Thursday, April 30
today got ava campaign.. ><
hate these kinds of things.. ><
was super nervous lar. like last time gp oral presentation like tat... but this one MUST NOT let ppl see that i'm nervous. or else sure will lose the vote one..
my legs were trembling and mind was blank... but so far the ppl i asked say they couldnt tell i was nervous. tats good.
but it was a stupid speech. but my sis say was ok. *sighs* so wanna get into exco... shldnt have run for VP.. got so many quite gd ppl running the same position.. shld have run for QM.. no competition.. haiz.
I'm in the june event!!!! YEAH! ok totally random. xP but not confirm the role yet.. but most likely is backstage. cos like i'm the only girl in sound?! so ya. adam sound team no gals at all. then i think miranda cant make it.. sianz. so most likely have to do mic-up for the actresses liao.. unless miraculously got a gal pop up frm i dunno where.. lol. whole tech (who's serving for june event) only got like 2 gals (including me). and inez is in video, which is sortof under tech but not really... so ya. can say i'm the only gal in tech serving for june event...
wanna go fr the china trip... yuan lin more/less confirm going. jorene can go and will go if i go. i wanna go. but scared got rehearsals for june event... bro ZC dunno the rehearsal dates yet, so cant confirm.. but he say most likely shldn't have.. but i think most likely will have lor.. then tmr must give teacher answer liao.... sianz. i scared if i go then will miss out something for the june event.. but i really really wanna go.. if i go, then got rehearsal for june event, then i feel bad. cos like i volunteer to be part of it then miss the rehearsal... but if i dun go (then jorene dun go) then if really no rehearsal... then sure regret de.. sianz. but at least i wont be serving on the sunday we flying off. if not i'll feel really bad.. pao qi joseph yi ge ren.. cos i one of the team leader some more.. then i (considered) the most zai in sound for my team.. then got 2 new ppl in sound (so i suppose to train them..)... then if kevin fly off to some weird place during tat period then sound got no1 who knows how to run the board.. and i dun like asking other ppl frm other teams to help out.. then josie have to handle the team by himself... ya. so gd thing i not serving on tat sunday. (unless they go change the serving schedule but shldnt be..) but i think i'll just go for the china trip lar. fan zhen my role in june event is probably just backstage, so not tat important.. though i still dun wanna miss a single rehearsal.. but haiz. cant have the best of all the worlds right? must have some sacrifice here and there.
getting stuck in pi again. sianz. dun feel like doing anymore. xP might just decide to leave it as a high ME and dun care liao. gpp also dying.. no research, no plan on when to meet, dunno how to start writing, dateline coming up.... sianz ><
haiz. think i shld go sleep now. got so much ideas running thru my mind.. but no time to write them down. =(
Tuesday, April 21
today finally got back bio test!! xP
got 20/40.. which is super good considering i didnt study for the test.. well, actually i did, only half. and tat half didnt really come out.. xP so its really THANK GOD that i got the results i've got.
also have to thank Him for my pw grp. me, pat, jorene and linus. =) yeah!! xD was thinking most likely wont be able to be with ppl in the clique, but WOW! me pat and jorene in the same grp!! then linus and pat was in the same grp as me during project management workshop, so its like WOW! we're in the same pw grp!! =) i like my pw grp. we got like 3 terrorists and a SARs epidemic.. put them together and u get terrorists on a biological attack!!! hahaha. xD
going to do PI soon.. >< my highest is just a ME.. not even a high ME... ><
tmr got MOD test.. die.. probably go study if do PI finish still got time..
i shld be doing my work and not blogging... xP
dunno why.. keep getting distracted nowadays.. even in sch.. ><
Tuesday, April 14
wah.. today bio test >< nvr study finish, so dunno how to do the question, then leave blank.. >< lol.
at least pw i finally got a ME. YEAH! haha. xD
me and jorene keep high five-ing today.. haha. lol. bio prac end early cos mark goh nvr come, so we go chinese rm and slack. laugh super a lot. then chinese going to start liao, i still sitting on the table, sam lying on the table.. then suddenly the door open, then the 2 of us quickly got off. super funny. in the end it was just shao hua and the rest lar. we thought was teacher.. lol.
chinese also laugh a lot. cant rmb why.. then after chinese joled keep talking stupid things all the way to the busstop. laugh super a lot. lol.
tmr got 5.5hr break!! yeah!! cos pw teacher not coming! =D haha. the class wanna go eat sushi. i dun like sushi. *shrugs* and tmr going to donate blood!! xP haha. sam is so enthu about it. keep going ard spamming ppl's blog to advertise... lol.
dang scared of the needle.. dun like things piercing my skin.. but really really wanna know what's my blood type, tats why i going.. xP
tats all for today. =)
Monday, April 6
wah... today broZC announce tech gonna multiply frm 2 teams to 3 teams..and i'm one of the tech leaders for the new teams.. >< *stress* then now no shamus, jon, or danny to help liao... >< then the other sound person on my team is kevin, n he's either late, or overseas, so i have to do all the eq.. >< then the new team includes the new ppl who just join tech.. which means i have to teach those who join the sound department in my team about sound.. >< and i'm not confident/good in tat area lar! how to teach! ><
so dead. super stress lar. at least got josie as the other tech leader, so not so bad.. but stil.. in sound, gg liao.
shoot. tmr (or more like later today) got math and chem test. and i sortof study for chem test, but i dun think i can do well for it.. having problems in chem.. >< then nvr study for math test at all! gg. ><
then i was just informed tat we're supposed to hand in our 2nd PI by tmr(/today) and i havent started yet! >< n my teacher a bit siao one.. very fierce.. wah.. gg liao lor. ><
i am so dead tmr..... X/
shoot lar. back to studying. ><
Friday, April 3
long time since i've last blogged.. been quite busy. whole hols was packed.. only free day was like sat.. but had to do hw then...
fun-est thing tat happened in the hols was SPONTANEOUS! went to pasir ris park for the outing. played wacko, handi-plus, and captain's ball b4 snacking. then dog-and-bone. we play dog-and-bone super fun. emmanuel (my grp) kept "sneaking" and "stealing" the bone. super funny. in the end we nvr keep score and just play for fun, partially cos we really like the game, and partially cos we dun wanna play the next game.. jer came up with tis super dirty game (inspired frm eX[pl]ode camp): use the spaghetti and pick up the pasta bits.. ONLY USING UR MOUTH! xP and to make things worse, the pasta was covered with pumpkin-flavoured baby food. >< (the baby food stank!) didnt wanna play.. but oh well, for the sake of love fun joy n laughter. my grp's strategy was "take ur time, let the other grp win and get dirty." (contributed by me) cos the worse thing tat can happen is forfeit, and forfeit as a grp isnt so bad.. jer didnt play.. >=/ lol. but after the game (when he talking on the phone) we plot how to "get revenge" for him not playing the game while making the rest of us get dirty. haha. so we carried out the plan. chris (frm rugby) tackled him, the guys held him down, n the gals smeared the leftover baby food on his face. haha. super fun! xD then jer hugged chris and wiped the baby food on his shirt. then the guys decided to gang up on chris with the remaining baby food. took them super long to catch chris. he brushed off 2 tackles while running.. but in the end he also got baby food smeared on him.. then he go tackle yanxiang, the main guy behind his attack. lol. super funny. i just sat there and ate chips. xD like watching free movie. haha. later chris shared a powerful testimony and we had a "altar call" sorta.. had dinner together at burger king. =)
1st two weeks of term2 were ok. still struggling to convince myself to do hw etc.. like i kept saying to pat "i very guai in every area but hw.." sian.. haiz.. feeling the heat of jc life liao.. had the stupid pe YOG project thing (which is a total waste of time) n we nvr exercise, just do project.. =( i know i'm weird.. i actually like pe.... lol. then there's the release of pw task.. >< so super whooper hard!!! "emergency" n "conservation"... arrgghhh. got an AE for PI.. >< sianz.. the past 2 yrs task is soooooo much easier lar!! then got math test ytd.. so screwed... >< Qn1 i think i know how to do.. Qn2a i quite sure i know how to do.. skip Qn2b, dunno how to do.. did Qn3i, but think i do wrong.. rest of Qn3 nvr do.. shoot. i like lose half my marks in blanks liao lor.. sianz..
haiz.. then mon got chem and math test.. >< sooooo screwed. dang it. then following mon got bio.. 1st 2 chapters... >< last yr the test NO ONE PASS and they were only tested on 1 chapter.. we tested on TWO!!! die liao lor. so dead.. *i wonder wat happened to all my As...=(*
today got duty for international friendship day rehearsal.. pe end at 4, duty at 5.. so i was super early.. wasted time in the control rm.. xP chris say dun start until overseer come.. then my sis (the overseer) didnt know.. n she happily do her hw and come late.. lol. so hse exco ppl come up and ask us to set up.. then cos only got 3 of the 5 ppl on duty there, and the j2s dun wanna help us.. so no choice lor, so the 3 of us who were there early/on time have to go down do sai kang work.. i dun mind doing it lar.. but i prefer the control board, n i havent touched the board yet cos the past few times i do set up.. =( haix.. i'm seriously irritated with ava. even after taking into account tat this is by the sch, so naturally the standard's lower.. but SERIOUSLY!?!? esp after being trained in high discipline (in some sense) in the tech team, its really hard.. *sigh* i'll be the 1st person to say ava is a slack cca, cos it is a slack cca. u dun hav to be on duty for events if u dun want to. there's no training, n only the few short meetings to clear admin stuff.. so the workload is really little, esp compared to the ccas with A divs and syf! but Im aware and "trained" to be alert on the job. which means even though its a slack cca, when u're on duty, u are NOT to be found slacking. but for the other members.. esp j1s.. the commitment esp on duty is just different frm wat i'm used to.
another thing i find hard to cope with is punctuality and communication. in tech, we're usually on time if not slightly early for some. if u're late,esp for a few times, u'll be 'scolded' or talked-to.. cos we believe in honouring God and honouring others and their time. n we only have a limited time to do everything.. n besides, for those learning in the diff departments (like me) most of the impt stuff is done at the beginning.. so if u're late, u'll miss it. n by starting early/on time, we'll definitely have sufficient time to do our job and handle any technical errors etc. in ava... like not just today.. take morning assembly for example. i was the 2nd person there, even though i had lessons in the morning! those without were suppose to come earlier. and those who had lessons just strolled down when their lessons ended with no sense of urgency. haiz.. see the diff? and the super irritating thing is tat those who are on time usually end up doing the sai kang work while those who r late run the board! bah bu cheung. like tat i also come late lar! then can run the board! sian. in tech, we always have some1 in charge. if not an adult leader, then a team leader, or just the more experienced one in tat department. fan zhen there's some1 in charge. so i'm used to working with ppl with direct "orders from above" and having an organised team. in ava? super disorganised. control board totally silent. no instructions/directions. those setting up on stage dunno wat else to do... in tech we'll set up finish, then follow the directions of the soundboard person to test each mike etc. the person at the soundboard wld control main vol, and balance the volumes for all the mikes. haiz.. today, the control rm give no directions, so we have to test mike wat. so we tell them wat mike we testing, got sound, then done. my sis say the person on the soundboard dun even know how to use it! then by the time he locate the mike, we test finish liao, so he cannot balance the mike vol.. for goodness sake! then TELL US WHAT U NEED US TO DO!! its not like we can read ur mind!u need us to test the mike JUST SAY! u've got a mike up there too so USE IT for goodness sake! *shakes head in exasperation!* i seriously dunno wat to say man.. haix. wah.. then tell them need 2 mike stands, 2 ppl came down.. EMPTY-HANDED! like seriously man. i can imagine how broZC would have done everything lar. he would like assign tasks to individuals, then once everything setup liao, he'll like cut every1 and bring up specific mikes to test, eq and balance, giving the person on tat mike instructions to test it... then repeat tat for all the mikes etc until everything is done, working, eq-ed, balanced, wat-not. no time wasted. directions clear. no confusion. totally organised. EFFICIENT.
n i feel the j2s shld have done more. I'm not shooting u or wat, but i seriously feel tat since u already have so many ppl who (by right) dun need to be here for duty but are here anyway, u shld have like at least one on top and one below. cos even after the training in the camp, most if not all of us are still unsure of wat to do. u standing by the side watching us wont help. u shld be like helping us along the way, teaching us wat's the proper way. the best time for us to learn and for u to teach is ON THE JOB. not just in training. like tech, we have trainings at least once or twice a yr. but the REAL training comes when we're serving, when we're ON THE JOB, when we're running the board, when we make mistakes, when we LEARN FROM THE EXPERIENCED'S EXAMPLES, when THEY TEACH US WHILE WE SERVE. in this way, we get both the knowledge and experience at the same time. not just experience and no knowledge like today's, or knowledge and no experience like during the training camp. i'm not saying the training was useless. NO! far from it! but the training just introduces us to our job as ava. it does not teach us wat to do in situations we encounter while on duty. tats something YOU have to teach. sure we can learn by making mistakes and learning frm them. but since u're there, wont it be faster and more efficient if u instruct us instead of just watching us and not helping? this is like our first time doing duty for an event. its not as simple as morning assembly. we need help. we're totally unsure of wat to do.
haiz..... look at how tech runs stuff.. look at how ava runs stuff... the diff is sooo obvious and soooooooooo different! is it just me? are my expectations too high? ava can nvr reach the standard of tech, but at least it shld have a higher standard. shouldnt it? or am i expecting too much of ava? haix. i really feel ava should BUCK UP!
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