Friday, June 12
went down to tca library again to study yesterday. since rach studying in sch with her fren, i got ben ben to pei wo. =) ------------->
did math again. wasnt as distracted as the last round, but still was quite slow....
had dinner super early.. xP cos got rehearsal at 6pm.. (or so i thought)
suppose to go chapel.. but door lock. then hang around a bit, then brandon came. by then door open liao (dunno who open de) but inside is like no lights? no one? so we stayed outside. hang ard some more and jon came. plus some folks frm adam whose names i cant seem to rmb and match to the face.
broZC called, say rehearsal is at 7pm... we were like "wow... so we're here so early for..???" its like what the.. haix. so decided go study bio. cell bio. cant seem to absorb anything. but have to study anyways. so tried to study. then jon go take out his laptop and go youtube go watch movie. heck. dun need study liao. xP watch mr.deeds. but load super slow. but the little bit tat we watched was super funny xD
PDa came and brought us into the chapel. hang ard some more while everyone else came. 7+ had prayer. then rehearsal. =)
had two full runs. tech no need do anything (sort of) just take down notes etc etc.. 2nd run was with the band (ie live music) plus the main ppl have to sing their lines (with mic) then broZC go ask me go on stage to help take the mic etc etc.. and i'm like so weird on stage? like so awkward (for me) cos i also not sure wats going on. dunno who need the mic when. then everytime they finish using the mic liao they pass to PDa/BroKF/BroJer, so i'm like "what am i suppose to do?" then in the end i also no mic... so i'm like standing there taking up space being useless. dang. and its not like backstage got a lot of space.
hate it when i feel like i'm not doing anything or cant do anything. its like i'm so not needed or something. n i cant seem to do anything good enough. n its like everyone seems to be doing a better job than me. and.. oh dang it.
lots of the things in the drama is striking too close to home....
haiz.... heard tat got rehearsals on mon-wed next week too.. so have to cancel the movie plan... haiz. wanted to go out watch movie and stuff to celebrate jon's and janice's bday.. but all also not free.. then plus the additional rehearsals... so i cant go for the class bbq and outing liao. oh. and it clashes with my guitar lessons. dang. changed the guitar lesson to tues so it wont clash. (originally on mon will clash more at tat time) then plus mon is later.. so will miss the whole rehearsal (more/less) but tues is earlier so will just be late by 1hr+?
my whole hols is like gone liao. slacked the 1st week off. study and slack and had activities the past week.. next week mon-wed rehearsal, thur-fri LIFE conference, (sat-break), following sun-wed rehearsal, thur-sat actual event! then sun (usual service + strike set) and its back to sch and MID-YEARS!!! >< so its like this week is the only week left for me to really study, and there's like only tmr left? cos sat got redcross and sun (probably) rehearsal.. and i like hardly even started studying???!!!! so i'm like soooooooooooooooo dead for mid-years.
oh. and i cant find my MI tutorial. dang. havent tried a single MI question yet. sure die one. only reason why i survived the tests was bcos they covered tat topic in immersion, if not i even more lost.
i'm like lost, confused, tired out, burdened.............. emo-ing.. seem to be doing tat a lot nowadays... shucks.
anyways, so mid-years i confirm gg liao. haix.
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