~May Your Light Shine =D~

Monday, September 29

A boring sch day of my life:
today mrs veda never come, tat meant 2 free periods =D (n i brought my bio bk for nothing!)
did geometrical proof for math. always had problems with geometrical proofs..
chinese was boring=slack
english went library, did compre (or part of it)
chem ec went thru organic chem and QnA (Zzz)

my sis frens came over to relax since they finished their last paper today. we had fun trying to beat each other scores, and just playing games.. haha. =D didnt study, shall do some after this. XP

came across this on youtube while searching for the song 'stand by me'. i 1st learnt this song on the organ, and it still is one of my fav songs [on organ] and one of the few i can memorise by heart. we sorta learn tis in choir too..

Stand By Me (lion king version)

*in case you didnt notice, whenever timon says "stand by me", something bad would happen to pumbaa... haha LOL!

~just me blogged at 9/29/2008 08:27:00 PM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

Thursday, September 25

i know i haven't posted for a realllly looonng time.. anyway, this is dedicated to all students who are having (or going to have) exams. be it, end-years, promos, 'o' lvls, or 'n' lvls.

The Student's Psalm
The Lord is my Shepherd. I shall not flunk;
He keepth me from lying down when I should be studying.
He leadeth me beside the water cooler for a study break;
He restoreth my faith in study guides.
He leadth me to better study habits for my grade's sake.
Yea, though I walk through the valley of borderline grades,
I will not have a nervous breakdown; for Thou art with me.
My prayers and my friends, they comfort me.
Thou givest me answers in moments of blankness;
Thou anointest my head with understanding.
My exam paper runneth over with questions I recognize
(and, hopefully, remember how to do XD).
Surely passing grades and flying colours shall follow me
All the days of my examinations,
And I shall not have to dwell in this school forever.
--"taken" from Psalms 23 (KJV)

haha. so ppl having exams, JIAYOU!!! ~add oil add oil~ and all who agrees with the psalm say: Amen!
"AMEN!!"

~just me blogged at 9/25/2008 11:03:00 PM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

Sunday, September 14

Prelims ended on thurs. YEAH!
fri: was a bore with BORING career talks... the only interesting one was 'medicine'..
sat: went to Denise's surprise birthday party. was quite fun. she was sooooo surprised when we turned up. she thought it was going to be a boring mooncake festival celebration by her mom's cell, in the end, 10+ church ppl went, +sis gwen, about 5 of her classmates and her relatives... she was soo shocked.. played a prank on her (the initial idea came from me xp) and she and sarah started a cake fight (sort of) was really fun, and good bonding. glad i went. (didnt want to go initially..)

Sunday: today service was great. fabian came (for the 2nd time) today and came for cell! YEAH! was serving in tech today. Bro ZC made me run the soundboard for the fast songs and annoucements. Kevin took the slow songs, Shamus "slack". i took the sermon as usual. sis gwen preached today, about "God gives me abilities". 1cor12:4-10 talks about the same spirit of God gives us diff abilities. God's love is equal to everyone, though some ppl seem to have more abilities than others.

what really spoke to me was matt 14:28-31. peter trusted in the LORD and walked on water. but he doubted and started to sink. then Jesus asked him: "you of little faith, why did you doubt?" many times i know the LORD is faithful, that he can do all things... but i doubted that I can be used by Him. i trusted the LORD, but not myself.

1peter4:10 is about serving the LORD with our God-given gifts, using what we have to serve God and others.. all we need to do is too avail our time, talent, and treasure.

the message today really spoke to my heart. many times i know that God has given me talents, but sometimes i feel that i dun really have.. i know He wants to use me, but i doubted that i had enough worth to be used. overall, service was impactful to me.

have been spending most of my time these days writing my story... colouring my characters... basically "wasting time". XP

Pre-service Video:

these ppl show how their lives were changed when they came to know Christ.

~just me blogged at 9/14/2008 06:59:00 PM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

Saturday, September 6

A little boy of thirteen
Was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
And he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
To the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom
Even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
The day turned into night
Everyone was hungry
But there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
At the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
There were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
The kindness in His smile
And the boy cried out
With the trust of a child
He said:

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
To feed them all

I often think about that boy
When I'm feeling small
And I worry that the work I do
Means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry
Is a diamond in His hands
And every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All you need is my "Amen"

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibition
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

So take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears, my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
No gift is too small

~just me blogged at 9/06/2008 07:27:00 PM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

Friday, September 5

Wanted to blog this yesterday, but my sis kop(?) the laptop, then my bro use the computer... so blog today lor.

anyway, yesterday met shiny at j8 macs around 10, 10.30+, then went to church together to study. the leaders opened a classroom for us so those who wanna go can go there and study. in the morning got only me, shiny, denise, sean, chris, sara, and sarah. some leaders dropped in to check if we were studying, like P. Da, sis gwen, bro titus, bro KaF... did some maths then did bio mcq. when denise and shiny listen to their mp3, you talk to them, they wont be able to hear you... shiny started singing while listening to her music, we kept calling her but she couldnt hear us... then denise said "your singing is awful", and shiny turned around! haha. apparently her music just ended and she heard us laughing... =)

went out to eat lunch. when go back to study, bro yong heng was there supervising us, and jonathan, kevin, danny, and a couple more ppl came to join us to study... its good to have 'smart' ppl around when studying. jon and kevin were helping danny with math, chris was the 'science guru' cos he take triple science and is quite strong in them, sean was the 'maths guru'...

was still doing bio mcq... made quite some careless mistakes xP then whenever dont know the answer or my answer doesnt tally with the answer key then ask chris. the study session was quite fun. was doing questions regarding the human reproductive system... then me and chris started talking about the placenta.. like how it was full of nutrients, and that it was used in some cosmetic products... and jon overheard and was grossed out by the fact that ppl were applying other ppl's placenta on their skin.. haha XD then later chris was studying the reflex action (nervous system), and he wacked danny as an example of a conditioned reflex, stating the stimulus, and what happens all the way to the effector muscles..

overall it was quite fun, and productive for me. (considering it takes a remarkable effort for me to even pick up my textbook at home...) it wasnt productive for everyone, cos some ppl keep getting distracted with their frens conversations, and a couple of guys kept playing their psp instead of studying... but it was good bonding on the whole and good studying for those who did study. =) left at 5.30+ really had fun yesterday. =)

~just me blogged at 9/05/2008 02:58:00 PM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...

Tuesday, September 2

today (or more like yesterday) was my bro's birthday. we (along with my parents' friend, and their family) went to night safari to celebrate his Bday. it was really fun. watched a tribal performance, took the tram ride, saw the night creatures, went down the leopard trail, watched the creatures of the night show, walked down the forest giant trail, and along the fishing cat trail...

saw the giant flying squirrel "fly" from one tree to the other, saw the leopard pacing to and fro in its enclosure, saw the mousedeers and otters feeding, saw the clouded leopard sleeping, saw the hunting dogs, spotted hyenas, striped hyenas, giraffees, various speices of deer, the hog badger, lions, elephants, indian rhinos, tigers, fruit bats, binturongs, tapirs, owls, servals, leopard cat, raccoons, mongooses, hippos, lions, buffalos, porcupines, mugger, gharials, various species of birds... and more animals than i can currently remember...

It was an enjoyable night. had ben and jerry icecream for supper and cut the cake there, and went for a 'night tour'. went to Henderson 'wave' bridge and walked the length of it. it was a fun and relaxing walk. my parents' friend kept telling me jokes after jokes... had a great time. then went out to some malay place for more food. by then it was way past 1am... drove around singapore some more, and even down part of the F1 racing track, then went home.

it was great fun and i really enjoyed myself. time check now is 5:21 in the morning. didn't have an afternoon nap or whatever yesterday, should be dead tired after the long night out, but can't sleep, that's why I'm here blogging... I know, I'm crazy.

signing off now.

~just me blogged at 9/02/2008 04:55:00 AM

to all who know me, you'll probably had known about my previous blog. Due to lack of motivation and purpose to write, I had decided to close that blog. However, many times I felt the need ever since to post something, but could not do so due to my choice of closing the blog. Now, if I am to continue posting in my initial blog, I feel that the purpose of the blog is wrong. Hence, I created this one.

As the title says, I am searching for who I really am inside. Cos even I myself do not know what I'm like, honestly. If I ask you to describe me, you'll probably just describe the person you think is me, the person I show myself to be in front of others... But don't feel bad if you feel like you don't know me after all, cos even I don't.

I'm sorry if this is a too serious a first post, and if it sets a wrong mood on this blog. But I feel I have to be honest, or the purpose of this blog would be void. don't worry, I'll have happier posts too. =) but i can't promise I'll blog regularly...

~just me blogged at 9/02/2008 04:40:00 AM

May your light shine...
in the darkness...