for tests.. and aunti Shwu Eng and aunti Reiny feel tat kids shldnt learn like tat.. so they encourage kids to learn thru interactive mind-stimulating means. they also believe in fun. so they handmake and sell puppets for these teachers to use as a form of communicatin betwn the teachers and the kids. they also sell stuff tat helps the kids to learn stuff like sewing and tying shoelaces while stimulating to use their brains at the same time. super cool lar their work.
TEACH is started by them too. TEACH is about training sunday sch teachers. all the staff are christian, though frm diff churches. its similar to ECEC in some way, just tat ECEC is secular while TEACH is for christians.. something like tat. they also use puppets to interact with the kids, and have puppet shows such as the story of christmas for the kids. TEACH even goes to other places in nepal to teach the sunday sch teachers. they recently went to india too. unlike ECEC, TEACH does not have much income. cos the kindergarden teachers pay for their training, so ECEC is financially covered. however, for TEACH, not all churches can afford to pay for the training of their sunday sch teahers. so TEACH subsidise for them, cos the whole point is to help reach out to the next generation and not about earning big bucks. hence TEACH is experiencing some financial difficulties. ECEC is having some funds problem too, cos they are building a new building to house their training and shop... so they dun have enough $$ to construct finish the new building.. ya. they are praying that God will somehow provide the funds for both TEACH and the new buiding. they are asking for support frm other churches (both in nepal and overseas), but the main prob is tat the churches dun know if they're trustworthy, cos some ppl in nepal start tis kind of things for $$ and not bcos they wanna help the kids... so ya, tats their main prob.. to help them, we buy some of their stuff, like dolls, puppets and toys..
went to TEACH's shop where we bought some souveniors there. got tis guy who gave his life to jesus, and in doing so, gave up his trade. cos he makes statues of various gods for a living. but cos now he's a christian, he cant make the image of other gods liao.. so he makes wood carvings and keychains to get by... so we supported him and bought some of his stuff at the shop. went with aunti Shwu Eng to Sing-Ma for lunch. its a restaurant opened by Sporeans and Msians(tats why its called sing-ma). the food there super nice. their cheesecake is the best i've ever tasted. happily eat only.. ^^ (usually i dun like cheesecake de, but theirs super nice) by the time we finish around 4pm liao..
went to Syambhu to sortof watch the sunset. tat place is a tibetian temple on a hill. didnt exactly go in cos need to pay. everywhere u turn got the tibetian prayer flag thingy. they hang up cloths with their prayers on it and believe tat whenever the wind blows, it will carry their prayers along.. something like tat.. the view frm there quite nice.. if only the flags dun block the view.. ><>

Day 4: morning about the same as usual. woke up and left the place earlier though.. cos we going to Nagarkot. Ramesh (the guy at TEACH de shop) drove us there, then we pay TEACH for the use of the pick-up. like tat TEACH get to earn, cos if we use other vehicles also have to pay.. might as well help TEACH.
dropped by the himalayan bank to change $$ the rate was quite good. S$ 52.something (which is really high) take a long time to travel to Nagarkot, cos its not tat near to Kathmandu... but the place there is super nice xia.. went to a resort in Nagarkot. the view there is superb! can see the whole valley below, and loads of hills all around, and the mountains in the background....... and the best (& my fave) thing is: THE EAGLES!!! got lots of eagles flying around, and some of them flew really close! i can spend the whole day just watching them with the magnificent view of mountains behind. super nice. didnt want to leave... but had to.. ate branch there.
after Nagarkot, went to Bhaktapur. its really near Nagarkot, like in the valley only. but the journey down the hill is another story, go round and round the mountain.. anyway, Bhaktapur is like the ancient city of Nepal. all the buildings inside are all the old architecture of nepal, before modern buildings came. walked around the place looking at the shops and the ppl's old trade.. Ramesh had nvr been there b4.. so it was all new to him. went about practicing reading nepali no by reading the number plates of the motorbikes and cars.. ^^
ate late lunch in the restaurant there... finally tried mom's sizzler. quite nice... but the rice tasted funny.. like got a bit of wine or something... glad i got my chowmein. its super duper nice xia..! ^^ the chowmein in nepal super nice! ^^
went back to the pick-up. rach wanted to learn nepali no, so i started teaching her. at least for them they dun need to ownself figure out the no, cos i help them le.. took like 2+ hrs to get back to Kathmandu. got traffic jam in Kathmandu (as always) but this time the jam seems worse than usual. Ramesh wanted to fetch us all the way back to the house, but when he tried to turn in the side rd, got jam there too.. in the end, we alighted and [my dad] help direct the traffic so Ramesh can reverse, turn, and go back. walked back to the house from there. i stayed outside a bit longer to play with lucky, while the others went in and told aunti Shwu Eng the S$ rate. then she went on her scooter to change $$ too! the kukur super cute! had another round of fries for dinner again. YEAH! ^^ love the fries.
rach did magic tricks to show the pastor. anjana was like "EH?!" whenever she did a trick. and rupesh and uncle samuel kept trying the 2 rope tricks. lol. super funny xia. we all laugh a lot tat night. did lots of packing tat night, retired for bed early.

Day 5: woke up super early. slightly before 6am. could hear the ninja moving about outside.. (his rm next to ours) but 5min later when i finally convince myself out of the nice warm bed, rupesh gone to sch liao.. grabbed a nice cup of warm milo before flying off to thamel. we were going to Pokhara tat day. met our guide and porter frm the agency. boarded the swiss express (a tourist bus). though ours was a tourist bus, got nepali ppl ride on the bus also.. the bus stop here and there along the way to let nepali ppl board and get off the bus.. wat kind of "tourist bus" is this?! *sighs* sort of slept the entire journey. stopped somewhere along the way to sort of eat lunch. more like branch actually.
bus stop at the buspark, which is a sandy compound with buses parked randomly across the place, and lots of taxis parked randomly around the place waiting for passengers. went to the hotel stubuddha or something like tat.. didnt like tat place... everywhere u go got 3 eyes looking at u.. felt creepy, and i dunno.. felt really uneasy. anyway, mom started screaming and hugging tis lady when we were in the lobby. turned out to be a fren of hers and aunti Shwu Eng. also a missionary in nepal for quite a while, she was bringing a grp of frens and missionaries around the area, acting like a guide, and they were staying in the same hotel as us.
went to rest in the room while letting the hottest time of the day pass. played stress and pig. finally left at 4+, 5pm to walk around the town area. browse thru some of the shops b4 heading down to the lake. super nice there lar! to the right got mountains, in front the lake, to the left hills.... the view super nice. then got some boats on the lake, and a flock of white birds flying over it... like a picture. super nice. some more the sun was setting over the lake... super nice. and the mountain was like changing colour every few minutes... super nice lar down there. everything was like picturesque! walked about the town again. ate sizzler at a restaurant. this sizzler got noodles instead of rice. sizzler with noodles taste nicer then sizzler with rice! super nice lar the food!! shared 3 sizzler and 2 nasi brayani.
when we got back to the hotel, the place was choking with incense! couldnt stand the smell, which made all the uneasy feeling a lot more intense. really didnt like the place. when i was in the rm, still uneasy. didnt like the windows (which were hidden behind the curtain) and the door leading to the balcony... got paranoid about ppl creeping in when we're asleep though everything was already locked. didnt like the big mirror next to my bed... didnt like the feel of the rm.. my siblings shared the same uneasiness as me. so we sang a few songs of worship and prayed for God's covering over the rm.. felt better after tat, but still a bit uneasy. b4 we went to bed, me & rach were still paranoid about ppl getting in the room, esp since the front door got no latch, so she piled the chairs and our luggage against the door. lol. we were super paranoid. slept quite well surprisingly.

Day 6: ordered breakfast b4 packing.. cos they cook very long de. mom say its the norm for villages. they can take over an hr b4 serving u the food. cant really rmb wat we ate. only rmb the cereal wasnt nice cos it was with hot milk, and the toast with butter was FAB! ate lots of toast with a nice layer of butter. ^^
left around 10+ with the porter, guide, and another porter for Nayapul, where we would start our 5days of trekking!
closed my eyes and thought a lot during the 1hr journey.
started the trek at 11++ walked thru a few villages, checked in so tat it is recorded tat we have entered the anapurna conservation area. we were all carrying our own backpack, the guide was carrying his big backpack, the older porter was carrying our huge heavy bag of sleeping bags and his own backpack, and the younger porter was carrying a basket holding our 2 luggages (with 7 litres of water + lots of other stuff inside). by the time we had reached the place where we decided to break for lunch (around 12+/1pm) we were all half-dead. dad just laid down on the bench and covered his head with the hat. had 2 soup noodles and 2 plain soup noodles. it's like maggi mee, just with more spices. the plain soup noodles had nothing inside (no spices) and was for bro and dad. (cos they not feeling well & had diarrhea & vommiting) the soup noodles (with the spices) were for me and my mom. (cos we're considered ok) my sis didnt wanna eat. (she vommited on the way) the soup noodles were really salty and spice-y (not the hot kind of spicy but the spices spice-y, if u know wat i mean), but once diluted with water, taste really nice.
it was super hot (the hottest time of the day) around the time we ate lunch and b4 tat. by the time we ate finish and rest finish, it was starting to cool down liao. with wat little strength we have left, we struggled to climb onwards. dad dumped his bag with the older porter.
oh, guess wat we saw the most during the trek??!? give up? k, i'll tell u the ans: SHIT!! everywhere was covered with horse dung, pony dung, sheep dung, goat dung, dog dung, and even buffalo dung! since u'll have to look where u step esp when u climb, u're force to stare at dung for hours! lol. go trekking nvr enjoy the beautiful scenery (which was super beautiful-we only look at the scenery when we're resting), but instead see DUNG everywhere!! there's fresh dung, and old dung.. the fresh dung at least can still avoid, the old dung are all broken up by the many ppl trekking up and down the path... and IT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO AVOID THESE DUNG! i rmb seeing one nice pile of (fresh) dung with a shoe-print in it. too bad nvr take photo (too tired liao..)
every once in a while had to pause and let a whole line of donkeys pass... we happily stop and rest only.. we climb a bit 就累得要死了... but the porters carry so much more (and heavier) stuff than us, and can "run" up the stairs and not look as tired as us!
cos we all too tired, and night was going to fall soon, we couldnt reach our intended destination, so we stopped at Hile instead of Tikhedunga. dad, rach, and jack (more/less immediately) lie on the bed and rest. mom was about taking care of them, taking care of our stuff, ordering dinner, helping us find our stuff, and resting here & there in betwn. i was siting on the bench drinking a cup of (lovely) hot nepali chai (tea) with chinni (sugar) watching the sun set. it was getting cold liao.. took a quick hot shower, but once the tap is off, u'll feel the cold within 10sec, & will start shivering. quickly dry and dress and hurry out to find my nice warm jacket.. xP
had chowmein for dinner.. quite ok. serving was huge, but didnt like the veg (mom said it was mustard ><) if it wasnt for the egg, i probably wouldnt have finished.. tried the garlic soup (which is gd for the system) but dun like it.. garlic taste better on bread than in soup. jack had soup noodle in plain soup (but he say can taste some garlic in it). ate some potatoes.. when cut into thin slices and sprinkled with salt and peppper its quite nice. rach was convinced to come out of the rm though she didnt wanna eat. she ate a bit of potatoes in the end. not sure whether dad ate anything tat night. looked at the stars.... super nice.. even better than Kathmandu! each rm had only two beds. so me and sis shared one rm, mom and jack, and dad slept by himself. when going to bed, have to get into a cloth-bag thingy (like a thin blanket in a cocoon shape), and into the thick sleeping bag. we zip up the sleeping bag to keep in the warmth. hence we call the sleeping bag "cocoons" cos once u're inside, u're cocooned & cant move much. ur arms are more/less pinned to ur body, u cant roll about, etc. i wore my jacket inside the "cocoon" too, cos it was really cold!

Day 7: woke up earlier, cos needed to set off earlier to make up for the lost time and catch up wat we lost yesterday. (cos we didnt reach the intended destination the previous day) had oats thingy (quite horrible, though the others dun agree), tibetian bread (super nice), pancake (nepali/tibetian style-super nice), & soup noodles (super-duper-whooper nice) for breakfast.
started on the trek around 8am. saw the path ahead and was super glad we stopped for the night yesterday instead of trying to reach the intended destination, but super demoralised tat we had to climb up tat steep, high, long stairway! but got no choice wat... so focused one-step-at-a-time, and we managed to get to the next village.
the path ahead was horrendous! climb up and up... and the path was steep... and whenever the path go down, dun be relieved! cos it means even more upward climb!! crossed a few bridges here and there.. loved the bridge.. so fun.. get to make it 'swing'.. lol. 2+hrs later, paused for a while while climbing up tis super steep path, and the guide pointed out where we stayed the previous night. it was at the corner of the hill two hills away! and when we looked down and saw how far we had gone we were like: how on earth did we get so far in two hrs!??!? lots of donkeys on the path tat day (means we get to rest quite often.. ^^)
stopped around 1+/2pm for lunch. since its the hottest time of the day, we might as well pause and eat instead of sweating it in the heat! had mix chowmein. the chowmein super nice. (the only diff betwn mix chowmein and egg veg chowmein is tat mix chowmein has cheese! tats all! lol.. we only figured tat out tat day.) jack had fried rice (super big helping, super nice) rach had egg soup noodles (super nice, super small bowl) the place where we ate was quite nice. had nepali chai with chinni to wash down lunch.
started trekking again around 3pm. by then not so hot liao. 慢慢trek upwards.. rmb got one place, can see the next village(cos of the blue house) and it seemed quite near... until u look down. u have to go down into the valley, cross the bridge, AND CLIMB UP AGAIN!!! the blue house was only slightly above eye lvl... it wasnt tat far (as the crow flies)... *sighs* super tiring man, trekking...
for me, i focus "one step at a time". every step i take brings me 1 step closer to the destination. by not focusing on the end goal but on every small step i took helped. cos if u look at the end goal, u'll see how far and how high it is.. and how steep the path is... and u'll just wanna give up and not take any more steps! rach was singing songs like "every step i take, i take in Him" and "I walk by faith". i was like:how can u sing? i can barely get enough oxygen into my lungs! but tat was how she managed to carry on. singing raised her spirits. mom was like thanking God for every step she take. like:thank u, LORD, for this step. dad had to stop every once in a while and rest. he literally lie on the ground or the rock or the path (or watever!) to rest and regain some energy in order to carry on! by then we entered more forested area, so it wasnt so hot cos the sun's radiation cant reach us, though the light still can.
met these two nepali ppl who were carrying a desk, a computer and a chair each! as in each person was carrying a desk+a computer+a chair!! and with these 3 items on their back, they were on their way to Gorepani from Nayapul! all in one day! (we were also suppose to reach Gorepani by tat night) wat we were suppose to do in 2 days, they did in one day! and with a lot heavier stuff on their back too!!! WOW!
anyway, sun set liao. its 5.30+. we're struggling to reach the village. rach stop singing liao. dad has to stop every 2,3 min to rest. its cold! temperature check shows its 5-10degrees. we're all dead tired. looking up, can see the blue house which marks the start of the village ahead.. focus! one step at a time! u can do it! doing tat, i managed to reach the next village. rach was with me, resting while waiting for dad and jack to catch up. jack had stayed back to help dad. mom had gone on ahead to find the guide and check out where we'll be spending the night. the younger porter was with the guide, the older porter was with us waiting for dad. when dad was quite close, the porter got up, carried his load, and started walking. i was thinking he was leading us to the lodge where we'll be spending the night. turn round the corner. saw the porter walking on the path upwards to the next village! (the next one was a lot nearer than usual, they were seperated by this 'nice' long steep stairway.. ><) i was like:oh no! no way i can make it to the next one! look at the path! but got no choice. so focus one step at the time again. it was really dark now. had to use the torch... after eons, finally reach the top. chest was really tight, couldnt seem to get enough oxygen. had a headache.. luckily there were rm in the nearest lodge, so we dun need to travel any further. sat down on the ground outside. too tired to move. waited for dad and jack. temperature was 4 degrees.
when they came, we went into the lodge together. it was really warm inside, they had this nice fire-stove thingy. lots of ppl were having dinner, chatting, warming themselves... there were 4 benches around the fire-stove. dad went in, and asked the ppl for some space, and he lie down on the bench, occupying the whole bench. the ppl see us so dead tired, they clear space for us, and invited us to sit on the bench and warm ourselves by the fire-stove. but cos got fire, and fire burn oxygen, and got lots of ppl in the area, so dad didnt have enough oxygen, so he decided to go up instead. upstairs, in the rm, its cold, but its slightly easier to breathe. but cos of the high altitude, there's very little oxygen there. just the act changing clothes caused us to pant for breath! had a really bad headache.
had egg soup noodles (super nice, but didnt enjoy cos wasnt feeling well) for dinner. jack ate super little (and had diarrhea, so like everything tat went in went out..) brought some food up for dad, but doubt he ate much. hanged around below to get warmth. talked to tis american guy.. quite interesting. he's frm US, but travels to south america a lot (esp the amazon). he's a park ranger, so is experienced in trekking. currently he and the wife is travelling around. they're planning to go to tibet after tis and to Spore, and after tat either Msia or Indonesia. he and dad talked and exchanged experiences and tips on how to deal with bad guys in third world countries.. tat was when dad was feeling better (b4 dinner). cos he's a park ranger and is experienced in trekking, he gave mom some tips on how to deal with altitude sickness (which is apparently wat we're having). basically, drink more water, and take painkillers (not the strong ones though. take like panadol to deal with the headache) if it gets really bad, just head down a couple hundred metres and we'll feel better.
slept super early tat night. 8+pm, which is 6pm Spore time. was really tired, and had a headache. probably cos of the lack of oxygen. rach and jack looked worse than me though.

Day 8: woke up super early. 5+am i think. was going to climb to the peak of poon hill to watch the sun rise over the mountain range. left the place with only a small cup of milo inside me. it was an estimated 1hr climb to the top of poon hill.. we havent even climb 5min and i wanted to stop. i couldnt carry on. my head was swimming, i couldnt seem to breathe, i felt like vommiting, and my legs felt like jelly. they [my legs] refused to move, even after they were rested. i sort of subconsciously know tat if i want to, my legs can carry me to the top of poon hill (they had enough energy), but my mind refused to acknowledge tat and told my body tat it could not carry on. my legs happily joined in to say it couldnt walk any further, though everyone else knew it could. it was like my whole body was revolting against me! i tried to get my body to listen and walk on, but they simply refused. i found it even harder to breathe, the urge to vomit was even stronger, my legs threatened to give way, and i found it impossible to focus! in the end, i gave in. i told mom i cant go any further, and to let the rest go on without me. she understood i had altitude sickness, and stayed behind (with the older porter) while the rest went on with the guide. (apparently the younger porter stayed behind at the lodge)
before long, the sun started to rise. sunrise in nepal is around 6am+ and it takes 10-15min, then everything is over. daylight comes really fast. so me and mom were just sitting on the cold stone steps. everyone had passed us long ago and were on their way if they werent at the top of poon hill already. there, we watched the sun rise together. the mountains became lighter, the snow becoming a light grey with a tinge of yellow. the hills nearby became a black solitude against the sky, which was light blue at the top, blackish at the bottom, and streaks of yellow seperated the two. every tree on the hills could be seen clearly, a black shadow against the skyline.. super nice. every few min the sky would change colours.. while we were watching the sunrise, a cloud came and envelop us. u know when u're in a cloud when u suddenly feel chilly. even the cloud was beautiful. we could like see the cloud flowing over the hills.. at one point it looked like a river, flowing over the hills and into the valley below, at another, there seemed to be a steep drop, and the 'river' became a 'waterfall'.. when the first sun ray hit the mountains, the snow turned from white to golden. it was beautiful. the mountains were like white, yellow and brown, and it was a whole range of them (though we didnt get to see the whole range cos we didnt climb high enough). it was beautiful. its impossible to describe to u wat i saw, and since i didnt have the camera, there's no photos to show u either.. all i can say is that i totally enjoyed the sunrise where i was, and it was the most beautiful sunrise i had ever seen.
while the sky was still changing colours, we started down the hill. cos the mountains more/less done changing colours. and the sky is getting plainer, the nicer part finish liao. so we started going down. and saw all the plants along the way was covered with snow (or frost if u want). so nice lar. everything was covered with a white layer..
went back to the warmth of the lodge and ordered breakfast. egg soup noodles for me, and tibetian set for mom. just sat there and slowly eat and watch ppl coming down frm poon hill. met the american guy again. his name is david dunno-wat. he's a jew. talked to him a bit more. mom gave them our home no and her email. so when they're in Spore, can call us, then we can bring them around or just chat about our experience in nepal, or something. ya. they went around the whole anapurna, went to the base too. they were expecting to hit nayapul by the end of tat day. they left slightly pass 7am.
they finally came down frm poon hill pass 8am. jack was the 1st down, and he immediately ran off to the toilet. the other two followed 5-10min later. [they] ate breakfast, and we just hanged around making plans. cos we were sick and really tired out, dad didnt want to follow our originally planned route back to Pokhara. instead, he wants to go back the way we came. in the end, we agreed to the plan. so we get to rest til 11am, then we'll head back the route we came, stopping to rest where we had lunch the previous day. happily read my book while the rest were resting. =)
since we had another 2 nights for the trek. we decided to go slower, so we can also enjoy the scenery and take photos. 1st thing tat hit me when we started off:how on earth did i make it up here last night!? right before me was a nice steep stairway.. looking back, i cant believe how i managed to climb so high even after being burned out. its only be God's grace and strength tat me and everyone manage to get where we had gotten even after being sick and everything. going back had another advantage: we get to see how far we had came, and really see how God had really helped us thru it all. even after being half dead, He still gave us enough strength to make it up another kfc (killer-for-climbers). He's love and grace is truely amazing. without His help, i dunno where we would have been! we truely learnt a lot during the trek.
going down was easier.. but tat doesnt mean its easy! the stones are arranged irregularly, and are of diff sizes. when climbing up, "one step at a time" works.. but not when u're going down. u're forced to look at the whole stairs in front of u (which is how we wonder how we made it up the previous days) and now we're stuck wondering how to make the 1st step. after a while, i just let my body go where it wants to go, letting gravity pull me down, but checking my speed to make sure i dun go too fast and lose my balance. stopped to take lots of pictures... of the track! to show how far we had came. it really is a wonder how we manage to pull thru even with all the obstacles and sickness.. God does help us even though we arent always aware of it.
heard some ppl speaking in one of the village. mom was like: i think they're frm Spore. sure enough, they are! one's a teacher frm VJC. chatted with them. they were on their way to poon hill, so we gave them some tips.at least they were nearer to poon hill then we were at tis time the previous day. ate lunch at tat place. food was ok only... not really nice. saw some monkeys though. made lunch more interesting.
the rest of the trek for tat day was about the same. a bit of up, mostly down, left, and right. me and rach happily walk at our own pace chatting. the younger porter spiced things up when he decided to pluck berries frm a tree by the path. lol. he super cute and funny! he got a stick nearby, and tried to lower the branch so he can pluck the berries, but couldnt hook it.. then, he climb the tree to break another branch. he wanted berries frm a particular branch (why i dunno). then he carried on trying to reach the berries. he super funny lar! in the end he managed to get the berries he wanted. reached where we had lunch the previous day before sunset. the rm was really nice. could see the some hills really close and a mountain behind... it was really nice.
dinner was rice and a few dishes. onion omelette, chicken, vege, etc... jack had porridge, cos he not feeling well. went to sleep in the cocoon again (as usual ^^).
the stars were nice. i could see them thru the window.. but wasnt wearing specs, so they werent clear.. and was too tired to wear them...

Day 9: "BOOM!" i think it was around 2am.. had been awake for 1, 2min when i heard the sound. it was like someone had fallen thru the wooden boards, or a part of the building had fallen off. 1st thought:something really heavy fell on the floor. the 2nd thought:i think dad fell off his bed... heard some noises frm next door.. could hear wat dad and mom was saying. fell asleep not too long later.
next morning, confirmed it was dad who caused the commotion. he happened to wake up in the middle of the night and saw the stars thru the window. then it was so nice he wanted to try take photo.. but forgot he was in a cocoon... so when he turned to get off the bed, the whole cocoon turned with him, and he was stuck inside unable to stop, and his arms were pinned to his side... and "Boom!" lol. lucky he was ok. (everyone in the building woke at the sound. it was super loud, esp since nepal is always super silent at night)
the others ate breakfast without me, cos the cocoon was super nice and i didnt wanna leave it.. then when i left it, i got caught in my book... ya. had pancake and hard-boiled egg. the egg super nice. went back to the rm after breakfast. read my book again. ^^ after having lunch at the place, we continued our trek.
trekking was quite usual. just leg ache like siao. walked at a faster pace, but still stop quite often to take photo.. there got lots of nice scenic views of mountains, hills, rivers, and waterfalls...
stopped before dusk approached. went to stay at a lodge next to the one we slept in the 1st night of the trek, cos tat place booked liao. the place we slept tonight was slightly better in terms of accomadation and taste of food, but the other place serve larger portions... this place very stingy. the stars were super nice, again.

Day 10: couldnt leave the place too late, cos the van fetching us frm nayapul to pokhara wld be at nayapul at 11am. had breakfast of pancakes, tibetian bread, eggs, soup noodles, and chai. love the food. esp the tibetian bread. ^^
leg ache less le, but still aching.. but got no choice, have to trek back. today is the last day of our trek. really enjoyed the scenery on the way, cos we pause to take photo.. still saw lots of sai though.. made a detour. instead of climbing up and down and round a hill, the guide took us across the river. had to cross frm stone to stone to get across.. some places a bit scary cos the stone is shaky.. but me and jack happy only.. it was super fun xia!! rach wasnt so enthu. she's like more scared of losing her footing. she did, and the lower part of one leg got wet. at least she didnt fall in!
took longer than we thought to reach nayapul. but we reached there 1min pass 11am! so tats gd.. kinda glad trekking is finally over, but really cherished the experiences there. listened to my mp3 on the hr journey back. on the way, the van was blocked by a flock of sheep walking on the road. dad happily take photo, cos last time we saw tis in NZ, i was holding the camera, and happily take photos of the dogs and none of the sheep in the road! wat?! the dogs are a lot cuter wat...!
stayed in another hotel in pokhara, cos the other was fully booked (Im glad! =) ) the new one more ex.. but A LOT BETTER! the facilities, look, food, atmosphere all better! its the biggest hotel at the lakeside, pokhara. had lunch in the hotel. ex... but super nice. (but the serving... not very big leh...) had chowmein. super nice. went to the rm to rest after tat. read my book and played pig. lol. i was the first to reach lvl 10 pig. ><><
watched some funny stupid hindi movie.. didnt understand, but it was still funny!

Day 11: woke up at 6am. snoozed. by the time we (me and my siblings) packed and everything, was 6:50 liao. suppose to be down for breakfast at 6:30... dad was pissed. we were like:we can finish breakfast in 10min one! in the end, me and rach finish our breakfast b4 he did! the guys took a taxi with all the baggage to the buspark while us gals walked. reached there within 5-10min.
the bus got super little legroom.. found out why.. cos the bus was a "mini express"! lol. was really chilly during the ride. the bus entered a cloud during the journey. as usual, though it was a tourist bus, nepalis came and went. was listening to my mp3. suddenly my music were interrupted by a weird but familiar tune. cos i closed my eyes while listening, so wasnt aware when a nepali boy boarded the bus and started playing his instrument, which was somewat like a violin, though it didnt sound like one. a nepali instrument. the boy was singing and playing a familiar tune cos heard tis song almost everywhere we went in nepal. apparently its quite a common song in nepal. off my mp3 to safe battery but pretended to listen to avoid the boy. in the end, he left clutching a hand-full of notes.
reached island jungle resort. tis one is their resort on "mainland". met 2 londoners who's going with us. had lunch there. the food quite nice. took a jeep to go to the island jungle resort... on an island! the jeep kept rocking sideways, like a boat. made jokes aout it. lol. the jeep alighted us beside a river. we were inside the royal chitwan national park then. took a long slim boat across the river to the island. then, had to trek (sort of) to the resort. actually its just brisk walk there... but my legs were aching and protesting...
had a welcome drink, and were led to our rooms, lark 3&4. later went for a breifing. there's electricity only betwn 5.30pm to 9.30pm. after 9.30pm,we'll have to use kerosene lamps for light. there's hot water only when the sun is up, which means until 7pm, cos its heated by solar. water not safe for consuming. no water after midnight til 4+,5am (cos water is pumped)
went for an elephant ride. was super cool! kept swaying to and fro on the elephant's back. had to constantly push tree branches and such away.. saw super lots of insects... most of them nice and big and really close to u... had a few worm thingy crawling on my jeans... my shoes had a green streak across them before long... saw elephant grass, which were taller than us, even on elephant back.. anyway, it was an experience. saw a wild boar (sort of). only saw the hind legs and a dark shadow b4 it disappeared. saw a rhino covered in mud... it was incredible. tat was the ony animals we saw. even so, the ride was super nice. totally enjoyed myself, though minus the insects would be better. ^^ when we going thru the jungle, and got no path, the elephant used its trunk to bend down the tree in front of it, and stepped on, crushing it, and creating a path for us. totally enjoyed the ride.
went back where our guide, Saroj, and dad was waiting. (only 4 on an elephant, so dad went on another one) sadly, dad didnt see any animals. went back to our rms. happily took a hot shower. was creeping out cos can like feel stuff in my jeans! sure enough, got "stuff" in my jeans... have no idea how they managed to get in lar! i think i come back frm nepal more paranoid about insects liao..
went to watch a tharu stick dance. quite interesting. the dance got 3 parts. 1st one is about how they use the stick for attacking and defencing. the 2nd one was their harvest dance. the 3rd was for us (tourist ppl) to join their circle and dance with them. mom and jack went. didnt feel like going.
had buffet dinner. quite nice. but not my style. too much spices for most if not all. stomach started churning tat night.

Day 12: woke up super early.b4 sunrise. it was super-duper misty.. we were going for jungle trekking. had a cup of nice hot milo and half a handfull of biscuits. wasnt feeling well. stomach churning, cramp, and felt like vommiting. but still wanted to go for the trek. saroj and another guy led the way. the londoners didnt join us. guess they wanted to sleep in. were breifed just b4 we went into the jungle. rhino attack, hide behind a tree. it chase u around the tree, just keep running round the tree. it change direction, duh, u change direction. (like playing catching, just tat if it catches u, u'll be in deep yogurt!) if got no trees nearby, run! but run zig-zag towards the nearest tree. cos rhino can run quite fast actually. sloth bear attack: keep as a grp, stomp feet/sticks, make lots of noise. if they dun flee, fight them with the sticks! tiger attack: stand ur ground (no use out-running a tiger cos u cant!), stay as a group, stare at the tiger! (cos no cat -and most animals- can stare in a human's eye for long. they'll lose focus and most likely wont attack) basically, tats the only dangerous animals on the island. there's 3 tigers in the island: 1male, 2female.
just when we were about to enter the jungle, they [saroj and the guy] heard a call from the elephant ppl. apparently they found a rhino. (they can tell by the calls where and wat animal it is) so we hurried to the place. they move super fast xia. many times had to avoid being whipped by a branch as it lashes back after being pushed away by the person in front. finally caught up with them. and saw the rhino. even closer than yesterday. and we were on foot. but it wouldnt attack us cos we're near the elephants. and its not stupid enough to charge towards an elephant. it was incredible lar! to see a rhino soo close!
went trekking deeper into the jungle. saroj pointed out diff things to us.. its all so cool lar! we saw the curry plant (responsible for the main spice here in the resort), the rhino tree and its fruit the rhino apple, more elephant grass, fig tree, wild berries (and the guy plucked some for us to try, but i didnt like the taste), a cool red bug called cotton-bug or something, saw lots of dung, like elephant dung, rhino dung (they're both the same size, but rhino dung is darker), holes left by the sloth bears on their search for termites for dinner, rhino pools, monkeys (cant rmb the name), and (this is the coolest) tiger footprints! frm the footprint they could tell its a female. dunno how they do it. dunno how they manage to spot it in the 1st place! super cool lar!
went back for buffet breakfast. made frens with tis tibetian guy who's learning chinese and speaks quite gd chinese (for a nepali). he's really friendly and nice. we were one of the last few ppl to eat breakfast. were suppose to go for another elephant ride after breakfast. the londoners didnt join us again. they wanted to read their books! Im like:u come all this way, pay soooo much, u're in a place where u can get the experience of a lifetime and wat u wanna do? read a book!?! hello?? tis is a jungle? u're suppose to come here for a safari and not read those books? GO HOME AND READ UR BOOKS LAR! it was the most absurb thing to me. anyway, tis one was incredible too. though wasnt as fun and "wow!" as the previous one. found a sleeping rhino though. which was really cool. but woke it up, cos the elephants got too close while we're trying to take photos... aww... went down by the river to let the elephants drink. too bad the elephants didnt go into the river, tat wld be sooo cool!
went back to the resort feeling a bit disappointed tat we didnt get to see more, though i really enjoyed the ride. saw the 2 londoners, both reading, but at diff locations. rach was like:they quarrel is it? both dun want to read near the other.. lol.had the rest of the afternn off until 1pm, lunchtime. grabbed my book and went with rach to find a gd spot to read. i read, she deleted photos. finally finished my book. its quite nice, but Im horrified at how cruel and sadistic humans can get.. anyway, still got some time til lunch, so went back to the rm to nap.
woke up when the tibetian guy came and find us. cos other ppl eat liao.. and it was like half an hr after 1pm.. and he was wondering where we were... he super nice xia.. (probably part of his job.. but even so.. he's really nice and friendly. =)) ate fried chicken with rice with noodles with tomato sauce with veg with fries... super nice.. but wasnt feeling well... so didnt eat much... took photos of the cat. it was super cute. (there's no dog there)
went for the elephant breifing, where saroj told us all-so-totally-cool facts about the elephant! its like sooo totally cool lar! i mean some stuff i already know.. but stuff like asian elephants have 5 toes on the front feet and 4 toes on the back while african elephants have 4 toes on the front and 3 toes on the back. and an elephant's height is twice the circumference of its front foot and more..!!!! its all so cool and "WOW!" too bad the angmo not there. i bet they think their book nicer.. *sighs in exasperation*
had a 5-10min break b4 heading for another walk. only tis one we're not really going into the jungle, and we'll be taking a boat back and spot crocodiles on the way. finally, the angmos turn up. cos they missed the morning walk, saroj had to repeat the safety precautions. when we more/less just entered the jungle, saw this worm-like thingy tat looked a bit like a stick swaying (at a fast speed) to and fro near where i was gonna put my foot. it reminded me of wat my dad shared about his army training.. in the forest got leeches, and they all line up straight, look like sticks.. and when ur leg gets too close, they'll jump on u and latch themselves to ur skin... and suck ur blood etc. was super paranoid anyway, didnt know whether nepal got leech.. but just avoid anyway. (realised nepal got leech when heard tat 1 of the angmo kanna a leech the next day)
anyways, saw more dung, tis time we could figure the elephant frm the rhino. do u know a rhino uses the same area to drop its dung for up to 15 days? tats so cool lar! saw another tiger footprint, female again. saw scratch marks left by the tiger on a fallen tree. so cool xia! saroj suddenly bend down and scopped up some earth and sniffed at it. it was tiger urine. so cool lar! how did he even know?! smelled it too. had block nose, but even so cld smell a bit of it.. smelt slightly familiar.. but cant place it. saw tiger dung too! so cool.. have totally no idea how they manage to spot it lar! they point out le still find it diff to spot the print!
at the riverbank can see rhino, tiger and deer footprints. so cool! went by boat downstream. saw the sunset.. super nice. saw mugger and gharial. but couldnt get a gd photo.
went back to the resort, bathe, etc, then went for a breifing on chitwan national park. tell us super cool info on the park and animals. super cool xia. saroj was the only guide there. the guy briefing was the manager or something.
had buffet dinner, didnt eat much. still not feeling well. stomach churning like siao. when we went back to our rm. i more/less went straight to sleep. woke up in the middle of the night. had diarrhea. lucky was b4 midnight, if not no running water. went back to sleep.

Day 13: skipped the jungle walk so can sleep in. packed, have breakfast, and b4 u know it, we're going on the boat to cross back to "mainland". super misty xia. cant even see frm one bank to another. dunno how the ppl manage to steer the boat accurately. took the same jeep back.
the jeep stopped at a village to allow some nepali to board. later dropped them off in town. the driver wanted to catch up with the other vehicle (there were 2 vehicles going frm the island back to the resort on mainland), so he speed.... and CLANG!! dunno wat thing drop frm underneath the vehicle. in short, vehicle break down and we're stranded. while the driver was making a couple of calls, dad was like telling him we'll take bus/taxi into town. so the guy flagged down a bus 4 us. its the nepali local bus... and nepali local bus can and will cramp until like siao one.. no choice.. so we cramp in with them lor. took the bus back into the town. there, we met someone frm the resort looking for us. apparently they went back to our vehicle, but we took the bus and left liao... lol. anyway, we reached the resort safely and on time. didnt miss our transport back to Kathmandu. the 2 londoner jokers decided it'll be fun to ride on top of the bus like the locals and tats wat they did! at least until the police stop the bus and got them to get down! lol.
paused for a lunch break, but didnt eat anything except for a banana and an icecream. listened to mp3 all the way. reached Kathmandu really late. by the time we reached aunti ShwuEng's house, it was like late afternn liao... (they expected us to be back in time for lunch...) ate fried noodles though.
dragged everything to mom&dad's rm. unpacked some. grab clean clothes and bathed/change. later played with Asha and gave her a belated bday present. her bday was the day before, the 3rd of dec. gave her the bracelet i made. looked really nice on her. =)
had a late dinner. didnt eat much cos stomach still acting weird. rest of the night was quite uneventful.

Day 14: woke up. normal morning in kathmandu. staying at aunti ShwuEng's house is like staying in a 10-star hotel man.. (esp for nepal standard!) had super nice breakfast. (cant rmb wat it was though... only rmb it was super super duper nice ^^)
went to new rd the area where aunti Shwu Eng help us buy chai and chinni, cos we really fell in love with the chai and chinni in nepal!! ^^
went to thamel, and aunti Shwu Eng introduce us to her fren shop. so they charge us discount. bought the purses frm there. they're made of sheep skin. really nice. went to fire and ice for lunch (its a pizza place). ordered too much... (cos the serving was really big). but anyway, the pizza is super super cheap! esp compared to Spore!
went back to the house to drop off our stuff. went with the van to the orphanage with Pritima. she's 16, pretty (as her name suggests), just finished slc. she's to act as our interpreter at the orphanage esp for rach's magic tricks.
sang a few songs with the kids. (age ranging frm small kids to teens) then rach showed her magic. they were so cute. a couple of them dun believe wat they saw, and told rach to do the trick right in front of them after the magic show was over. gave out sweets and biscuits. saw this small boy using a cloth and his sweet wrapper trying to do one of rach's tricks.. he was trying to get the sweet wrapper to disappear. lol. they super cute. outside got a few boys using their shoelace and were trying the rope tricks... had great fun with them. of all rach's tricks, i love her 3-rope one the best. it shows tat even though we're all diff (whether we have a lot of money, little money, or no money, etc) God loves us all the same. as she said tat, rach pulls all 3 diff length ropes until they're the same length! really love the message behind tis trick!
had to go back to Gyaneshwor by 5pm, cos pritima was part of the church choir and they had practice. on the way back, got Pritima to teach us how to pronounce the nepali numbers. super fun and funny xia! managed to learn zero to ten. had lots of fun. watched the choir warm-up for 5min then left the church and went back to the house.
had a scumptious dinner, but still didnt eat a lot, cos stomach still feeling weird.

Day 15: woke up slightly earlier. cos today's saturday, church day. had fried rice for breakfast. super nice. left the house at 10.30+. service was at 11am. aunti ShwuEng was leaving nepal tat day for india, to do some missionary work there. the service tat day was combined (they usually have 2 services). stayed for worship and til P robert was announcing those ppl being baptised and receiving church membership. then we left to show magic show to the kids in sunday sch. they were more enthu then the orphanage kids. the kids were like pulling the ropes and everything (when testing it) and when ask for volunteers, almost all the hands shot up at the same time! they're super duper enthu lor! in the end, Kedma (pritima's older sis, and rupesh "tuition teacher", and our interpreter) told the kids:u go home, take some string, and try the trick by urself! was really fun tat times with the kids. went back to service and P robert was preaching liao. he was preaching in nepali (duh!) so we listen to interpreter on earphone. even though he's old, P robert is still full of vigor and energy!
rupesh and jack ran back to the house afterwards to grab some stuff. when jack came back, he was panting like just finish 2.4 rupesh was looking like he just had a stroll.... lol. rupesh joined us for lunch, and we went back to mom's restaurant frm 10+yrs back. she finally had her sizzler there. had sizzler too, though i regreted. i thought the carbonara was better, and shld have chosen tat instead, at least jack ate carbonara and i shared with him. ^^ made two predictions and both came true. cos mom ordered dessert, which came b4 the main dish. i said:after eat the dessert 1st then cannot finish our main course! true enough, couldnt finish the main course. rupesh ordered fried rice. we all gave a bit of our food for him to try. i said:after we give the ninja so much food he cannot finish his own! and sure enough, rupesh couldnt finish his fried rice. lol.
rupesh brought us to the place where the concert was held. we were going to the 1st christmas concert ever in the history of nepal. the event is so big, it was broadcast life for two hours! however, got power failure at the start. power-cut, and generator broke down. lucky they manage to get it running again. but the choir had to sing without the mikes and in open space. cld hear them though not very loud, and they sounded lovely. later saw the lights flickering, and b4 long, the sound was on. =) got tis american guy on stage. his voice super gd super powerful. but he super boring. just stand there and sing. now i know wat mrs sassarak means when the choir sings and doesnt smile. u just hear the music can liao. he sing in eng, so the nepali ppl were bored. he tried to sing silent night in nepali, but i think pronouncation wrong, cos rupesh didnt know he was singing in nepali. lol. got tis super cool guy come on stage. he got arithiritis in the fingers and all kinds of ailments. given the wrong medicine when he was young, predicted to die, father thought he was useless and worthless, and would nvr travel etc etc... now, he's a world-class musician, won 2 awards for the coolest guitar, played at olympics and world cup, and traveled to 189 countries after accepting jesus into his life!! he's so super cool! and so is his guitar. he like play drum, bass, e guit, a guit all on one guitar. dunno how he did it but it was super cool. but sadly cos of the cold, he was unable to play more than 1 song. got tis india guy come on. he speaks in hindi, sings in hindi etc, but he's definitely more entertaining than the american guy! sang many songs. he's super gd and fun. one of his songs i love best is "pray for nepal". truely we should. cos of the new government, nepal now allows christianity and is celebrating christmas for the 1st time tis yr. but even so, we shld pray, cos other religions like hindus might not be happy with it. and really we shld pray for many salvations as nepal is now becoming more open. and shld pray for the government, cos they're maoists, their roots are frm communism, they might 'change their minds' and suddenly crush down on the christians. many things can go wrong even as nepal is now becoming more open. pray. anyway, rupesh happy with the india guy, cos he watch lots of hindi shows, so tis guy is his 'style'. rupesh very funny.. saw some ppl climbing up to the speakers and he was like:look! monkeys! (refering to the ppl) lol. he so funny. got a christian rock band come on. they play in hindi/nepali. i not sure which. anyway, their songs are great. jumped with the crowd. tis caused dust to rise etc. when the ninja saw the dust generated by all the jumping, he got the worried look, then he go wrap his scarf around his nose and mouth. lol. me and jack was like:now the ninja looks like a ninja! haha xD
concert ended when some nepali (outside the barrier) started throwing dirt and water bottles. police reacted really quickly and chased the ppl away. gd for them. followed the ninja to the bus tat'll take the choir ppl back to church. in the bus, the ninja wrapped his scarf over the top of his head too. so only his eyes werent covered. lol. he reallly look like ninja xia! sang with the chor ppl in the bus along the journey. made new frens. they're really nice. can tell they have a passion for singing (cant say the same for all my choir ppl, no offense!) went back from the church with ninja and uncle samuel.
had a great time in the concert!
took a photo with everyone in it after dinner. it was like a "family portrait"!

Day 16: would be leaving nepal tat day.. ='( had breakfast of yummy fried rice. =) rupesh came back frm sch b4 we had to leave for the airport. =) played with asha while waiting for the van to come. will really miss the family!
at the airport. x-ray bags b4 can enter. then we go thru metal detector and body search as well. Im like:wats the point of the metal detector if u're gonna body search everyone?! weird system they have at the airport. managed to grab great seats. rach finally got her drum. read another book while waiting for time to pass.
finally could go in liao. b4 going to the waiting area, have to x-ray bags, metal detector, body search, and search the bags manually! everyone has to open the bag and let the oficer check. Im like:wats the use of x-raying the bags if u're gonna check it maunally?! and wats with body searching us again even after passing thru the metsl detector?! lol. but nothing i can do.
took the weird useless slow bus ride to the airplane. again, if i had walked, it would have been a lot faster and i wouldnt feel as uncomfortable as on the bus! oh, and just b4 we board the plane, have to go thru another body search again!!?!?!??! i mean, wats with them!?!? do so many body search and wat-not. super weird man, their system. glad Spore not like tat!
had a great view (i had the window seat ^^) saw the valley, the himalayas, hills, clouds, land below the clouds, super cool. a couple of Sporean ladies pointed out Mt everest to us. cos they go with tour grp and got a plane ride to the himalayas, they knew which was mt everest. thanks to them, we got pictures of mt everest. met the VJC teacher on the plane. also met a couple who was in the same tour grp as us in beijing! so chiao!
finally reach Spore after 5hrs roughly of plane flight. our luggages were the 1st ones out, cos we got priviledge. dunno how my dad do one.. uncle jeffery and family was there to pick us up. went home and had dinner at kopitiam. missed Spore, but missed nepal too! will definitely go back in my lifetime! =)

but really ppl, pray for nepal. and if any1 wants to, can donate $$ to help TEACH and ECEC reach out to the ppl in nepal.

to all who manage to read thus far, congrats to u and dhanyabade for reading all 16days of my experience in nepal. u have finally reach the end of tis post. cant blog anymore. need to sleep. tmr got camp!

adios. and pray for nepal!

handicraft - bracelets!

2008-11-22T05:27:00.003+08:00

made another bracelet.. ^^ actually i made two.. but they both same design/colour combi. the one shown is the bigger one.. the other bracelet looks excatly the same, except it's smaller.. cos will be giving the 2nd one to some 2-yr old kid in nepal...

yup!. going to be flying off to nepal in a few hours!!! haha. xD see u guys in a couple of weeks! adios!

My King & I

2008-11-17T16:44:00.004+08:00

sunday: went to church early to play guitar... but the guitar take very long to tune.. by then glo and gwen reach liao. managed to play half a song b4 had to go for cell. caroline came to visit. long time since i saw her.. i think the last time was end of last year, during watchnight service. lol, alvin in china, asaph n janice in malaysia, then didnt see miranda.... felt a bit lost.. like got something missing like tat.. bro titus preached tat day. "connected". got lots of controversial feelings during the sermon.

was suppose to go home cos Uin jie coming... but she last min say she cant come. so took the bus back to church n met jon at the zhi cha place for lunch. then go for sp enpowerment. but the leaders havent eaten yet, so start late.. then jon tried tuning the guitar.. but it was super out of tune. (my sis say the last one to tune it was P. Da) when jeremy saw the guitar he was like "dont bother trying. tat guitar cannot tune one. u tune finish then it go back to its original sound" (jeremy got try tuning tat guitar weeks ago) then bro ZC (and lots of other ppl)tried to tune it... but all also cannot.. bro ZC was like "this guitar is only good for whacking ppl!" haha. went for sp enpowerment. but had to leave half way cos got my mom cell north thanksgiving dinner, "My King and I".

had to "dress up" (and i HATE desing up), but no choice... have to "dress for the king"... *shrugs* went to YWCA for the dinner. met shiny(again ^^), theodore, bro darren & wife, and... WINSTON (a guy frm my cell)! so unexpected lar! i didnt know he in north. (me and shiny were shocked. lol) it was kinda boring... not as much games as the last one. xP the food was okok.. (but not as nice as the last one i think...) during the north district photo, i tried to hide behind my sis.. haha. (didnt wanted to be seen) xP most of the youth were like hiding at the side behind each other. only shiny was like at the middle in front. lol. took an IGNYTE (north district) photo after everything was over. ^^ (will post the pic once i get it)

handicraft - more bracelets

2008-11-16T01:21:00.009+08:00

fri: went to watch madagascar2 with glo n my bro... met joel in the theatre (after the movie) madagascar2 was quite nice. it was funny. but it wasnt as nice as the 1st one... actually most movies arent as nice as the 1st one... but it was still ok.

made more barcelets while my mom had cell... ^^ love making bracelets. quite fun. =D

the completed bracelet
left:the bracelet i made
right:the bracelet my sis made

sat: made another bracelet ^^

...4 weeks down!!!

2008-11-13T22:03:00.002+08:00

WHOOPHEE!! O levels are FINALY OVER!!! whoops! ^_^

tues: combined science MCQ - EASY!
thurs: bio MCQ - quite easy! only its too early + lots of tricky questions..... loss careless marks.. ='( but at least ITS ALL OVER!!! lol xD haha

went out for lunch with my sis and mom.. got lost trying to find lucky plaza.. went to some place in orchard... the food super nice. esp the dessert! ate aloe vera de mango for dessert.. super nice. ^^ wanted to browse through borders... but got no discount.. ="(

went down to bugis area. met cheeying (my sis fren) then walk around looking for some snacks or something.. then do artfriend to look for art stuff for my sis... then go popular. hunted down like over 5 books! =) my mom half wanted to kill me for buying so much books... haha but i managed to convince her to buy.. =) then go tecman go buy more books. =D haha.. in short, i just "restocked" my libraray.. =) *now my library no more space liao... I NEED A BIGGER LIBRARY!!* haha xD

so totally love books... hate shopping.. but will go nuts hunting for books if left in a bookshop! its about the only thing i like to shop for. =) my library is now overflowing! WooHoo! now my parents will have to get me a bigger one soon! then i can go get even more books!!! xD lol.

handicraft - my 1st pieces

2008-11-08T22:33:00.007+08:00

today met yuying jie with my sis at outram MRT.. went 'shopping' for beads and other stuff for our craft. then later went to her house.. then she teach us how to make the basic bracelet and ring.. quite fun! =) last time she got teach us before.. but so long ago.. i forgot liao.. xP ya. made my own bracelet and ring.. xD

me and my sis making the rings

me making my ring

our completed bracelets plus rings

closeup on my ring

top: the bracelet i made

bottom: the bracelet jie made for me

3 weeks down

2008-11-06T00:36:00.004+08:00

mon: Social Studies - HARD! esp SBQ... i siao lar.. only study 3 chapters... (deterence/diplomacy, governance, and iraq war) but all glory to God, TWO OF THE THREE QUESTIONS CAME OUT!!! haha. governance, sri lanka/northern ireland, and iraq war came out. i super lucky lar! xD
wed: Chinese (retake) - HARD! but i dun really care... chinese i just retake lor.. also dun really care how i'll do cos i dun plan to use it in L1R5... but retake cos if got one c6 on the report card like not nice... xP

went to watch high school musical 3 today.. oh wait. its yesterday liao... its really nice, worth watching. definitely better than HSM2 but i think HSM still beats this. the songs were a lot better than HSM2.. but very obvious the actors were lip-syncing.. so it spoils the songs part...

hate it when ppl make promises to me... raise my hopes... let me dare to dream... THAN THEY GO BREAK THEIR stupid PROMISES! fed up. its always been happening... i should have known.. its quite predictable.. that's why i cant trust him.. never really did in the first place ever since the first time... getting tired of all these... ever time my dream is shattered, i often end up crying myself to sleep. and it has happened many times over. maybe i should just stop dreaming altogether... live life without actually living... at least it wont hurt that way...

Im very troubled... super worried... do you know? can u tell? i bet not. no one knows how i feel inside. sometimes i feel that all these are too much to bear.. yet... life has to carry on.

3 weeks down!!! ONLY ONE LEFT!
2 MORE PAPERS ONLY!!!!!!!! xD

amkss choir "annual" concert

2008-11-01T22:37:00.002+08:00

went to support the choir for their 'annual' concert today. met jaime and georgina at city hall.. then got lost.. xP but in the end managed to reach S'pore arts musuem in time for the concert. sk, arifin, xx, liyu, dave, jestoni, and joled were there too.

they sang like lots of songs. the familiar ones were jian dan ai, ti or or, barbarann, lean on me, sing for joy, we're gonna put on a show and we're singing in the rain. the new songs... can only remember "morning" and there was another chinese song too... the junior choir also did a piece on their own.. "one fine day" or something.. cant remember.. an unfamiliar song to me. But they did well!! xD

points to improve:
-when looking at the score, remember to look up once in a while..
-SMILE!!
-try not to let your nervousness show (jeremy and ryan esp when singing barbarann)
-bass:try to support ur SL (can only hear aaron for bass)
-listen to each other (u went off key occassionally)

but anyway, U GUYS DID GREAT! =) overall the sound was nice. some of the songs sound nicer than when i was still in the choir.. xD junior choir: GOOD JOB! altos: i like the jian dan ai! haha. all in all, U GUYS ARE SOUNDING GREAT! continue to jiayou for vocal mania and SYF next year!!

after the performance, the choir ppl went high.. haha. but we had fun. it was great seeing & hearing the choir again. really missed being part of the choir with them.

was suppose to study SS today... in the end.... *shrugs* so have to study tmr.. geo didnt do well.. so have to rely on SS to pull up my humanities.. xP

2 weeks down

2008-10-31T21:14:00.003+08:00

mon & tues: NO PAPER!! xD
wed: combined science (physics) - was in-between easy and ok... =)
thurs: E math2 - EASY! but i lost at least 5 marks liao cos my brain not awake... so make careless mistake then cannot prove.. then lost more marks on a question which i knew how to do... AFTER I HANDED IN THE PAPER!!! ><
fri: BIO - was OK but considered easy after wat we expected.. Veda go scare us, that the paper wld be super hard... in the end, nvr test on reproduction in human, molecular genetics and cell division.. *YEAH!* xD then the "favourite topic" of the examiner (transport in human) ONLY GOT LIKE 1 QUESTION! *YEAH!* haha xD so after scaring ourselves for nothing, the ok paper was considered easy. xD

my week was quite uneventful.. just slacked, studied here n there... slack some more.... yaa. basically that's it. xP after SS can slack even more.. xP haha.

2 weeks down, 2 TO GO!
5 MORE PAPERS LEFT!!! xD

SS = Stressful Sunday xP

2008-10-26T23:42:00.003+08:00

this morning was one of the most stressful for me.. Shamus told me he was gonna be late, and i was suppose to start eq 1st... but the thing is I CAN'T EQ! ya. then bro ZC came down to do eq... n added pressure on me to do eq... he wanted me to do the vocals.. but in the end i also nvr do..

i know all the knobs and wat they do.. most of the time, i can pick out the various instruments in the music.. i can usually tell if there is something wrong in the sound... but i cant tell wat frequency is causing the problem, so i cant resolve it.. even if u tell me like 'the high-mids are causing the problem', i dont know/dont dare to touch the eq.. its been like this for more than a year (basically ever since i joined tech).... at least bro ZC knows/figured tat out today (i think)..

we learnt about fasting in fuel... *Asaph: NO COFFEE!!*
had X-rated part II in service.. P Da preached on sexual immorality. bro KF preached about addiction last week in the 1st part of the X-rated series..

bro ZC told Shamus to let me run the board... *more pressure* and bro ZC was like standing beside/behind me throughout the service.. *adding even more pressure* (it gives me the feeling like during the exam time and the teacher keeps hovering around u and ur mind freeze... got lots of times the teacher hover around my table.. so i cant do my work.. then nvr finish the paper.. xP) then some more kevin nvr serve today... so got no one to joke with/distract me.. then after service during the debrief bro ZC arrow me 1st... actually quite expected de lor.. he everytime also arrow me 1st... xP

i know wat he's trying to do.. to push me to grow in the ministry.. i've been in tech since june 2007, and until now still cant eq.. xP he wants me to grow to at least Shamus that lvl.. do pre-service eq, run the whole service kind of thing.. (lol, bro CW wanted me to reach tat lvl last year.. xP) so he's adding lots of pressure on me to 'force' me to grow.. (which is actually a gd thing)

Bro ZC was my adult leader for the 1st half of my sec 1 year (he's currently my bro adult leader)... then when i joined tech, he was the overall leader in charge of sound. so even though i was in bro Darren team, and bro CW taught me about the sound stuff, bro ZC was like overseeing the sound part.. (and he's always been trying to make me talk more xP) so he's interested in our progress.. and wants us to reach our full potential (which is not wat I've been doing this while..) xP

dont like the extra pressure, but i know its neccessary for me.. xP

haiz, at least the evening was quite relaxing.. cycled to lower pierce, and met uncle jeffery and family (my mom's cell) to watch the sunset.. came home and watched HSM2 and wei xiao bao.. slacked the whole day and nvr study xP lol. phy, bio and maths paper this week! i so need to study...

1 week down

2008-10-24T21:42:00.004+08:00

Mon: Combined Science (chem) - quite easy =)
Tues: Eng - okok... ended at 7pm...!! xP
Wed: A math1 - relatively easy... =)
Thurs: (my dad's Bday..) Geo - HARD! no time to finish! =( left the 8mark question blank... plus some parts of the questions incomplete...
Fri: E math1 - so early... paper was at 8am!! xP quite easy.. had lots of time to spare.. A math2 - SUPER HARD!! =( didnt know how to do like half the paper.. so anyhow do... lost 10marks in blanks... ='(

met jeremy T. at the busstop... missed the choir.. haha. shall go support u on 1st and 10th nov! haha. JIAYOUS! must practice hard ya? =)

btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALVIN!!! haha xD

ya. now still de-stressing from A math... just watched wall-e... quite nice. =) shall go back to de-stressing now.

1 week down, 3 to go!
8 papers to go!! xD

my IQ

2008-10-19T17:22:00.000+08:00

Free-IQTest.net - Get Your IQ Score

joled challenged me to beat his score, and I did. see if you can beat mine. xD

To Live is Christ -by Youth Alive

2008-10-13T18:21:00.004+08:00

For me to live is Christ
And to die is gain
No matter what price I pay
I choose to give this life away

I made a vow
My life will always honour Christ
Whether I live or die
I belong to Him
He bore my sins
I owe this life to my saving king

Hallelujah
I am not my own
You are in control
Hallelujah

For me to live is Christ
And to die is gain
No matter what price I pay
I choose to give this life away

Only by the cross I am saved
Only by the cross I am saved

"for me, to live is Christ and to die is gain" Philippians 1:21

2nd last day

2008-10-08T16:37:00.003+08:00

today was the 2nd last day of school.. XD
deepa was really nice.. being our last math lesson for our whole sec life, she 'threw a party' for us.. (sort of) she bought like 10 boxes of pizza, chocolates.. and personally wrote cards for all 48 ppl in my math band.. the whole lesson was spent taking photos mainly...
in chem, paper areoplanes were flying around while ms tay wrote the ans on the board.. "last time to fly paper areoplanes" was written on one.. and "hit ~~koon ling~~ ms tay" was on another with a "let's play pictionary" written inside.. XD ms tay got both planes in the end.. ~~and scolded us...~~ XP

already Im gonna miss secondary sch life... all the frens... the choir.... and teachers like ms deepa and mrs veda... the crazy guys in my math band who make the lesson so much more enjoyable...

*my dad n sis are flying back from vietnam tonight!!! XD*

Word of God Speak -by Mercyme

2008-10-02T23:49:00.004+08:00

Finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it's okay
The last thing I need is to be heard
But to hear what you would say

Word of God speak
Won't you pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You're in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness
Word of God speak

I'm finding myself in the midst of you
Beyond the music, beyond the noise
All that I need is to be with You
And in the quiet, hear Your voice

Word of God speak
Won't you pour down like rain
Washing my eyes to see
Your majesty
To be still and know
That You're in this place
Please let me stay and rest
In Your holiness

I'm finding myself at a loss for words
And the funny thing is it's okay...

this is my heart's cry..

stand by me

2008-09-29T20:27:00.003+08:00

A boring sch day of my life:
today mrs veda never come, tat meant 2 free periods =D (n i brought my bio bk for nothing!)
did geometrical proof for math. always had problems with geometrical proofs..
chinese was boring=slack
english went library, did compre (or part of it)
chem ec went thru organic chem and QnA (Zzz)

my sis frens came over to relax since they finished their last paper today. we had fun trying to beat each other scores, and just playing games.. haha. =D didnt study, shall do some after this. XP

came across this on youtube while searching for the song 'stand by me'. i 1st learnt this song on the organ, and it still is one of my fav songs [on organ] and one of the few i can memorise by heart. we sorta learn tis in choir too..

Stand By Me (lion king version)

*in case you didnt notice, whenever timon says "stand by me", something bad would happen to pumbaa... haha LOL!

the Student's Psalm

2008-09-25T23:03:00.003+08:00

i know i haven't posted for a realllly looonng time.. anyway, this is dedicated to all students who are having (or going to have) exams. be it, end-years, promos, 'o' lvls, or 'n' lvls.

The Student's Psalm
The Lord is my Shepherd. I shall not flunk;
He keepth me from lying down when I should be studying.
He leadeth me beside the water cooler for a study break;
He restoreth my faith in study guides.
He leadth me to better study habits for my grade's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of borderline grades,
I will not have a nervous breakdown; for Thou art with me.
My prayers and my friends, they comfort me.
Thou givest me answers in moments of blankness;
Thou anointest my head with understanding.
My exam paper runneth over with questions I recognize
(and, hopefully, remember how to do XD).
Surely passing grades and flying colours shall follow me
All the days of my examinations,
And I shall not have to dwell in this school forever.
--"taken" from Psalms 23 (KJV)

haha. so ppl having exams, JIAYOU!!! ~add oil add oil~ and all who agrees with the psalm say: Amen!
"AMEN!!"

after prelims...

2008-09-14T18:59:00.005+08:00

Prelims ended on thurs. YEAH!
fri: was a bore with BORING career talks... the only interesting one was 'medicine'..
sat: went to Denise's surprise birthday party. was quite fun. she was sooooo surprised when we turned up. she thought it was going to be a boring mooncake festival celebration by her mom's cell, in the end, 10+ church ppl went, +sis gwen, about 5 of her classmates and her relatives... she was soo shocked.. played a prank on her (the initial idea came from me xp) and she and sarah started a cake fight (sort of) was really fun, and good bonding. glad i went. (didnt want to go initially..)

Sunday: today service was great. fabian came (for the 2nd time) today and came for cell! YEAH! was serving in tech today. Bro ZC made me run the soundboard for the fast songs and annoucements. Kevin took the slow songs, Shamus "slack". i took the sermon as usual. sis gwen preached today, about "God gives me abilities". 1cor12:4-10 talks about the same spirit of God gives us diff abilities. God's love is equal to everyone, though some ppl seem to have more abilities than others.

what really spoke to me was matt 14:28-31. peter trusted in the LORD and walked on water. but he doubted and started to sink. then Jesus asked him: "you of little faith, why did you doubt?" many times i know the LORD is faithful, that he can do all things... but i doubted that I can be used by Him. i trusted the LORD, but not myself.

1peter4:10 is about serving the LORD with our God-given gifts, using what we have to serve God and others.. all we need to do is too avail our time, talent, and treasure.

the message today really spoke to my heart. many times i know that God has given me talents, but sometimes i feel that i dun really have.. i know He wants to use me, but i doubted that i had enough worth to be used. overall, service was impactful to me.

have been spending most of my time these days writing my story... colouring my characters... basically "wasting time". XP

Pre-service Video:

these ppl show how their lives were changed when they came to know Christ.

Five Loaves and Two Fishes -by Corrinne May

2008-09-06T19:27:00.008+08:00

A little boy of thirteen
Was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
And he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
To the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom
Even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
The day turned into night
Everyone was hungry
But there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
At the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
There were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
The kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out
With the trust of a child
He said:

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
To feed them all

I often think about that boy
When I'm feeling small
And I worry that the work I do
Means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry
Is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All you need is my "Amen"

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibition
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small

study date

2008-09-05T14:58:00.005+08:00

Wanted to blog this yesterday, but my sis kop(?) the laptop, then my bro use the computer... so blog today lor.

anyway, yesterday met shiny at j8 macs around 10, 10.30+, then went to church together to study. the leaders opened a classroom for us so those who wanna go can go there and study. in the morning got only me, shiny, denise, sean, chris, sara, and sarah. some leaders dropped in to check if we were studying, like P. Da, sis gwen, bro titus, bro KaF... did some maths then did bio mcq. when denise and shiny listen to their mp3, you talk to them, they wont be able to hear you... shiny started singing while listening to her music, we kept calling her but she couldnt hear us... then denise said "your singing is awful", and shiny turned around! haha. apparently her music just ended and she heard us laughing... =)

went out to eat lunch. when go back to study, bro yong heng was there supervising us, and jonathan, kevin, danny, and a couple more ppl came to join us to study... its good to have 'smart' ppl around when studying. jon and kevin were helping danny with math, chris was the 'science guru' cos he take triple science and is quite strong in them, sean was the 'maths guru'...

was still doing bio mcq... made quite some careless mistakes xP then whenever dont know the answer or my answer doesnt tally with the answer key then ask chris. the study session was quite fun. was doing questions regarding the human reproductive system... then me and chris started talking about the placenta.. like how it was full of nutrients, and that it was used in some cosmetic products... and jon overheard and was grossed out by the fact that ppl were applying other ppl's placenta on their skin.. haha XD then later chris was studying the reflex action (nervous system), and he wacked danny as an example of a conditioned reflex, stating the stimulus, and what happens all the way to the effector muscles..

overall it was quite fun, and productive for me. (considering it takes a remarkable effort for me to even pick up my textbook at home...) it wasnt productive for everyone, cos some ppl keep getting distracted with their frens conversations, and a couple of guys kept playing their psp instead of studying... but it was good bonding on the whole and good studying for those who did study. =) left at 5.30+ really had fun yesterday. =)

Night Safari

2008-09-02T04:55:00.001+08:00

today (or more like yesterday) was my bro's birthday. we (along with my parents' friend, and their family) went to night safari to celebrate his Bday. it was really fun. watched a tribal performance, took the tram ride, saw the night creatures, went down the leopard trail, watched the creatures of the night show, walked down the forest giant trail, and along the fishing cat trail...

saw the giant flying squirrel "fly" from one tree to the other, saw the leopard pacing to and fro in its enclosure, saw the mousedeers and otters feeding, saw the clouded leopard sleeping, saw the hunting dogs, spotted hyenas, striped hyenas, giraffees, various speices of deer, the hog badger, lions, elephants, indian rhinos, tigers, fruit bats, binturongs, tapirs, owls, servals, leopard cat, raccoons, mongooses, hippos, lions, buffalos, porcupines, mugger, gharials, various species of birds... and more animals than i can currently remember...

It was an enjoyable night. had ben and jerry icecream for supper and cut the cake there, and went for a 'night tour'. went to Henderson 'wave' bridge and walked the length of it. it was a fun and relaxing walk. my parents' friend kept telling me jokes after jokes... had a great time. then went out to some malay place for more food. by then it was way past 1am... drove around singapore some more, and even down part of the F1 racing track, then went home.

it was great fun and i really enjoyed myself. time check now is 5:21 in the morning. didn't have an afternoon nap or whatever yesterday, should be dead tired after the long night out, but can't sleep, that's why I'm here blogging... I know, I'm crazy.

signing off now.

an intro to this blog

2008-09-02T04:40:00.001+08:00

to all who know me, you'll probably had known about my previous blog. Due to lack of motivation and purpose to write, I had decided to close that blog. However, many times I felt the need ever since to post something, but could not do so due to my choice of closing the blog. Now, if I am to continue posting in my initial blog, I feel that the purpose of the blog is wrong. Hence, I created this one.

As the title says, I am searching for who I really am inside. Cos even I myself do not know what I'm like, honestly. If I ask you to describe me, you'll probably just describe the person you think is me, the person I show myself to be in front of others... But don't feel bad if you feel like you don't know me after all, cos even I don't.

I'm sorry if this is a too serious a first post, and if it sets a wrong mood on this blog. But I feel I have to be honest, or the purpose of this blog would be void. don't worry, I'll have happier posts too. =) but i can't promise I'll blog regularly...